Catherine-Mo
January 15, 2014
Jan 14, 2014
Well, I am still struggling with my weight. Now I am up to 321. That passes the 317 mark I was when I first had lapband surgery. My insurance covers gastric bypass but I am leaning away from having another surgery. I continue to struggle with eating in moderation and binging. Yes, with surgery I will lose weight but then will I regain it? What then is the point of surgery? I have been seeing an eating disorder therapist for almost 2 years and I am still struggling. I have made progress with my perfectionism issue but no progress with actual weight loss. She said it could take 3-5 years. I sometimes just feel like there is something wrong with me that I am not getting it. Maybe it is lack to taking responsibility. I know it is up to me to make changes but I don't want to exercise 6 times a week. Walking for 1/2 hour hurts and I hate it. I don't know how to eat in moderation. A cup of chili for a meal? Maybe 4 cups!! I have very distorted perspectives on portion size. I know what is correct but it just feels like it is too little. I know I need to eat less and exercise but doing it is the problem. : (