Happy 8 Months

Aug 12, 2008

      I can't believe it's been 8 months.  I weight 217(down from 257).   I am happy about that. I thought I would be a lot lighter, but it took me years to gain all of this weight. It will take me awhile to take it off.
      I am not happy about anklosing spondilitis that has my back twisted in pain.  I am back to the gym after 2 months of doctors and phyiscal and chiropratic therapy.  I am feeling pretty good.  I have whole days with no pain.   

5 months out. WOW

May 08, 2008

I am struggling.  I am always hungry, but I am balancing it out with excercise.  My doctor is very conservative with my fills, which is driving me crazy.  I cancelled my last appointment because I didn't want to waste my gas, time out of work and my time getting a tiny fill that doesn't do a thing.  I complained and they gave me an appointment with the RN Jeremy who is said isn't so conservative with the fills.  We will see.  I have an appointment May 22.  I NEED RESTRICTION ! ! ! !  I would rather be too tight and and get an unfill then struggle with hunger every day.  I have separated my emotional hunger and I realize most of the triggers, but I have tummy rumbling hunger a lot.   

On the lighter side.  I have lost 35  pounds, but I did it on my own with no help from my band.  I just hope I can maintain until my band starts doing it's job. 

It's working

Mar 09, 2008


Yipe

Feb 18, 2008

My last post sounded pretty depressing.  I am scheduled for my second fill Monday the 25th.  I am going to demand at least 2cc for my fill.  My dietician Michelle is my new best friend.  She has been my savior through a difficult time.  I am eating the right foods, but more than I should because I am still hungry.  I am going to the gym 3 to 4 times a week.  My dog and I walk almost every day.  I haven't lost any weight in a couple of weeks, but I haven't GAINED any either.  I am opting for the glass half full attitude.  I am still dissappointed with my band but I am still in the begining of this journey.  I hope things will change, if not I will just keep on going.  The best, is the change I see in my whole family.   My husband is moving around and eating better.  My daughter has dropped a few pounds and my son is making better choices in the food he shovels into his mouth.  

Even when you are on the right road, you can still get run over if you just sit there.....

Conflicted

Jan 30, 2008

Here I am,  6weeks out and feeling pretty hungry.  I just had a fill Monday and  the tool that I risked my  life for isn't really helping me any.  I don't feel any restriction.  Chicken has a tendency to get stuck.  I haven't puked anything up.  I am feeling really conflicted.  I have been a yo yo dieter all of my life. I can see that I am a low level of a vicious cycle.  I realize that its do or die now.  It's all me.   In a way it's inspirational and on the other hand it kinda of scary.  I have lost 26 lbs.  I haven't lost anthing in two weeks.  The fatal stall.   I am going to the gym first thing in the morning.  6:45 to be exact.  I made an appointment and my kids have promised to make sure that I get out the door on time.   I have a different kind of support this time around.  I feel like I'm on stage for a solo.  I don't want to screw up and embrass myself.  I feel like the New York Giants playing the Patriots.  It's hard to go up against absolute perfection but I am going to give it my very best.      


Happy New Year

Jan 01, 2008

I am two weeks out and feeling pretty good.  I will admit that I did skip some of the liquid diet days and some of the mushy food days.  I went by how I felt and made sure I was eating healthy foods very gingerly at first.  I had one day of being totally uncomfortable after eating.  I had a pc of Christmas ham.  I don't think I will ever eat Ham again.  It so wasn't worth it.  My doctor told me slow down and not rush it.  I will stick to cottage cheese and soft soups for a few more days.  I never realized how much sodium is in soup.  I love Campbells select Butternut Squash Soup, but it's loaded with salt.  No wonder I have been so thirsty.  I had some food get stuck Sunday.  I was rushing and ate too quickly.  I have many many behaviors that need to be modified.  I think that will be the hardest.  I need to slow down.  I think this is my new goal. 

Day 6

Dec 20, 2007

It's day 6 and it's been a strange week.  I have gotten cookie bouquets, chocolates and a lobster in the mail this week.  I almost wish I had put the word out about my surgery.  I gave everything away to my neighbors.  I did eat one small pc of chocolate.  It was divine.  I thought I would melt into a puddle.  One pc, however was enough.  Surprised......you bet.  I went back to work today.  I never thought a day could be so long.  Believe your doctor when she says, "Don't lift anything over 10 lbs".  Oh my god did it hurt.  It was a small child that was happy to see me and I forgot all about incisions.  No injury to them, but I will be extra careful until my pre op appointment on the 31st.   I feel pretty good.  All the advice for gas, shoulder pain and shake boredom have been like jewels in a treasure chest.  Thank You Thank YOU.
THE FAT MAN IS COMING ! ! ! ! !    I am actually excited about Christmas this year.
 

Home

Dec 15, 2007

I am home.  Not sure what to do.  I am really bloated and uncomfortable.  All I want to do is sleep.

Feeling BLAH

Dec 09, 2007

I'm feeling pretty blaaah today.  I couldn't finish my shake this morning.  My throat is sore.  I think it's the dry air, because it's fine a couple of hours after I get up in the morning.  I better dig out my humidifier.  We had icy rain overnite and all the trees look like have been coated with crystals.  It's absolutely beatiful.  

I am in the final stretch now.  My profile says the 12, but it's actually the 14th.  This Friday is the big day.  I am trying to convince my husband to drop me off and go to work.  He won't be able to see me for a good 6 hours.  Roger Williams won't even allow him in Recovery.  The waiting room is not at  all comfortable.  He only works 20 minutes away.  They will call him when I'm done and call him again when I am put in a room.  I hate the thought of him just sitting there all by himself.  

I already packed my bag for the hospital, filled the house with jello, broth and other clear liquids, I wrapped the last of the christmas gifts and made arrangements for my kids on Friday.  I have a ton of nevrous energy.  I can't clean anything else in the house.  I should be a fine mess by Thursday.  The only thing I have been putting off, is my living will or health care proxy (depending on where you live)  It's so morbid to think about it, but I guess I have to get everything in order. 


CRAAAAAP

Dec 03, 2007

I am three days into this liquid diet from hell.   I do fine during the day, but when it comes to that one meal,  HOLY COW!!!!  I don't know what comes over me.  It's like there is a gremlin on my shoulder telling to eat because you won't get to chew again until tomorrow.  I have to eat and run out of the house.  I quess it's not a bad thing, because I run to the gym.  My husband is getting slightly irritated with my jummpy attitude around supper time.  I feel like a junkie.  Gotta have it!!! Gotta Haaaave it!!!! Got to HAVE IT ALLLLLL!!!!   Whew!!!  I fell much better.  I'll be OK......RIGHT?  11 more days.  I so can do this. 

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