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Once again someone has commented on my weight loss and said I was losing my behind. Again, I ask, how is this possible?! I didn't have any to begin with. Does this mean I am going to end up concave?! Will I need collagen in the buttocks? Or go the cheaper route and buy padding? Maybe it will stop in this particular area soon.

As an ode to those with more back in the derriere than I, here are the titles of a few songs. Songs that definitely do not refer to me:

1. Ms. New Booty by Bubba Sparxx
2. Baby Got Back by Sir Mix A Lot
3. Rump Shaker by Wrecks-N-Effect
4. There's Too Much Booty In the Pants (unsure of artist)
5. My Humps by Black Eyed Peas

Another one of those things about weight loss is that the weight seems to come from the places you don't want it to. I wish it would melt from my thighs and stomache and it is NOT budging. Meanwhile, the bottom and breasts, places I wanted to keep as much as possible, the weight flies right off.

Okay. . . . so we're losing the weight and that is great but there are some things people don't tell you. I'm here to take up the slack!!

1. Your refrigerator and freezer stay full. Example: I didn't feel like cooking so I went by a buffet to get a to go meal. I realized I could get 4 meals out of this trip and I only had one container. The downside, I like variety so I will not be eating that 4 meals in a row. So, in the meantime you have something else to eat which can be turned into 2 meals or more and end up with more food in the frig. My freezer is jam packed. So the food doesn't go bad, that's where it ends up. Therefore, a full frig and freezer.

2. Spaghetti straps can be deadly. LADIES, this one is for you.Because the nighties and lingerie are getting to be too big your spaghetti straps will take on a life of their own while you sleep. I woke up one morning to find my breasts had fallen out of  my nightgown. This would have not been a problem if it wasn't for the spaghetti straps. The straps had wrapped themselves around one of my breasts in a very entangled manner. I took me 5 minutes to work myslf out of those darn straps. It was painful, too. Thought I was going to give myself a radical mastectomy fighting to get out of the straps.

3. Hunger strikes at the most inoppurtune times. My stomache seems to tak eon a life of its own when I am truly hungry. It sounds like I have a lion in there or something. This noise always seems to come about while I'm some place relatively quiet  like church or Sunday school. Those are also the times when inexplicably I don't have a snack with me.

4. People may think you are fasting for religous reasons when you're on the liquid diet. LOL. My sorority had a function one week after my surgery that I needed to attend. Of course, I couldn't eat the meal provided. When one of my sorors inquired why I wasn't eating I said I was on liquids only. All of a sudden she got real serious, lowered her voice almost to a whisper and asked very seriously, "Is it for religous purposes?" She was so serious and humble, I couldn't help but laugh.

I've missed walking Sunday, Monday and Tuesday due to illness. It was not fun but life goes on. After spending the last 3 days either on the toilet or , I was definitely ready to get busy this morning. I actually missed exercising, didn't think I would ever say that!

With the second fill, I still really don't feel any restriction. Maybe, I don't know what the restriction is supposed to feel like .  I guess all that matters is if I keep losing weight. If I keep losing weight and can still eat the foods I like, why complain. I've been fluctuating up and down the same 2 lbs since last fill. 
My goal is still to be under 200 lbs by July 20. We'll see what happens. Hopefully, the illness is completely over and I can keep my exercise schedule.

Drumroll please! 31, at least according to my doctor's scale. By my home scale it's 34, whatever the case may be  . . .I'll take it!

Yes, I'm still getting up at 5:30 a.m. and exercising six days a week. I plan to continue to do so. My first mini goal is to be under 200 by the time my birthday hits in July. I think I can make it because I'll be adding afternoon walks in this week also. I'm ahead of Dr. Bilton's 1-2 lbs a week he wants me to lose so I'm quite pleased. Got a 1 cc fill today and I think I feel some restriction finally. I didn't feel anything with the first one.

I finally got rid of the dreaded number also! Plateau is gone!

 . . . I think it might be a miracle!  I guess exercising with my dad gave me the boost I needed to exercise regularly. 

This Saturday I woke up around 6 a.m. because I had to go to the bathroom. I had every intention of going right back to sleep. However, it hit me . . . . GO WALKING! What?! Yes, I went walking at 6 a.m. and discovered I liked it. Then the same thing happened Sunday. I went walking at 6 a.m. before church. . . . and I liked it. 

So, now during the week I get up at 5:30 a.m. and exercise for half an hour. I alternate between walking and riding my recumbent bike. I actually rode 8 miles in half an hour which totally shocked me.

Unfortunately, that dreaded number is still on the scale but hopefully it will disappear soon. I see Dr. Bilton on June 9 and I better be getting a fill.

 There is one noticeable thing. Most of my weight loss has come from my nonexistent behind. How is that even possible? I could tell it was happening because my pants have been bunching up in the back because of the air pocket but I chose to be in denial . . . . until one of my coworkers said. "Tamara! It looks like you're losing weight in your behind!" Denial is now a reality *sigh*. Nonexistent to negative zero!! LOL

Normally, I would not do more than one post on a day. However, I will today. A coworker of mine stopped by my office today. She had lap band surgery a month before I did. Actually, I think she was sent by God because she works on another side of the buliding  on a different floor and NEVER comes to my office.

She began telling me how she didn't feel restriction and see much weight loss until her second fill. It was almost like she'd read my earlier post  (she hadn't, doesn't even know I have a blog) and came to encourage me. Her story was almost exactly like mine with staying at the same weight and getting discouraged. She really helped me feel better.

This may be cliched but is so true: He may not come when you want Him but He's always right on time!

Once again the scale has not moved, except one pound in the up diretion. My body seems to love this number that is all too familiar to me. Meanwhile my brain and my emotions are going haywire. I even had a dream about eating a candy bar. Where did that come from?! I very rarely ate candy before the surgery and I sure haven't had one since surgery .I'm ready for the scale to move in the down direction . . . even if it's just one pound. I went home, walked four miles a day and ate less; still no change. 

It's hard not to get discouraged when you feel like you are trying hard. Makes it feel like you are failing at something you desperately want to succeed in. Yes, I know our bodies normally fluctuate for various reasons. I've also only had one fill thus far and really don't feel any restriction. From what I've read a lot of people don't feel restriction until after at least a couple fills.My next appointment is June 9 and hopefully that will help. Any words of encouragement or advice will be gladly welcomed.

Hopefully, I will get my recumbent bike today. Of course, it wasn't ready when it was supposed to be last week. I also meet with the nutritionist today. I hope she's better in person than she is over the phone. Seems a little dingy to me.

My goal is to be under 200 lbs. by my birthday which is July 20. Prayerfully, and with diet and exercise that will be my gift to myself. I don't care if it's 199.9, just as long as it doesn't start with a 2!

As posted previously there is a "dreaded welcome" number on my scale. Now the darn number is still here . It has decided to take up residency. Sorry number , I am going to evict you ASAP.  216, that is what I see on the scale, think about and stress about which just makes me want to eat more because I am a stress eater. The eviction would be a lot easier if  that wonderful monthly visitor hadn't shown up.
 
So now I gotta evict two things before I feel I am back to normal. 
I am calling the nutritionist ASAP, also. Sometimes I am fine with my food choices, other days I am at a loss for what to eat. High protein, low carb, low fat, good carbs, bad carbs. . . . IT MAKES MY HEAD SWIM. So I need HELP. 

Of course, my recumbent bike didn't come in when it was supposed to so I won't be able to get it until after I return from FL. I'm going home this weekend to FL and I'm hoping being home will help give me a jumpstart on my fitness routine. My dad walks 5 or 6 miles a day, so I will join him on his walks and make use of the exercise room at his house. I'll also be running around after 1 nephew and 3 neices. Hopefully, all this will help me start the eviction process.

On Thursday of last week, a man told us his story at support group. He really motivated me! At one point and time, he weighed 600 lbs. or more, he wasn't really sure because no scale would weigh him. He told us about it taking 4 years to get his approval and the awful things he went through. People being rude and nasty, low self steem, depression, dropping out of a doctoral program, etc. He was so motivating and inspiring. He mentioned that even when he was at his heaviset, he joined a gym. That really struck me. If a 600+ man can brave the gym, I can get my lazy behind up and exercise more!

My other motivation is that I may be on stage in a stepshow next month. I was hanging out with my sorors (SIgma Gamma Rho) teaching them a strut and a dance called the Monkey Swang. Anyone else out there know that dance? None of them did. .. . but anyway. They told me they want me to be in the skit and possibly the final part of show. What?! That means I need to get sexier in one month. I may still be thick and voluptuous then but it will be the sexiest thick and voluptuous ever seen on stage.

I hightailed myself to Academy and have now purchased a recumbent bike. It will be in on Tuesday. No excuses now, exercise rain or shine in the convenience of my own home. My goal is at least 30 minutes, 4 times a week. If I have a good book to read while riding that will be no problem!

A dreaded welcome number is what I found on my scale today. An oxymoron, I know so let me explain. There is a certain number I hate seeing on the scale yet I also welcome seeing it. 

Why is this number dreaded? It's because it's the number I always get to when I lose weight and then my weight seems to spring back up by the next week  and I'm not exaggerating. So now it's like, OMG, will it happen again.?Hopefully not with my new tool the lap band. Prayerfully and will powerfully that will not happen.

Why is the number welcome? It's welcome becuase that same dreaded number means that I have lost 30lbs. Yay! So this now means that I have lost over 10% of my starting weight. Losing 10% of your excess weight is enough to see changes in certain health indicators such as high blood pressure, cholesterol, etc.

I'm going to try not to get on the scale for a while. That means I might have to move it out of my bathroom. Hopefully, this dreaded welcome number will soon be a thing of the past!!