caligirl2829
I think I went on my 1st diet at about age 17 and looking back now, I had absolutely no need for it then. But of course that's just my opinion. I'm sure that some boy made a comment about my body not being good enough 
or society told me the same thing
via some t.v. show or Cosmopolitan magazine-and so, my life long struggle with my weight and my happiness began
...
...
...... I would lose weight
and then gain it back
, lose more weight
and gain even more back
. This went on for years, the yo-yo dieting, diet programs, diet pills
, and my love-hate relationship with food and with myself. I went from obsessively excercising multiple xs everyday of the week to I can't even remember
the last time I got some physical activity accomplished
. Now alot of that has to do with my health and pain. Shortly after my second child was born and many months of being deathly ill and NoOne knowing what was wrong with me. I was finally diagnosed with Systemic Lupus
- I was only 28. The combination of depression, medications (Prednisone) and lack of movement / excercise caused me to put on even more weight
. At this point in my life I was miserable-
This Was My Rock Bottom!! I weighed more than I did when I delivered either of my children. I had known several peeps who had successfully undergone WLS so I attended my 1st seminar in California only to find out within a few months that I would be denied by my insurance for not being fat enough!
/%/X!@#?? SERIOUSLY ?? I was 5"6 222lbs my BMI was 35**SEE BELOW** - I was certainly considered Obese, just not morbidly obese and I did not qualify according to my insurance. Nothing could've hurt worse at this point . However, they did tell me what the qualifications were and I wasn't all that far off- 
So my brain heard...If you gain a little more weight you will qualify for the surgery
! I know this may seem drastic and even downright stupid, but this is just how desperate I had become.
We ended up moving shortly after this and I would let it go for now. But, eventually, I would change Insurance, of course I did put on more weight and I would try again in a few years and a different state...
Seminar #2 was in Colorado in late 2010 I went through the whole process again, gained the weight and low and behold they were about to deny me once again when I realized they had my height incorrect on my chart
WHEW! they had my height at 2" inches taller than I was- My BMI was so close to where they wanted it to qualify that this little error made all the difference in the world- I would be APPROVED FOR SURGERY! Hooray,
wow what a relief! By the time I had finished with all my classes,appointments amd other criteria, it had taken just over a year so they made me attend yet another seminar-
Seminar #3 and this had better be the LAST!! LoL Age-40 Ht- 5"4 Wt- 239lbs BMI-41
Same center, same hospital, same surgeon -they seem to be pretty confident that my health and my medications wont be any problem, so that's good. Oh yeah, I forgot to mention my other concern
was that I take 180mgs Methadone for Pain/addiction
