So hungry today!

Aug 07, 2012

Wow... so after spending six weeks "not eating"... I know feel like I'm hungry 24/7.  It's crazy - I know that some of it is real hunger.  I have so much energy now that I've started eating.  Who knew?!?!

But I can tell head hunger is drifting in too because I'm thinking about food all the time... Crazy, huh?  Some guy (significantly/painfully overweight) walked by me today with his extra large bag of peanut M&Ms.  And for more than a brief second I thought "you know... I could probably eat a handful without any issues..."

But isn't that exactly how I got to this position?  EVERYTHING some how, some way had the very real consequences justified away... Oh I won't eat the whole pizza, I'll have lunch for several days - WRONG.  I know a two liter of Mt Dew is CRAZY but the energy burst it will give me, & all that I'll accomplish, will justify the calories - WRONG.  And so on...

Truth is... I miss Mt Dew, a good pizza and M&M's.  But the better truth is... I am loving my new wardrobe and cannot wait to get to that next benchmark (100lb mark - only 35 to go!!)  Not to mention all the benchmarks to follow and the life I cannot wait to begin living!

So no Mt. Dew, no pizza and NO M&M's for me.  I haven't completely learned how to deal with head hunger yet but today - or at least in this moment - it will not own me.  I was made for much greater things!

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