I'm Done losing?? what ?? how do you know??

Jan 25, 2009

HI everyone!
Happy New year! I had my 1 year follow up on dec 9th.. and Dr. T said I was done losing, I said Yah, how do you know he says because your gaining ! oh.. that would do it..  WEll nate said  (personal trainer) to eat more carbs.. guess NO one should say that to  me.. as I did just that and still doing it.. eeech.. HELP .. this problem didnt go away.. I Like food still,  I crave sweets again.. help...   I have to  HAVE TO  pay attention  and stop putting stuff in my mouth automatically, un mindlfully.    Wow its scarey when you start to gain, although I am gaining muscles they say.. I know I am not making the best choices lately and  thats instant poundage.. I EXERCISE  4 times a week at least for pain and stress relief, I still have some pretty tight abs,  and soo blessed by cardio endurance  level 5 on eliptical  is what I have to do to sweat now..
I am just realizing that I have to work hard forever.. That this  is not a diet,yes we can use them to get back on track, but we know dietsssssssss dont work, thats why we have surgery and get approved for them. We have to fix our head, well this head is some stubborn it is  really mouth this winter..  and  It has several voices.. sweet, carbs, and crunchy.. hehe
         well  jUst let ya know I'm back, and will be getting to the meetings again.. My daughter has dance same nights as augusta and just an hour off , neeed to find another place for meetings to go to, as staying account -able is absolutley necessary for this ride..  I  am a loser but also a gainer, and  its ok.. but dont want to gain anymore.. hehe
                Just  back to reality.. put more in then I burn it happens.. even to people with pouches, especially people with pouches..  move to lose, off to the gym praise you father for my will power on that end, please give me more will power for my  hands to mouth.           I'm gonna go weigh today I havent weighed since dec 9th.. and  find that the scale especially in the begining   is  not a good tool for me anyway..  but today its going to be as its now needed I can feel my clothes that snug feeling again .. Instead of everything hanging off.. 
have a great day Happy NEw Year to all! blessings!
Allicca

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