candiecc
Pt.2 Waiting for my life to change
Jan 01, 2010
I think I know where my eating habits stems from? I think it started when I was a kid? Now I know I said that I wasn't a chubby kid but I still believe the bad eating habits began there. What I mean by that is, I can remember when my mom used to take me a my sisters to go get something to eat, like out to eat, and every time I would ask for something special or not even special just something that I wanted I could never have it! even if I ask for cheese on my hamburger I couldn't have it! It made me so mad lol! and I remember saying to myself that when I get big I'm going to eat what ever and where ever I want when I wanted to.Do you know that till this day when I go to eat, I have that same thought in my head, that I had when I was a little girl, that I'm able to buy whatever I wanted and that's what I do! I know there's something wrong with that lol but that's how I feel sometimes I can afford it, I'm grown, and I eat what I want and as much as I want, Knowing that it's hurting me but I just couldn't stop I just eat eat and eat!!!
What's also funny about my eating habits are, I have to eat everything on my plate which also stems from my childhood. You know the old saying by your mom! eat everything on your plate OK.... And that's what I do, when I know that I'm full and just fell as though I'm wasting food by throwing it away?? I'm so sad:( I'm so fed up with myself and ready for a change! I'm ready to make a lifestyle change! The weight that I have gained has really changed my life personally and emotionally. Lord knows I have prayed to him and I think that he has lead me here for the help of someone else to help me with this journey of changing my life.
