WOW... it has been a while....

Jun 18, 2012

OMG I can't believe how LONG it has been since I have posted on here. I am doing well. I went through a LOT of hard times the last few years .. I have been put in rehab 3 times in 4  months for alcohol abuse due to my now ex-husband cheating on me and beating me... the more weight I lost, the more he got abusive...I think now it was a controlling thing..  I couldn't deal and self medicated by drinking ANYTHING I could get my hands on! ALL I wanted to do was wake up, drink myself into a stooper and go back to sleep so that I did NOT have to deal with the pain of being cheated on and HIT!!! I know now that isn't the answer to the problem.. the issues HAVE got TO BE resolved or things just REGRESS not progress!!! I lost a marriage and ALMOST my 3 kids from this STUPID act of drinking .. however I know now it was more situational then anything. I now have 2 of my 3 children and I can DRINK on a basis of having a RELAXING time instead of HAVING to just to sleep the blues away!! HANG in there you guys... they make us have psych. treatment before SURG. but REALLY we and OUR FAMILY and SPOUSES need it AFTER surgery... I love you all and hope I  can help just ONE PERSON out there.... LOVE YOU... CARROLL

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