carebear32958
5 months and one (ish) week out
Jan 22, 2013
So, the holidays were my slump. Apparently like superstitious atheletes I should have not washed my socks or shaved my mustache (LOL, true story :0 ) I had some trouble over the holidays, I was so mad at myself. Disappointed really. I mean I have worked so hard these last 4 months and to throw it away for a few nibbles of a hersheys bar (which milk choc now tastes like spoiled milk to me since surgery) or that handful of cheetos cheese puffs (still my kryptonite to this day apparently). I was a rude awakening to go over 2 weeks and not lose weight. Thankfully I didn't gain but its still disappointing when you have such high hopes for yourself. Welp, the good part is I am back on track. I set a goal to lose 50 lbs by June, my birthday. I printed out calendars on microsoft word and went down and put down what I want to weight at the end of each week and then left a section for where I can fill in what I really weigh. Its like 2-3 lbs per week which with this surgery I know is pretty much achievable if I put my mind to it. I signed up for my pole dancing classes, doing that 1-2 times a week for 1+ hours at a time. I switched gyms to one that offers cardio classes and I am focusing on weight training with a trainer. I am refocused, I have goals and I am putting them out there in to the universe so people know what I am trying to do. I need to be held responsible for my actions and the more ppl rooting for me to succeed, the more I have to lose if I fall off the wagon again. :) Since refocusing my attentions I have lost 7 lbs in a little over 2 weeks. Its been a great feeling to push my body's limits. Never would I have ever thought that I would enjoy exercise, or find myself trying to squeeze more time into my day to allow another workout! I'm still finding that there are things I still don't tolerate. I just can't do carbs. I tried eating like 3 wheat crackers the other day and I felt awful. I accidently grabbed cream of potato soup instead of the cream of celery I thought it was, added mu unjury, took a few bites and thought "Hey, this tastes weird" checked out the can in the trash and low and behold, it was potato! I experienced the foamies for the first time in 5 months! Basically I was belching up/mildly vomitting this awful foamy spit like substance and I felt miserable. Lesson learned, be more mindful of what I put in my mouth and check labels! LOL...... Dating has been going ok, I have pulled back some, it was really overwhelming honestly. The men I have met recently just have not been what I had hoped they would be, but its ok, I am refocusing on my health and work outs for now.
