Now for the next stage in this adventure

Feb 20, 2010

It has been awhile since I wrote, so thought I should update everyone on what has been going on. So, I finished my 6 months of "medically supervised diet" in January. I just love my PCP and she has given me even more confidence that at this I will not fail because I have proven to myself that I can be consistent and do the work over time. She is so proud of me. She is also great to point out the perfectionism that has sabotaged me so many times before. As in, "I really was expected to lose 10 pounds this month and I only lost 8 so I totally suck" and then end up comforting myself with food and scrap the whole thing. She would genuinely celebrate any loss no matter how small. That really shook me up in a great way. Anyway, when I finished up my last appointment with her, she insisted on writing a letter for my insurance company though it wasn't required. She gave me a huge hug and told me how proud she was of me. WOW! After being belittled all my life by doctors who would not believe how hard I was working just to lose one pound, that was a major change. I am her patient for life, for sure! Anyway....then the waiting....
Despite the insurance company assuring me that I would get approved within 24 hours, I had no idea that it would take roughly a month to get all the paperwork from my PCP to the surgeon's office and from the surgeon's office to the insurance company. Also, the nurse case manager I had been assigned to had quit and my case had been closed in December. They had to reopen it and assign another nurse to the case. That took a week. The PCP's office staff kept sending 2 months of information instead of 6. No one was communication with me. Thankfully, I have had experience in both a doctor's office and with an insurance company (thanks, God, for the weird detours in life that prepared me for this point in my life with the knowledge that I needed to advocate for myself. If I haven't told you today, I think YOU are totally amazing!). That experience taught me that patient's have to advocate and push for things to happen, otherwise they sit and nothing happens. So, after roughly a month (and that's with me calling all the office's all the time!) the paperwork got to the insurance company and I was approved very quickly. I found out from my surgeon's office on 2/12 that I would be having surgery on 2/25. I met my surgeon and completed the last class on 2/17. Now I am preparing my house and family for the next phase.
I have a 6 year old son and 2 year old foster daughter in a addition to a supportive husband. Hubby has been great about supporting this whole process, however, I feel like he doesn't get how much his life is going to change as much as mine will. For awhile dinner is solely going to be his domain, I will have to rely on him for a great many chores until I have healed enough for carrying loads of laundry and such. I just don't know if he has considered how he might feel to see me a great deal more helpless than he has even known me. I am afraid he is going to freak. But, despite these questions, I have faith that I am on the path that God would have me on. I have faith that I will survive the surgery, will recover, and will begin the metamorphisis into the woman He designed (even if the inside plumbing has been seriously messed with).
So, I will sign off for now and will endeavor to write more often. I would like some documentation of my journey over the next year. I invite you to witness this change.

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Bardstown, KY
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36.9
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RNY
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02/25/2010
Surgery Date
Dec 27, 2008
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