Caja06
~~~12-1-06~~~ I know all of you have felt the same way at some point, but I just sick and tired of being "fat". I'm tired of being out of breath when I carry my boys upstairs, I'm tired of my knees, back and feet hurting all the time, I'm tired of not wanting my hubby to see me without layers of clothes on because I am sooooo insecure, and I'm tired of trying diet after diet after diet only to fail. Oh how I long to RUN after my oldest boy instead of just sitting on the floor playing with him. I dont want them to grow up being teased in school because their mom is fat. I am tired of eating in public and feeling like everyone is watching what I eat, and how much I eat. I just want to live a normal, healthy life again.
My PCP suggested I look into WLS. No biggie, as I was thinking about it before I even talked to her. Of course, my parents wanted to know what she said, so I told them just that. Both my mom and my dad said, and I quote, "I think they are just too quick to push that surgery on people anymore" "You are NOT having surgery!" and the most ANNOYING one "All you need is diet and excercise." Excuse me?! I am 27 years old, married and have 2 small children. You can NOT tell me not to have surgery. As for diet and exercise, HELLO! If that worked, I wouldnt even be in this situation! My mom was saying that the only reason to have it is if you have some sort of serious heath problem, blah blah blah. I, of course, had to remind her that being severly obese IS a health problem. I also have one of my best friends (who is also very overweight) telling me "we are going to do this diet and lose weight so we will look good in our bridemaids dresses. We dont someone to cut us open and rearrange our insides. Besides, thats the easy way out." I politely informed her that no, if anything (well, if it worked) diet and exercise was the easy way out. That there is NOTHING easy about WLS. My hubby and my In-laws are the ones (right now) that are VERY supportive in all of this. I do plan on doing this to change my life. For me, for my husband, and for my kids. I have not told my parents that yet.
What I have told them is that my insurence covers it, but they need the 6 month sup. diet. So I am going to talk to the surgeon and get the diet in, that way, in 5 months, if I decided to go for it (which I already plan on) then I have the 6 months in and wont have to start all over again. I have to go to the seminar before I see the surgeon, which is next Wendsday, Dec. 6th. after that, I will make my appointment and really get the ball rolling.
I am so glad to have found OH, it has helped me soooo much just "seeing" others that have gone through/are going through the same thing I am.
~~~1/11/07~~~
I went to the informational seminar Tuesday night, and I am thrilled to say I didnt learn anything! Everything they discussed, I already knew. Makes me feel good knowing I did my research! I made my appointment to see the surgeon, so I do that on February 5th. She asked me if I was looking at the RNY, or the Lap-Band. I told her that when I called my insurence 2 months ago, they didnt cover the Lap-band. She told me to call again, because UPMC does cover it now. Well, I called them and was told that it was not covered, BUT the surgeon can call them and request that it is covered for me and it will be no problem. So now that I have both options available, once again. I dont know which I will do. My best friens has come around and is now considering it for herself. Its great to know that we could be doing this together and be able to support each other. My dad on the other hand is STILL (and I quote) "100% AGAINST this". Thats fine, I didnt ask for you to be for it, I just ask for your SUPPORT of ME through it. He was telling my brother about all of it, and said "I talk till I'm blue in the face, but she STILL wont listen to me." umm, I'm almost 28 years old, I dont have to listen to him anymore. At least I have my hubby, in-laws and others who know about this behind me.
So I guess I am on my way to giving myself, my husband, and my two boys a much better, healthier me. And I have never been so excited about anything in my whole life.
~~~February 5, 2007~~~
I had my consult today, and I must say, I really like the surgeons. Dr Costa I met at the seminar last month, and Dr Zelkovic I met today. They are extremly friendly, and comfortable to be around, and at the same time, very strict on what they want patients to do and continue doing. Melanie, the woman who I will go through most of this with is also just awesome. I got my list of tests and consults I have to go through in the next six months, so it seems with all I have to do, it will go by fairly fast. My next appointment will be with the dietitian to actually get this 6 months started, so I hope to do that by next week. My blood pressure was a tad high for the first time in my life, so I am hopeing it was some sort of fluke or something like that. He also diagnosed me with Osteoarthritis, which I didnt think I actually had. But hey, something was bound to give with all this excess weight right?
My best friend is also looking into this, although she is looking into the RNY. But is the same surgeon as me, so I am going with her to the seminar tomarrow. Both doctors, and Melanie will all be there, so she'll get to meet them all.
