cathymc911
November 20, 2007
Nov 20, 2007
We celebrated our Thanksgiving on Sunday. I thought I was going to be scared and panicked. I spent a day and half prepping foods, and cooking all day on Sunday.
I had a few snacks, very small snacks. I had my small plate to eat dinner, and had a little bit of everything and a sliver of pumpkin pie, and I do mean a sliver.
I was amazed I was not sad, I was not freaked out. I really felt good. I was not deprived, and enjoyed the meal with the family. Life does go on and there is not this big looming cloud over us for ever after surgery. You can not let that cloud over you. We all know that obesity cloud I am talking about.
I had surgery so I can never have that
I can never eat food again
I can never
I can never
I can never...
Well I am here to say yo can and you will. This is not suppose to be a lifetime diet. Diets do not work for those of us who have eating issues and addiction.
We do have to eat healthy, we do have to exercise. The occasional living life is completely healthy.
I have lost 80lbs to date. I do not feel guilty having my three cups of coffee. I do not east junk all day. I eat what I am suppose to. If I want a few chips n salsa I have them, I dont feel that I need to be on a life long mission of ooooo my god you an not eat that. Those rules never worked for me. Now with this surgery I have a much smaller stomach and I can not over stuff it. When I do I become violantly ill and vomit horribly followed by the wonderful foamies...I hate that.....
I am still thankful for my sleeve and the second chance at life. I post these things because I am honest and real. I just think that people should know there will changes, good and bad. The surgeon changes your body inside, we have to change the rest.
I had a few snacks, very small snacks. I had my small plate to eat dinner, and had a little bit of everything and a sliver of pumpkin pie, and I do mean a sliver.
I was amazed I was not sad, I was not freaked out. I really felt good. I was not deprived, and enjoyed the meal with the family. Life does go on and there is not this big looming cloud over us for ever after surgery. You can not let that cloud over you. We all know that obesity cloud I am talking about.
I had surgery so I can never have that
I can never eat food again
I can never
I can never
I can never...
Well I am here to say yo can and you will. This is not suppose to be a lifetime diet. Diets do not work for those of us who have eating issues and addiction.
We do have to eat healthy, we do have to exercise. The occasional living life is completely healthy.
I have lost 80lbs to date. I do not feel guilty having my three cups of coffee. I do not east junk all day. I eat what I am suppose to. If I want a few chips n salsa I have them, I dont feel that I need to be on a life long mission of ooooo my god you an not eat that. Those rules never worked for me. Now with this surgery I have a much smaller stomach and I can not over stuff it. When I do I become violantly ill and vomit horribly followed by the wonderful foamies...I hate that.....
I am still thankful for my sleeve and the second chance at life. I post these things because I am honest and real. I just think that people should know there will changes, good and bad. The surgeon changes your body inside, we have to change the rest.
November 2nd 2007
Nov 02, 2007
I am almost six months out from surgery. I have found that I am able to eat a little more then I would be able to normally.
I went to Washington DC for vacation. I ended up gaining 2lbs, but then lost it very quickly.
I was shocked I had gained weight, We did so much walking...and I was able to hardly eat the entire time we were in DC.
We had a wonderful time. I was able to eat, but not a lot. I did find myself getting sick more often. I think I was trying to eat like I use to and I can not do that anymore.
I have lost 78lbs so far....I can not believe it... I even celebrated with a new hair cut. I love it.
I can't imagine where I will be in another six months !
My friend Tiffany is getting ready to have her surgery. I am very happy for her. She has been waiting for so long !
Would I do it all over again if I had to...and yes I would...the only part that I don't like is people watching what I eat..and then saying..your not suppose to eat that are you.
Here is the deal...until you have had weight loss surgery you can not judge. When you have had it, and you deal with your own demons...and then you can say ok I get it....
It is hard, it is challenging. Do I think I will gain the weight back ...No...that actually has never crossed my mind...I know I wont allow myself to.
I went to Washington DC for vacation. I ended up gaining 2lbs, but then lost it very quickly.
I was shocked I had gained weight, We did so much walking...and I was able to hardly eat the entire time we were in DC.
We had a wonderful time. I was able to eat, but not a lot. I did find myself getting sick more often. I think I was trying to eat like I use to and I can not do that anymore.
I have lost 78lbs so far....I can not believe it... I even celebrated with a new hair cut. I love it.
I can't imagine where I will be in another six months !
My friend Tiffany is getting ready to have her surgery. I am very happy for her. She has been waiting for so long !
Would I do it all over again if I had to...and yes I would...the only part that I don't like is people watching what I eat..and then saying..your not suppose to eat that are you.
Here is the deal...until you have had weight loss surgery you can not judge. When you have had it, and you deal with your own demons...and then you can say ok I get it....
It is hard, it is challenging. Do I think I will gain the weight back ...No...that actually has never crossed my mind...I know I wont allow myself to.
October 12th, 2007
Oct 12, 2007
I went to a class for work with two co-workers in San Luis Obispo. It is a nice town. The class was horrible, the company was nice!
We went to a nice restaurant. It was so hard to sit there and watch them be able to eat their entire meals, plus salad and bread with no problems. I ordered some shrimp things rolled in rice paper. I also took a few bites of one their fish plates. I ended up going to the restroom 6 times in order to vomit!! It was horrible none of it stayed down.
I find this the most frustrating part of the surgery. The ability to not be able to eat that much food, and now when I do at times I get sick. I just want sometimes to be able to go to a restaurant and eat like other people do.
We went to a family lunch a week ago. I ordered a cup of soup. The waitress says "thats all you want is a cup of soup". I smiled politely and said "yes".....
I only ate half of the cup, wasn't even a entire bowl of soup.
I find I can eat a lot more carbs, which is aggravating.
I was able to go into Victoria Secrets and be treated like normal by the clerks. I didn't have a panic attack thinking ooo my do they have my size.
I was able to purchas bra's and panties, I even went for a thong....I was just so overwhelmed....but also so excited at the same time.
I am going to the gym still on a regular basis. I love weight lifting still. I can see a difference in the way I am looking.
I can wear a large to x large shirt and my 14 pants are now getting loose on me.
I started off wearing a 22 shirt and a 20-22 pair of pants and ooo a 3x at times in shirts....I can not believe it...
We went to a nice restaurant. It was so hard to sit there and watch them be able to eat their entire meals, plus salad and bread with no problems. I ordered some shrimp things rolled in rice paper. I also took a few bites of one their fish plates. I ended up going to the restroom 6 times in order to vomit!! It was horrible none of it stayed down.
I find this the most frustrating part of the surgery. The ability to not be able to eat that much food, and now when I do at times I get sick. I just want sometimes to be able to go to a restaurant and eat like other people do.
We went to a family lunch a week ago. I ordered a cup of soup. The waitress says "thats all you want is a cup of soup". I smiled politely and said "yes".....
I only ate half of the cup, wasn't even a entire bowl of soup.
I find I can eat a lot more carbs, which is aggravating.
I was able to go into Victoria Secrets and be treated like normal by the clerks. I didn't have a panic attack thinking ooo my do they have my size.
I was able to purchas bra's and panties, I even went for a thong....I was just so overwhelmed....but also so excited at the same time.
I am going to the gym still on a regular basis. I love weight lifting still. I can see a difference in the way I am looking.
I can wear a large to x large shirt and my 14 pants are now getting loose on me.
I started off wearing a 22 shirt and a 20-22 pair of pants and ooo a 3x at times in shirts....I can not believe it...
September 28th, 2007
Sep 28, 2007
Today I am down to 177lbs...I have been on liquids only for the past two days. I have found that I am not hungry at all. Just prior to my cycle I am starving and can eat just about anything in my sight. As soon as I start its like a light switch, automatically I could care less about eating.
I spent two days one cleaning my house and the second took me 11 hours I cleaned all my carpet, did laundry and finished cleaning two bathrooms and our bedroom.
Normally after a day like that I would be exhausted, killing pain in my back and unable to walk the next day.
I never got tired and was never in pain. I didn't even eat yesterday except for a few peanuts I think
Today I had some coffee and two bites of soup and I was just full.
I spent two days one cleaning my house and the second took me 11 hours I cleaned all my carpet, did laundry and finished cleaning two bathrooms and our bedroom.
Normally after a day like that I would be exhausted, killing pain in my back and unable to walk the next day.
I never got tired and was never in pain. I didn't even eat yesterday except for a few peanuts I think
Today I had some coffee and two bites of soup and I was just full.
September 15th, 2007
Sep 14, 2007
Well after four months I finally decided to put a picture on my avatar. I am 65lbs down and 45lbs to go.
It is hard for me to except people who continue to say I look great...wow you have lost so much weight...wow how much have you lost so far....wow your husband better watch out...
It makes feel like running and hiding in a hole. The other one is...your so tiny... I don't feel tiny...I don't feel like I look tiny...I just can not see it. It really bothers me.
I know me being obese was a way of protection, so people wouldn't notice me..more so men...if I was big no one could use me or hurt me anymore.
The first step was putting my picture on my avatar. That was huge for me, because well. I just didnt want to do it.I felt like I had not lost enough yet, and It didn't really look like a huge difference. I went back and looked at my other photos and yes you can tell.
A gal I work with, has lapband surgery. She was kind enough to give me a crap load of her old clothes. I was so appreciative. I was down to two pairs of pants and three to four shirts.
My fourteens I just got into however they are becoming loose on me. I never thought I would see a day where I was saying a 14 was getting loose on me. I have not seen that size in over 6 years..and when I was..It only lasted a month or two...
I am still losing my hair. I notice still I am way more hungry around my period. I seem to be more hungry also when I am at work. I do get hungry still but the hunger is not as intense as prior to surgery, and I seem to be able to just ignore it.
I am still going to the gym, I really love doing the weight lifting still. My upper body is looking great, however from my hips down....still .....goood lord...will they ever shrink!!
It is hard for me to except people who continue to say I look great...wow you have lost so much weight...wow how much have you lost so far....wow your husband better watch out...
It makes feel like running and hiding in a hole. The other one is...your so tiny... I don't feel tiny...I don't feel like I look tiny...I just can not see it. It really bothers me.
I know me being obese was a way of protection, so people wouldn't notice me..more so men...if I was big no one could use me or hurt me anymore.
The first step was putting my picture on my avatar. That was huge for me, because well. I just didnt want to do it.I felt like I had not lost enough yet, and It didn't really look like a huge difference. I went back and looked at my other photos and yes you can tell.
A gal I work with, has lapband surgery. She was kind enough to give me a crap load of her old clothes. I was so appreciative. I was down to two pairs of pants and three to four shirts.
My fourteens I just got into however they are becoming loose on me. I never thought I would see a day where I was saying a 14 was getting loose on me. I have not seen that size in over 6 years..and when I was..It only lasted a month or two...
I am still losing my hair. I notice still I am way more hungry around my period. I seem to be more hungry also when I am at work. I do get hungry still but the hunger is not as intense as prior to surgery, and I seem to be able to just ignore it.
I am still going to the gym, I really love doing the weight lifting still. My upper body is looking great, however from my hips down....still .....goood lord...will they ever shrink!!
september 11, 2007
Sep 11, 2007
Today is the anniversary of Sept 11, 2001. There was so much sadness, and insecurity that day. It was also a time that we took the time to love those close to us. Our neighbors and citizens just seem to pull together. They were proud to be americans. American Flags flew from vehicles, homes, stores and Freeway overpasses.
So many children have no parents, so many parents have no children. Families lost loved ones, friends lost friends, co-workers lost co-workers.
In the big grand scheme of things, losing my hair doesn't seem like such a big deal.
I am thankful to of had a surgery that has benefited me the oppurtunity to live for me,my children and my husband. I lost focus of what the purpose was. It was to make the best of every day. To be healthy. It doesn't matter how much I can eat. It does matter what I eat!
I am happy to have lost 65lbs so far, and wearing smaller sizes. I am mostly happy though to just be more healthy. I will live a longer life because of this and the choices I make from here on out. The choice after all is mine and only mine. I can only make the right decisions, the healthy ones mentaly and physically. I am not a victim of being "fat". I made the choices that led me to being obese. I now have a wonderful tool, that helps me make better choices.
The people and victims of 9-11 never had those oppurtunities to live. It was just taken from them. Those who survived knows what it takes to survive every day.
There is a bigger scope out there that does not evolve around food. It evolves around, liberty, freedom,sacrifice, hardship,victory,love and mankind.
So many children have no parents, so many parents have no children. Families lost loved ones, friends lost friends, co-workers lost co-workers.
In the big grand scheme of things, losing my hair doesn't seem like such a big deal.
I am thankful to of had a surgery that has benefited me the oppurtunity to live for me,my children and my husband. I lost focus of what the purpose was. It was to make the best of every day. To be healthy. It doesn't matter how much I can eat. It does matter what I eat!
I am happy to have lost 65lbs so far, and wearing smaller sizes. I am mostly happy though to just be more healthy. I will live a longer life because of this and the choices I make from here on out. The choice after all is mine and only mine. I can only make the right decisions, the healthy ones mentaly and physically. I am not a victim of being "fat". I made the choices that led me to being obese. I now have a wonderful tool, that helps me make better choices.
The people and victims of 9-11 never had those oppurtunities to live. It was just taken from them. Those who survived knows what it takes to survive every day.
There is a bigger scope out there that does not evolve around food. It evolves around, liberty, freedom,sacrifice, hardship,victory,love and mankind.
September 6, 2007
Sep 06, 2007
Yesterday I was in my closet getting ready to get dressed. The day prior I had cleaned my closet yet again...yes another large pile of clothes that are to B I G.....and not to small for a change.. That left me with ooo two shirts and ooo two pairs of pants.
My mom gave me a pair of size 14 pants, and I had bought an outfit a month prior to surgery. I looked at those pants when I bought them and thought...ya I will never get in those. I was so scared to even look at them. I bought them threw them in the bag and there they sat in the bag.
I finally put them on yesterday. They came right up, and buttoned with no problems. They weren't tight on my thighs and I didnt have the old ugly camel toe either.
They were like a perfect fit of a nice glove. just right!!! I was so excited. All the training at the gym is paying off.
I can still only eat small bites, but found that I can eat more of a carb type of food. Pork and Salmon I puked that up. I still can not handle it. I think the pork is to dry and the salmon is to much fat in it. My stomach hates it. It is painful and hurts when it happens. Feels like your stomach is just opening up.
My hair is falling out quite a bit. That is horrible, don't know what else to do about it..I guess not alot I can do about it.
I am happy though for the surgery and even though I maybe losing my hair, it is worth how I feel overall.
I can not get in all the protein it is impossible, you can not fit that much. I am just doing a low fat diet and try to get in as much protein as I can...and that is all I can do at this point.
My mom gave me a pair of size 14 pants, and I had bought an outfit a month prior to surgery. I looked at those pants when I bought them and thought...ya I will never get in those. I was so scared to even look at them. I bought them threw them in the bag and there they sat in the bag.
I finally put them on yesterday. They came right up, and buttoned with no problems. They weren't tight on my thighs and I didnt have the old ugly camel toe either.
They were like a perfect fit of a nice glove. just right!!! I was so excited. All the training at the gym is paying off.
I can still only eat small bites, but found that I can eat more of a carb type of food. Pork and Salmon I puked that up. I still can not handle it. I think the pork is to dry and the salmon is to much fat in it. My stomach hates it. It is painful and hurts when it happens. Feels like your stomach is just opening up.
My hair is falling out quite a bit. That is horrible, don't know what else to do about it..I guess not alot I can do about it.
I am happy though for the surgery and even though I maybe losing my hair, it is worth how I feel overall.
I can not get in all the protein it is impossible, you can not fit that much. I am just doing a low fat diet and try to get in as much protein as I can...and that is all I can do at this point.
August 29th, 2008
Aug 27, 2007
I am so ready for a vacation...I love my job..but it has just been too much lately. It has been since May since I was off last. I mean ya I get my three days off, so to most people it would be what are you complaining about. It is just nice to be on vacation. I notice every four months I am usually due. I just get tired. My husband and I are going to Washington DC for an entire week middle of October. I am very excited. I will have lost this weight, not all but a good chunk where I can walk around and be comfortable. I am looking forward to that. I am hoping to have at least 15lbs off by then
I notice right prior to my menstruel cycle I get very very hungry. I have been wanting to just eat all day long. Tonight I took quite a few bites of macaroni and cheese. It tasted to so good. I felt guilty afterwards. Low car b diets just do not work for me. I know also that certain foods I will eat and I puke and get the foamies.
I had chicken and it stayed down that was good. It has been making me puke. I had a salad yesterday, two bites and I had to run to the restroom. I know people I work with knew what was going on. Makes me feel bad cause they know. I don't get sick all the time. I think it is hard because they see us get sick, and wonder why do you have surgery that makes you puke. I think everything has a bad side to it, and puking is one of them.
I went to gym today. My upper body is looking great...my waste is looking small, now you take from my hips down and it just pisses me off. I am on the eliptical machine and I do legs and upper body, and I can not see a difference in my large lower body!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Good news....my trainer said she will call me found out the gym was cheating me out of a bunch of sessions. She found it and brought it to their attention. I am glad she is honest or she could of collected and never trained me. She is a good person so that does not worry me.
I ordered a bunch of food from bariatric eating that includes yes a crap load of protein crap. I will try and up it as much as possible...but I know I am not getting 80 grams in... so that macaroni and cheese ya its hurting my stomach....dont have to puke but I might feel better if I did....ok so wont eat that anymore...see it tasted good and then you pay for it with pain. and it hurts so bad feels like your insides are pulling apart...so no more,,,,
I am finally in the 180's...I do know that without this surgery I could of never of lost what I have lost. I am thankful for this tool and I am just learning as I go.
I notice right prior to my menstruel cycle I get very very hungry. I have been wanting to just eat all day long. Tonight I took quite a few bites of macaroni and cheese. It tasted to so good. I felt guilty afterwards. Low car b diets just do not work for me. I know also that certain foods I will eat and I puke and get the foamies.
I had chicken and it stayed down that was good. It has been making me puke. I had a salad yesterday, two bites and I had to run to the restroom. I know people I work with knew what was going on. Makes me feel bad cause they know. I don't get sick all the time. I think it is hard because they see us get sick, and wonder why do you have surgery that makes you puke. I think everything has a bad side to it, and puking is one of them.
I went to gym today. My upper body is looking great...my waste is looking small, now you take from my hips down and it just pisses me off. I am on the eliptical machine and I do legs and upper body, and I can not see a difference in my large lower body!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Good news....my trainer said she will call me found out the gym was cheating me out of a bunch of sessions. She found it and brought it to their attention. I am glad she is honest or she could of collected and never trained me. She is a good person so that does not worry me.
I ordered a bunch of food from bariatric eating that includes yes a crap load of protein crap. I will try and up it as much as possible...but I know I am not getting 80 grams in... so that macaroni and cheese ya its hurting my stomach....dont have to puke but I might feel better if I did....ok so wont eat that anymore...see it tasted good and then you pay for it with pain. and it hurts so bad feels like your insides are pulling apart...so no more,,,,
I am finally in the 180's...I do know that without this surgery I could of never of lost what I have lost. I am thankful for this tool and I am just learning as I go.
August 25th, 2007
Aug 25, 2007
I saw my surgeon. He said I am not getting in enough protein so I am trying to up it as much as possible. I am getting maybe 20 grams a day and I am suppose to be at 80 freaken grams...I told him I will not have a bowel movement for nine days. He said that is not good. I am suppose to take fiber and or milk magnesia every two days. I have to use a suppository every three days, and I can instantly go.
Maybe with the fiber it will help resolve that issue. He told me to add leafy green veggies. I did have salad for the first time. I was able to eat quite a bit of it. To me though that was a cup of salad...maybe..he also said I need to be up to 800 calories a day. I get maybe 300-400 a day. I just don't know where I am suppose to put all this food and or protein. It is physically impossible to do. Unless I want to stuff food and protein drinks in me all dang day...and I don't
I read on a post that someone said that the first part of wls is the honeymoon period, if you lose your goal weight. I have to disagree. I see so many post prior to surgery. That is really the honeymoon period. You are excited you have your date. You post and get replys..your scared, nervous..but excited. you see what people eat..and you think I am going to change...bla bla bla bla..Well it all is different after surgery.
Your surgeon fixes you physically, however no one does mentally. You test your limits. You do eat things you shouldnt why because your human with the same habits. You do drink when you eat, you do use a straw, you do eat chocolate. You will eat to fast, you will puke or get the foamies, you will get angry and mad because you can not eat that much. Yes you will do what you say you wont. You may only do it once or twice but we all do it. I think that there is very few that actually stick to the "plan" 100 percent. I also notice every doctor is different with what they recommend.
The key is to try and make healthy choices most of the time. to realize you are physically altered now..and that will never change. Make the most of what you can put in your body, and if you don't noow and then...guess what...who cares..you are human...All we can do is try and make every day a new day..and not beat at our spirit.
With me I can eat chocolate still. Liquid things or soft things go down great. Certain chips I can eat even though they are brown rice organic. I can not eat bread, nothing fried and chicken and pork give me the foamies.. So I try a little pasta it was like two tablespoons because thats all you can fit in your pouch.
My doctor tells me he wants me down to my 85% loss by 6 months because that is the optimum weight loss time. He says little carbs and lots of protein...then after that it will slow down. He also said that if i start eating pasta and rice etc that It will drastically slow down my weight loss.
So I try to think of this rationally. How can I have a stomach the size of three shot glasses, which means very little food, and not lose what I am suppose to lose, regardless. I mean I know I can't stick McD's in there but come on. If I am only eating itty bitty amounts I am going to lose, plus I work out four times a week and lift weights.....
So anyways...all you can do is what you can do..and I think if you make a healthy choice as much as possible that is reality.....
Maybe with the fiber it will help resolve that issue. He told me to add leafy green veggies. I did have salad for the first time. I was able to eat quite a bit of it. To me though that was a cup of salad...maybe..he also said I need to be up to 800 calories a day. I get maybe 300-400 a day. I just don't know where I am suppose to put all this food and or protein. It is physically impossible to do. Unless I want to stuff food and protein drinks in me all dang day...and I don't
I read on a post that someone said that the first part of wls is the honeymoon period, if you lose your goal weight. I have to disagree. I see so many post prior to surgery. That is really the honeymoon period. You are excited you have your date. You post and get replys..your scared, nervous..but excited. you see what people eat..and you think I am going to change...bla bla bla bla..Well it all is different after surgery.
Your surgeon fixes you physically, however no one does mentally. You test your limits. You do eat things you shouldnt why because your human with the same habits. You do drink when you eat, you do use a straw, you do eat chocolate. You will eat to fast, you will puke or get the foamies, you will get angry and mad because you can not eat that much. Yes you will do what you say you wont. You may only do it once or twice but we all do it. I think that there is very few that actually stick to the "plan" 100 percent. I also notice every doctor is different with what they recommend.
The key is to try and make healthy choices most of the time. to realize you are physically altered now..and that will never change. Make the most of what you can put in your body, and if you don't noow and then...guess what...who cares..you are human...All we can do is try and make every day a new day..and not beat at our spirit.
With me I can eat chocolate still. Liquid things or soft things go down great. Certain chips I can eat even though they are brown rice organic. I can not eat bread, nothing fried and chicken and pork give me the foamies.. So I try a little pasta it was like two tablespoons because thats all you can fit in your pouch.
My doctor tells me he wants me down to my 85% loss by 6 months because that is the optimum weight loss time. He says little carbs and lots of protein...then after that it will slow down. He also said that if i start eating pasta and rice etc that It will drastically slow down my weight loss.
So I try to think of this rationally. How can I have a stomach the size of three shot glasses, which means very little food, and not lose what I am suppose to lose, regardless. I mean I know I can't stick McD's in there but come on. If I am only eating itty bitty amounts I am going to lose, plus I work out four times a week and lift weights.....
So anyways...all you can do is what you can do..and I think if you make a healthy choice as much as possible that is reality.....
August 17th, 2007
Aug 17, 2007
Today worked out at the gym. I am walking and I see my profile in the mirrors, and it bothers me. I can remember thinking If I can just get under 200lbs...well I am..and I am still not happy. I am really struggling with my self image. I know I didn't obsess about it before. When I was 245lbs It was just ooo well I am fat...and eat a burger and fries.
Now I can not do that. I am lifting all this weight..and I eat so little ..and my thighs and butt still look huge!!!
I contacted community hospice, they are sending me an application to volunteer and help facilitate for they "helping hearts". It is for Women who have lost a child either through miscarriage,preterm, or other.
I read an article in the paper that sparked me to contact them. I thought after losing two babies, and my daughter being a miracle, who didn't die at birth with her cord in a knot, I thought I am suppose to do something to help other women. This will be good for me, and I am really looking forward to being able to volunteer and give back.
Now I can not do that. I am lifting all this weight..and I eat so little ..and my thighs and butt still look huge!!!
I contacted community hospice, they are sending me an application to volunteer and help facilitate for they "helping hearts". It is for Women who have lost a child either through miscarriage,preterm, or other.
I read an article in the paper that sparked me to contact them. I thought after losing two babies, and my daughter being a miracle, who didn't die at birth with her cord in a knot, I thought I am suppose to do something to help other women. This will be good for me, and I am really looking forward to being able to volunteer and give back.
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05/10/2007
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Mar 12, 2007
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