Schatzi G.

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Wow, I can't believe it has been 2 months already.  Have been working quite a bit and working on my house when not at work.  I have now lost 50 pounds, that feels so good to be able to say.  My original 'ultimate goal' was 165, then I put it down to 145.  I am within 100 pounds of that either way.  That feels so good to say that I am not over 100 pounds overweight anymore.  I kind of messed up last month, had 2 birthdays, then fathers day barbecue for my sons (they both are daddy's), so was eating things that I just shouldn't have been eating.  I am back on track now and back on the losing track.  Believe me, I know I can eat around this surgery and I do NOT want to do that.  I have come this far, I am going all the way.  I would like to get down to that 145, (still don't know if that is possible), but seeing all the people out there that have accomplished bigger goals than my own, I think I can do it.  
I have faced the facts that I will probably have to have a body contour byt the time this weight loss is done.  I was thinking, oh no, not me, my skin will go right back to where it belongs...  Yeah, right....   I am actually looking forward to just getting to the finish line now.  I know it will be quite some time, it just seems real now for the first time in so many years.  One of these days I will figure out how to get some pictures up here.  The one picture that I put on here is from last December...  I look at it now and wow....  what a difference.
My 16 year old daughter rolled my suv a couple of weeks agp, now in search for a new vehicle.  The insurance is just paying it off so the past couple of years making payments didn't seem to do any good...  Oh well, that is just material, luckily she had her seatbelt on and is doing just fine.
Just wanted to update what is going on with me, next month will be my 43rd birthday, hopefully I will be able to come on here and say that I got down to 225, that is my goal for now.  225 by August 1st...  that will leave only 80 pounds to go.  
That is all for now.  I thank God I was able to get this surgery and will continue to work towards my goals....

Well, I am now a month out.  I am having some very good days and some not so good days.  I find that I can eat more than what I think I should be able to, however, I will be getting my first fill in less than a week and believe it or not, really looking forward to it.  I have lost 11 more pounds since surgery, so I am happy with that.  Was hoping to lose more, but look back and realize that I did lose, I didn't gain anything, so I am really happy about that.  If I can keep this up, then I will be able to reach my goal.  
I chose this surgery to lose more slowly so my body can adjust to the losing and to keep it off, I just have to remember that at times.  I did not get this way overnight, I will not lose it all overnight.
I haven't been on here for a while, completely remodeling the inside of my home...  What a job.  
I am texturing the ceilings, painting the entire inside of the house and ripping up all the carpets (would you believe I have beautiful wood floors in every room?), I will have some area rugs, but to cover those floors are such a shame.  I will say it should be well worth the work we are putting into it.  
As for a personal life, well, don't have one of those yet...  Maybe someone will notice me someday, but shame on them on what they are missing now.  Heck, I don't have time for anyone right now anyway...  LOL
My youngest daughter, Teresa, (16 yo), left at 6 a.m. this morning with her school band for Washington D.C.  She called a little while ago from Pennsylvania, says it is very beautiful there.  The opportunities these young kids get these days are spectacular.  She is going to be a senior this year, it is going to be a very busy year, hopefully I will be able to keep up.  She is a varsity cheerleader, has her horse and works with others horses, band, she is entering a 'miss chamber of commerce' contest this summer.  
Anyway, enough of what is happening at home, guess trying to explain where I have been and what is going on.
Hopefully next month I will be able to say I lost another at least 10 pounds, if so, I will have less than 100 to go.... yippee.

I am back from the hospital!!!!!
It was not as bad as I thought it would be, yes, I am sore and very tired, but the surgery went very well....
AND....  I lost 26 pounds on my 2 week liquid diet....
Not putting much in here tonight, probably going straight to bed, wanted to thank everyone for their thoughts and prayers, and let everyone know I am home...

It is April 27th...
I have Saturday, Sunday and Monday yet to make it through..  Wow, it is getting so close... I am so excited...  I stepped on the scales today, trying to avoid it until surgery day, but it was calling my name... LOL....  I have lost 20 pounds on my 2 week liquid diet...  I am so excited to know that I can do this....  
This is the beginning of a new life for me.... In more ways than one...  I have decided with the birth of a whole new me, that I will be ending my current relationship....
See, for the past almost 6 years now, I have been seeing a man with whom I really thought that I was madly in love with, but he has been lying to me for the entire relationship, and I have been allowing it.  I know it is my self esteem that has allowed me to let him walk all over me, lie to me and cheat on me...  I know that I have more to offer someone and I deserve better.  I figure that if I can go through with this surgery, then I can do anything.....  That includes a life without him....
Now people may think this has nothing to do with my weight problems, however, I have always been one that needs attention and wants to please everyone... Well, I have decided that I have to think about myself...  With this 2 week liquid diet, I have been also doing alot of thinking and realizing how miserable he has made me, and of course, I have turned to food for comfort.  But.....  that part of my life is over....
With all your prayers, I can do this...

Well, I am counting down the days now.  I have 5 more days after today, then I go in for my surgery.  I cannot wait.  The liquid diet has been going unbelievably well.  Only a few 'weak' moments, but I stuck it out for the gold at the end of the tunnel.  I cannot wait to begin my new life, actually I thinkg the beginning was when I found this website and found all the caring people on here.  With this kind of support, who could go wrong?  

One week to go!!!!!
I am getting so excited.  Was just realizing that next week at this time I will be out of surgery.  I have been doing pretty good on my 2 week pre-op diet.  Have eaten 2 dill pickles and a cup of lowfat cottage cheese, other than that, strictly by the rules....  Needed something to actually eat and thought that wouldn't be toooo bad...
I would have to say that I am completely ready for this.  People at work have asked me how I can do the liquid diet without having the lapband in already, I should be hungry, they couldn't do that...
Like I tell them, I am ready...  Don't have any other explanation....
Here's to a new life....

Well, it is day 2 of the liquid diet.  It has been one of my bigger fears..  Seeing all the food people bring into my work and being able to avoid it.  Well, I must be finally in the right mindset cause at least it hasn't bothered me yet.  I am using "Nectar" and Matrix 5.0, if no one has tried these products, I would highly recommend them.  They actually taste pretty good and mix well.  I was so worried that I would have to be drinking something bad.  I think that helps a lot.  A couple of the guys at work have found out about my upcoming surgery.  It was fine letting the girls know, but I was kinda afraid to let the guys know, didn't know what they would think.  It is amazing..  They are all so supportive, it helps so much. 

Well, I had all my final tests ran today.  Went in for my pre-op, had blood work done, EKG, chest X-ray and spoke to the doctor and dietician.   I am at the point of bouncing between nervous, anxious and excited all at the same time.  My weight as of today was 292.2 pounds.  I would like to lose at least 12 pounds in the next 2 weeks before surgery.  I guess we will see.  My doctor looked really good today, he is an inspiration to me.  He himself has the lapband so he knows how I feel and what I am going through.  I think he has reached his goal so that helps me to realize that I too can reach mine.  I am blessed with a great support team, not only my family, but coworkers are all being great about the whole procedure.  
This is the beginning of the rest of my life, the birth of a whole new me....

well, it is less than a month out now.  I am so excited and nervous all at the same time.  I am trying to make sure that I have everything ready to go.  Getting all my protein drinks ready, wondering what I will wear to the hospital.  All I wear is jeans and just don't think I will want to button them after surgery...
May just have to take a pair of pajama or lightweight sweats to wear home...
I have talked to my mother and my kids, they are all behind me, people at work are great support, just hoping that everything will work the way I want it too....  Just hard to imagine myself smaller, been heavy for most of my life...