Have to rant to someone and it might as well be the blog!

Aug 04, 2011

Okay...almost 10months out and almost 100lbs down, should be happy, should not be thinking about goals and time to reach goals..but here I am completely frustrated over the number on the scale!!!  It keeps bebopping from 204.25 to 205 to 206 back to 205 back to 204.5, getting soooo very close to 204 (100lbs lost) but not quite hitting it!  It has officially gotten to me! Months ago I thought for sure I would be in Onderland by summer, didn't hit it, then I thought for sure by the end of summer, but now...I just don't know.  I don't want to get my hopes up, I want to NOT CARE about that number on the scale!  I am starting to feel like I will never hit 100lbs lost much less 199 and it is only a smidgen away for both!  UGGGHHHH!!

Not to mention that my wonderful, dear, sweet hubby who had surgery only 2 months ago is down 70+ pounds and losing a pound or so daily!  I know, I know, it will slow for him like it did for me, he can't go on losing like that forever, but it gnaws at me.  I look at him and think I should be happy for him, and I am, but not happy enough.  I liked feeling skinny compared to him and now I fear he will be skinner than me in no time and I will once again feel like the fat wife. I have to stop it!  K- nuff of the ranting and pity party!  Protein, water and exercise!!

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