2 years out !

Oct 02, 2008

WOW 2 years out and so much has changed .
I am used to my pouch and I know what works and what does not.
My goal was to be 140 however I have passed that and I am hovering between 133-137.

This rny was the hardest thing I have ever gone thorugh but i would do it all over again.
Is it work? HELL YES.

Carbs really do pack on the pounds ..well it can.
I have to be relly on top of my choices but I am more accountable for them now.

The pain of the sugery is only a memory and now I feel normal.
I can fit in all the amusement park rides and Live life to the fullest!

I am gratefl for this rny and I will maintain.
My health and sanity,

I was a size waist 52 inches!(size 4x)
now I am about 37. size (8) medium top

WOOO HOOO>
life is good!

Coffee

Apr 20, 2008

Coffee is not an indugence for  me....it's a way of life !

lol ! keepin the Ol sense of humor fot the day!

My new mantra for the day

Feb 25, 2008

I allowed myself to have the strength and to pick myself off the floor (so to speak)and REGAINED my health...in body ,mind and spirit.

More than that I have let resentment free and that bitter taste I have had for years is gone.My pain is healing and my heart is open.I realize many things,people and situations in my life and I have frogiven myself.
Self love is quit powerful.
This surgery was not just about losing weight.It's about letting go of certains emotions.Like  an onion and I am peeling away the layers.It sure feels good.
Sometimes a  bit vulnerable but I know who I am and what i'm  about.

First and foremost ,my heart is filled with gratitude for each and every day.
I have learned so much about myself in the last year and a half.

I am able to be a better wife,mother and friend.Most important a better friend to myself and taking care of myself is number one.

So weighing in at 132 today woo ho.
Maintain.!!!!!!!!!!! I am

I wish for everyone who is praying for their answer for their approval for surgery  gets it.It's work inside as much as out.Make every day count.


I am back on track

Feb 13, 2008

I am thankful every day that I had the WLS.
At times it's true I find it a struggle but I am winning this disease called obesity.
I am determined and will strive to keep my weight at 132 give ir take a few pounds during my period.
well thats it for today!

Reality

Jan 27, 2008

It's been a while since I have blogged everything.

Life has taken  a fork in the road and now I am back on track so to speak.

Of coarse the first thing I will mention is my weight.After all I am a tad obssessed.I am weighing in at 137 pounds.I just got over my period and this one was a doozy ! My joints swelled up and I was very achy this month.I know it's time for my check up the with gyn! I am slightly freakin out over my weight but I do know that I have been eating a bit more carbs .Not chocolate or candy ..just crackers,not watching my fat intake.I have been very stressed and my OL habits crepped back for some comfort.It only took the month of December.My husband almost died December 8,2007 from an esophgas rupture.His body went into septic shock and it left him in the hospital for a month.He got out January 3,2008.It was a scary time for all of us and my stress level was big.So my OL habit slightly kicked in but I wont let it kick my ass.He is better and still gaining his strength,The power of prayer and good friends and family have helped us and carried us through everything.
My coping with all of this has stregnthed me.As a wife and a mom.My behavior of my eating habits I will conquer.I do feel differnt and I dont like the way I feel ever if it is 5 lbs.But life goes on.

I am grateful for my husband being here with us and for everything and person in my life.I know I am blessed.

The rest of this month I am focusing on getting my mind and myself back on track.I deserve treating myself in a good way.Being kind to myself and I am comforting myself in a different way  other then with food.

For anyone reading this who is new or getting the surgery it's important to know it's not a quick fix.Its a way to get to where you need to be but the real work is maintaining.not only your food intake but your mind and dont forget body and soul!.they all go together.I love the fact that I had the surgery.it saved my life form myself.(how crazy does that sound?)I would do it all over again.This truly is a journey...of mind ,body and soul.

So it's time to kick up with excercise.I have a plan and I will exacute it.In the summer and even fall it was easy to walk my 3 miles a day around the lake but then December came and...nothing.now that I have my balance back it's time to work it out! wooo hoo!


wow 132 !

Oct 08, 2007

I am feeling oronge today.I also weighed in at 132.(my secret goal is 128)

I dont even know what size pants I really am.
I do know that I feel like a differnt person but with the same 
morals and such.
I also went blonde...hmm you ask do blondes have more fun?I would say no....being slender and fit is more fun!I know my crazy self that when I achieve closer to the platnum blonde color I always wanted I think then I'll go back to a rich dark brown.LOL !
I need to post a picture up of me now at 132.
Now all I need is my breast lift and augmentation and tummy truck and then I will be really living my dream.however if I never get there I will be still so excited about life and still be happy.But I  know the TT and BL will be on it's way.

Vitamins are important.Iron andb12 and thiamine.I drink my water and walk still.I will be walking for the rest of my life forever gladly.

I am so greatful for this second chance.
I am choosing better choices of food for myself and staying active.
I am still going to my support group meetings.I LOVE my girls there.They have helped me out ...beyond!


wooo hooo 132 !   128 is right around the corner!


ONE YEAR anniversary

Sep 11, 2007

ONE YEAR OUT! WELL AS OF AUGUST 31! i AM A TAD BIT LATE IN POSTING...YOU KNOW LIFE HAPPENS.

THIS JOURNEY HAS BEEN EYE OPENING AND EVER SO CHANGING.
I AM DOWN TO 134.5(WEIGHERD IN THIS MORNING)ALMOST AT MY PERSONAL GOAL  130...GIVE OR TAKE.

MY BOSS JUST SAID TO ME I SOULD EAT SOMETHING BECAUSE I AM BEGINNING TO LOOK ANOREXIC.LOL I DONT THINK I WILL EVER SEE MYSELF  AS SKELETAL.SHE IS THE SAME HIEGHT AND IS THINNER THE ME!I GUESS PEOPLE GET USED TO THE (BIGGER) ME.

PEOPLE WHO MEET ME SAY HOW TINY I AM!(WHAT!)LOL
I AM SMALL NOW I CAN SEE THAT.

I CANT WAIT UNTIL MY BOOB JOB AND TUMMY TUCK!
NOW ITS MAINTAING MY WEIGHT AND KEEP THE EXCERISE GOING.

I AM SO GREATFUL FOR THIS SURGERY.I HAVE MADE IT WORK.I HAVE DOWN WHAT WAS ASKED OF ME FOR THIS WLS TO BE SUCCESSFUL AND NOW ITS TIME TO KEEP IT ON TRACK AND I WILL DO JUST THAT.


HERE IS ONE OF MY NEW AFFIRMATIONS :

FEAR IS NOT MY PARTNER IN LIFE.I ASK THE  ANGELS TO COME CLOSER AND GUIDE ME BEYOOND FEAR TO A DEEPER KNOWING.COURAGEWARMS MY SOULAND LIGHTS THE DARKNESS.NOTHINGCAN STOPTHE LIGHT!
T.L.TAYLOR"ANGEL DAYS"


WOO HOO FOR ME.
I LOVE LIFE...I LOVE ME
I EMBRACE EVERYDAY AND MY HEART IF FILLED WITH GRATITUDE.


I love my PEEPS at my support group meeting !!!

Jul 15, 2007

When I joined my support group meeting I never thought I would  be so attached to all the fun loving ,great people.

They have all helped me out so much.More than they could ever know!
I just love our after meeting Rendezvous at Panera's! We have so much fun and laughter.We even got the Panera guy to do a dance for us  and he wasn't wearing underwear! wooo hoo! hot tamali.lol

 Crazy shit happens there(right sST you know who u are!?!oh and thank you for teaching me how to make my legs go all the way back behind my head!good move)

I miss my buds already!




So another ONEderful day.
Its been 11 months since I have started my working out.  ka-CHOW !
I am still walking my 2-3 miles around my lake every day and doing Curves for strength training.wooo hoooo! my gams are looking goOD!



My heart is filled with gratitude for all the people in my life.
I am fortunate for my health ,family and friends.

it's "ALL GOOD!"










Ask..believe..receive...I found the JOY in me!

Jun 27, 2007

WOW ! Ok now I am down a total of  106.5 lbs! Amazing .I weigh 141.5 !!!!! wooo hooo.I must say !
This journey is truly transforming,uplifting,eye opening and beautiful.It just wasn't about the food or looking good.For me it's about  letting go of the pain,resentments and inner soul work.Feeling the joy of life and being happy within my heart  and soul.I have found me and my peace.

My choices in food are better.
I am more aware of what I put in my mouth.
I love my protein shakes on the go.
I eat a lot of low fat low carb yogurt(i adore yogurt)
veggies,chicken,turkey and ham.
I am eating  to live,not living to eat.
It's all behind me now.

I embrace all the goodness life has to offer.
I embrace every moment of every day and KNOW that is is a gift.
I choose to live my life with passion .awareness, kindess and LAUGHTER !
I embrace the love of myself and I share  my love with others and help others heal people through my massage and energy.(I am a reiki healer,massage therapist )
I am here to help others.I will always lend a helping hand
and I will never forget where I came from.
My new saying is..."It's all good".

I cannot say enough how my heart is filled with gratitude for this new life I have chosen for myself. I always knew I had a postive attitude inside my soul(years ago I would see the glass half empty..now I see it half full!!) and my heart always longed  for postive energy.Well here I am. I am filled with joy and my heart over flows with love and peace.I am embracing my new found love for life and for myself and along the way I am helping others and giving of myself.


I celebrate me ! and all the people that have come into my life.From people I met years ago and the people who I have just met. You all have made a difference in my life whether you realize it or not.Everyone is my teacher and I thank all of you you have shared with me and I will continue to be postive and share all I have learned from all of you.

A big special thanks to my CURVES instructor Connie.She has helped me in my WLS journey.She has been my "LIGHT" through the dark times that I felt lost,scared and just darn crazy....made me sane when I thought I would loose all my hair. I have found a friend in Connie and i will be forever greatful and I embrace our new frinedship.Big hugs to ya Connie.I love ya.

And so here it is...it all started by ..ASKING....for help and guidance
BELIEVEd there was light at the end of the tunnel
and I graciously RECIEVED all the goodness and help along the way.

I am a changed woman ! forever for the better.
hugs to all.

100 pounds down !!!!

Jun 14, 2007

WOW...100lbs down !!!!

What a journey it has been.I have gone  through a huge transformation and I am still going through it.

My heart is filled with gratitude for this surgery (and everything in my life).I have so much more LIFE in me and I feel it shows through my eyes.

I am a better mother and wife.I am a better friend to myself.

My heart is full and I am ready to share myself and give of myself for now I have the energy.

I am focusing on the positive and looking forward to the future with passion and gratitude.

I thank all of my supoort group family for helping me more then you could ever know.


About Me
Ringwood, NJ
Location
22.7
BMI
RNY
Surgery
08/31/2006
Surgery Date
Mar 17, 2005
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Coffee
My new mantra for the day
I am back on track
Reality
wow 132 !
ONE YEAR anniversary
I love my PEEPS at my support group meeting !!!
Ask..believe..receive...I found the JOY in me!
100 pounds down !!!!

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