Carolyn62
My journey
Nov 16, 2006
7/26/06 - well, I'm 3 months post op today, and I'm feeling really good. I was under the impression that the weight would come off faster, but I'm content with my losses. I've lost 44 lbs since surgery, and I had to lose 30 before surgery, so I'm down a total of 74 lbs, and that's pretty cool. My energy is pretty low, but I think that's due to the stress in my life interfering with my sleep and zapping my emotions! My job is weird right now because we have no money and can't pay the bills and as the accountant, it wears me down. I have 2 teenagers who are stuggling. My daughter is a great girl, but she suffers from depression. I have her seeing 2 very good docs so I think we're on the right track. My son is an incredible kid - so much his own guy! - But he's gotten mixed up in drugs. I'm working on getting him on the right track, with firm direction and lots of love. So, I guess that's why I'm not sleeping too well. My husband and I just celebrated our 4th anniversary and although it's been a really hard year for us, we were able to celebrate that we made it through! The weight loss has been so wonderful - and I'm feeling so much better. I need to update my photos - but being challenged by technical stuff - I may put that off for as long as I can!Take care all! Live life!
8/4/06 - OK - I've hit another stall. It's kind of frustrating as I seem to lose for 2 weeks and stall for 2 weeks. I know that this would not be happening as much if I exercised! But, I've been waiting to "feel like it." I think that's just not going to happen - I mean I'm 44 and I've never "felt like" exercising. So, now it's time for the big question - can I just do it? I'm going to try to. The hormones are a bit much to handle these days, and I know that effects my stalls - and my moods - and my energy. But, I don't want to be stuck in this place for 10 days out of 30 - you know? I was hoping that the goal of the trip to Israel in March would make me take my weight loss more seriously - but really - I just need to take better care of myself. I've been pretty good about eating well for breakfast & dinner - pretty much hitting the protein hard, but when dinner rolls around, I seem to be falling into the old habits of eating carbs. I think to myself - are you crazy??? Yes - I guess a little bit - I am. I'm glad I'm going to the support group next Wednesday - that should help me. But the bottom line is - I need to do this for me. Well, that's enough out of me. Hopefully the next time I post I'll be feeling better about my progress and commitment. God bless - C
8/16/06 - well, the stall ended when my period started. I guess I just need to get used to that cycle. But, I have started exercising more and I'm feeling the benefits of that with better energy and just feeling better over all. I hope I can keep my focus in that aspect of my life. Overall, I'm doing well. I was so happy today when I checked my BMI and saw that from the beginning of this process, I'm down 15 points! From 48.4 to 33.4. That's so cool.
8/31/06 - I'm feeling a bit better these days about how slow the weight is coming off. I really need to be sure that I'm looking at where I am now, and not where I thought I would be. Gratitude is the key - you know? There are things that are still hard - like exercising regularly... and my hair is still falling out all over the place. But overall, I'm doing well. I'm trying to drink a protein supplement each day this month just to try and see if I feel better and have more energy. My doc & nut are against protein supplements - saying get all your protein needs from food - but even as I eat almost only protein, I'm still not getting enough. So for this month - I'm going to try it.
10/26/06 - Wow. I haven't posted in a long time. Life has been busy and pretty good. The surgery has changed my life and I'm so grateful. We went for a walk the other day, and my husband was actually more worn out than I! That's amazing! (OK - it may have been the altitude that was bothering him, but whatever! - I could have kept going for another hour!!! Yippee!). Overall, everything is great. Today is my 6 month anniversary for my surgery. I'm amazed. The weight loss has been slow, but somehow, I feel it's been perfect for me. I haven't felt deprived or starved. I haven't felt like I'm dieting - or that old - when I get to goal, I can't wait to eat normally. The way I eat does feel normal now. I still don't exercise as much as I should, but I'm pretty ok with that. I'm so much more active overall. I'm wearing my new size 10 levis today and they feel great. I still marvel that I can tie my shoes with jeans on and not black out or see spots!!! In short, I'm thankful - especially to my Jesus - for this life He's given me and for being a God of second chances. God bless you all!!! ~Carolyn
Well - yesterday, 11/15/06, I made it to the century club. I'm thrilled! This is just great! Thanks to Barb for helping me get a century card!!!
