First words

Jun 08, 2016

June 8, 2016

This is the first time for me to write about my potential weight loss surgery (WLS). The first time, at least on something official, like a blog, which, even though it is (not yet) published, is a good place to start keeping track of what I'm thinking. It might be good just to be able to barf up some feelings and thoughts that I can eventually look back on, I hope, and see what progress -- again, I hope! -- I've made, and how I was feeling at the beginning of this journey.  

So many fears: Will I be able to control my eating disorder? Will I be able to establish new patterns beore the surgery? Will I lose weight before the surgery? Will I be desperate to eat all kinds of food before the surgery? Will I eat poorly after the surgery and embarrass myself by having a terrible diarrhea accident in public? Will I feel sick all the time? Will I hate what I've done and wonder why I did it? Will I feel like a different person, and will I like that person?

I guess this is the place to rant and rave about those fears. Because who really wants to hear them? I get tired of even hearing myself. So if anyone else is out there reading this, I'll be happy to hear your impressions as to whether they had or are having these obsessive worries. You can't just go around telling everyone how you feel about this experience -- for one thing, many people have the idea it's all about "wanting to take the easy way out." Hah. We know that's not true. The worry and fear alone makes it anything but easy.

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11/16/2016
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Jun 08, 2016
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