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Sep 25, 2007

Your Body Mass Index


The Height you entered is 5 feet, 2.5 inches. The Weight you entered is 331 pounds.

Your Calculated BMI is: 59.6



When I calculate my BMI on here or on my Ticker... It's not accurate.  I'm not  5'2, I'm actually 5'2.5...  I know it's only the difference of half an inch, but that half of an inch put my BMI under 60!!!  Holy cow!!!!!  Can you believe it!!!!!  Starting out with a BMI of 77, just to be able to see that number there makes me want to cry!  I love my sleeve!


Feeling good!!!

Aug 30, 2007

I've been making some little changes in my diet.  Cutting back on the carbs just a bit more...  not that I was eating alot or anything... but that little bit does help.  In addition, I've started taking the stairs down from the parking garage every day.  I started by parking on the second floor and then taking the stairs down.  Now I'm parking on the 3rd floor and going down from there...  yesterday afternoon when I got off of work, I got brave and went down the stairs instead of using the elevator!!!  I work on the 5th floor!!!  it was 110 steps!!!  I counted the whole way down.  My legs are KILLING me today, but I felt so good after I did it and I felt even better when I woke up this morning and saw that I had lost 2 pounds since yesterday!!!  WOOT!!!!

I am officially down 60 pounds in 12 weeks!!!  82 lost so far!!!  I can't even begin to tell you how great I feel.  It was just such a great accomplishment to be able to go down those stairs and I'm so proud that my legs hurt!!  They are like war wounds...  I worked hard for those sore muscles!  Dangit, they better hurt!!  LOL!

I did find a gym that I think we are interested in going to...  but it's about 30 minutes away from our house.  I think one day next week when brandon is off, when I get home from work, we are going to make a drive over there to see how long it will really take...  I called and talked to the owner the other day and explained to him my situation and he really sounded enthusiastic about helping me achieve my goals.  Currently they don't have a pool, but he said that they are hoping to move into a bigger facility...  I told him it wasn't like I was going to be getting into a bathing suit anytime soon anyways and he said that that could be a great goal for us to work on to together!!  I was almost blushing... LOL!

I LOVE MY SLEEVE!!!  VSG ROCKS!!!!

Stalling again...

Aug 19, 2007

UUUGGGH...  This is just not turning out to be a good month for me.  According to my home scale, I've lost 3 pounds in 2 weeks!  I know it's still a loss.  But still.  I know I'm losing inches...  My fat is redistributing itself.  About a month ago, I had to quit wearing my wedding band because it kept falling off.  I've been wearing it for 7 years and it's always been the same size...  When we got married I was around 280...  I'm 349 right now...  It still fit me at 425...  It's just insane that now it wants to fall off!!  I had another ring that I started wearing instead...  Friday night that one fell off too and when I started wearing it 4 weeks ago, it was not tight, but it fit really good.  

I'm still loosing...  I just really want to be losing a little faster.  I have a goal set to be at my half way point by christmas and I'm feeling like it's not going to happen now.  It's a little discouraging.  I only have 61 pounds to lose between now and then.  There's 18 weeks till then and that would mean that I'd need to lose almost 4 pounds a week...  Is that asking too much of myself??  I just don't know.  

I'm starting to be able to see changes in the mirror which is awesome...  Up until this point, I've still been seeing that 425 pound person looking back.  I can feel my cheek bones right under the skin when I don't smile...  there's not quite as much cushion along my jaw line...  it's been forever since I've actually seen those...

  This was me at 15 or 16...  I was around 220.  That was the last time I had cheek bones and a jaw line.  I always look at that picture and think "Wow, I was really pretty...  Why is it that no one else saw it?"  I would love to be able to look like that again.  I was a total hippy, gothic, freak!!!  I might not go back to that extreme, LOL!  I just look at her and know that she's trapped in this body.  

OK...  enough of my pitty party.  I am really doing good.  I've lost 76 pounds from my highest...  I have a great job that I love.  My girls start daycare tomorrow.  My relationship with my husband is strong!  Everything is just going great!  I just hate these stalls!  

I need some M&M's....

Stalling....

Jul 28, 2007

I've been on such a role lately.  Averaging about 6 pounds a week for the last 3 weeks...  And now I finally get to 359 and I've been stuck here for 4 days!  I think the problem was that we went to Lone Star Steakhouse and I got a Cobb Salad with thousand island dressing.  I ate my little 2-3 oz there are the restaurant and then that night I had 2 more servings.  The next day I had it for lunch, snack and another snack...  I would have finished it, but I just decided that after snacking on salad loaded with dressing that it was best if I just threw it away.  

I can't stand that I ate so much of that salad.  I know that it was just salad and not something fried or coated in sugar.  But maybe I just see the pounds coming off and feel the need to sabatoge myself.  Well today it's back on and I had half a moz. cheese stick.  I have my nephew over today playing with the girls so I didn't have time to fix myself anything.  The kids have just finished lunch and I think I'll figure something out for lunch. 

Although lately, I've been feeling sick to my stomach when it's time to eat...  I don't know if maybe I'm letting my tummy get too empty.  It's not a horrible feeling, but when it comes time to actually eat, I'm not really wanting too...  I also still do not feel hungry when I know I should be...  Maybe it's just the thought of constantly forcing myself to eat...  No clue.  I still feel great and I'm so pleased with my weight loss so far!  44 pounds since surgery and that was almost 8 weeks ago!  66 total!!!  I'm so happy to be out of the 360's now and into the 350's!!!  Even better will be when I get into the 340's!!!  I'm just so happy that the weight is coming off!!!

For the first time in 6 years, I went to a store and bought a skirt and top!!  Since I got this job, I'm needing some dressier things.  I have lots of tops and a nice dress suit.  But I don't have anything that looks good with all of those tops I have.  So I found this cute skirt at Catherine's...  Everything was on sale too!!!  It was regular $54.00...  I got it for $20!!  yay!!!

Although....  I saw that they had a Bra section and I can't tell you how badly I need a bra...  but how many big women are out there who are a 52 B...  It's almost hopeless trying to find something that fits!!!  Hopefully the one I've got can last me a little while longer so I can lose some more inches...  hopefully not in the cup, though!!!!  

Ok...  So I'm getting my eating back on track and I've got to manage to get more exercise.  After I get a few paychecks in, I'm thinking about joining a gym...  but we will see.  Time to get my bottom in gear!

Getting a job to chase the BUM away!

Jul 24, 2007

I've been a housewife/stay at home mom for 6 years now.  My girls are 2 and 3...  I love my kids, but they are driving me INSANE!!!  They fight all the time.  Bicker and yell and kick and bite!  Enough is enough!  

I'm getting a job!  They are going to daycare and will be seperated into different classes.  I want only the best for my girls, but I just can't give them that anymore.  They need to be with other kids and learn to socalize outside of the comfort of our home.  I'm very excited for them and this chance for them to venture out into the world...  well, maybe preschool isn't the world, but it's close enough!!

I've been taking the Civil Service exams lately and once I got my really good scores back, I started applying for jobs.  I don't even remember how many interviews I've been on, but I had 2 jobs in mind that I wanted.  

Choice 1 was WAY out of my league.  But I feel that if given the chance, I can excell and make a wonderful productive career.  In addition, I'd be given the chance to help ALOT of people!!!  I really want this job. (pay is $8 a month less than choice 2)

Choice 2 was mostly because it was the highest pay and I'm familiar with the work.  It's closer than choice 1 so gas wouldn't be as much of an issue, but traffic is just as bad.  

Yesterday, I got a call from Choice 2 and they offered me the position pending a drug screen...  well I knew that wouldn't be a problem, so I knew I had the job.  BUT Friday of last week, Choice 1 called me back for another interview for Wed.  

I figured I'd do the drug test Monday and she said that it takes 2-3 days to get it back in and I thought that would buy me enough time to get to this interview on Wed. and convince choice 1 that they really want to hire me.  

I got a call from choice 2 today saying that they get my test back already, passed of course, and they want me to start on Monday.  I got a call from choice 1 today and they wanted to push my interview back to next Monday...  eeekkk!!!  I ended up talking her into 11 on Wed. instead of 10.  But she said that I still wouldn't have an answer till next week sometime.  

SO....  I figure that I'll just start with choice 2.  And I know that I have a 50/50 chance of getting the job with choice 1 because it's only down to me and another person.  If I don't get the job, then I've already started with choice 2 and if I do get the job, then I'll put in 2 weeks and go with choice 1...  

I swear, I've never had a problem this complicated before!  For all of you who keep asking about how the job situation is going...  Here it is!

Choice 1 = Administrative Coordinator 3, Dept. of Health and Hospitals, Addictive Dissorders Regulatory Athority Division.  Assistant to the Executive Director.

Choice 2 = Motor Vehicle Compliance Analyst 1, Dept. of Public Safety, Customer Service Division

Bye Bye 370's

Jul 15, 2007

Yesterday morning, I couldn't believe my eyes when I saw on the scale that I weighed 369!  The 370's are gone forever.  That's such a big thing for me.  2 years ago I weighed 375 and no matter how hard I dieted, I couldn't get below that.  It was so frusterating.  And now here I am, weighing in this morning at 368!!!  I've dropped a little over 10 BMI points from 77 to 67 point something or other.  To date I've lost 57 pounds!  It just seems like a wonderful dream come true.  

Today, I get to measure myself to see how all that's coming.  I still don't feel any smaller, but it's easier to reach in places that were harder to get to just a few months ago.  The bulk of my belly seems to be lighter and less full.  My wedding ring now fits on all 5 of my fingers!  Although it's super loose on my pinky and a little tight on my pointer.  Makes a cute thumb ring though.... lol!

Yesterday, the girls and I went to Walmart and we did our shopping and then walked around the store for almost an hour.  It was so nice not feeling tired or out of breath.  

I just can't believe it's done.  And best of all, it's working!  I am trying so hard to make the right choices.  Even my bad choices aren't nearly as bad as they would have been before surgery.   My "bad choices" now consist of sugar free chocolate covered graham crackers....  And 1 serving is 140 calories, 16g of carbs, and you get 3 cookies.  I only eat them 2-3 times a week... but I know it's something that I don't really need.  They are just soooooo good!  Another "bad choice" is that sometimes, I'll put too much on my plate and take my time to eat it all...  I did that last night, BUT the too much that I put on my plate was a salad.  Most of the time when I do that, I will put more veggies than my tummy will want...  I just really love my veggies!

So I think that's all I've got for the moment.  I have a big job interview that I really don't qualify for tomorrow, so I'll update on that when I get a chance!

1 month post-op update

Jul 05, 2007

So it's been one month today.  I weighed myself this morning and I have lost 28 pounds since surgery.  Which means that I have now met the first little goal I made for myself.  My first goal was to lose 50 pounds.  It took me 6 months to lose the 22 pounds before surgery, but I made it!!

Now that I know the weight is coming off, I'm not so concerned with the numbers.  Although I would like to lose another 25 pounds this month... but I'm more focused on exercise right now.  I've got my eating under control for the most part and I know I would have lost more my first month had I exercised more, but I think it's important that I allowed myself to lose some weight before I put all of that extra strain on everything and burning myself out too quickly.  So this month, I'm going to work in getting as much activity as I can.  

I'm not focusing on this right now, but an unspoken goal that I have is to be at my half way mark by christmas.  That's a loss of 137.5 pounds...  50 down, 87.5 left to go...  I think I can do it...  That's only an average of 17.5 lost a month.  Ok, so I'm getting a little too technical...  but still...  I really think it's do-able.  That would put me around 280 or so.  I haven't weighed that in 7 years.  I weighed around 280 when I got married!!  Alright, so now that I've got that out, that means I've got to do it.  

Wish me luck!

Lost and Found

Jun 16, 2007

This is going to be a running list of things that I have lost in the past but that I have found during this whole weight loss process.  After being obese my entire life, just about...  There are so many things that I missed out on and so many things I missed seeing in myself.  This is going to be my little way of experiencing those things and celebrating them as they happen and I hope it encourages others to do the same.  I know there will be times when I don't feel like staying with it or times when I will get discouraged, but I plan to look back on this list and watch it grow as time goes along.

6/16/07
I was goofing off with the camera and I noticed that I have dimples!!  I didn't know I had dimples.  Maybe I knew, but possibly forgot...  but I have them and they are there!!  When I look in the mirror now, I actually see them!

8/19/07
I found my neck!!!  I was in the bathroom washing my hands and I looked up and saw something odd separating my head from my shoulders...  It was a NECK!!!  MY NECK!!  Yippy!!!

Holy Cr@p!!!

Jun 11, 2007

Ok, so while I was in the hospital, 6 days ago, I attempted to weigh on a scale that only goes up to 400...  well, I knew that 12 hours after surgery I hadn't lost 4 pounds, but it was worth a try.  While Patience and I were together again at the hospital visiting Katie and Anne-Scott, I weighed on that same scale again...  6 days after surgery...  I weighed 392!!!!!!  The morning of surgery I weighed 403 so I've lost 11 pounds in 6 days!!!!!  I can't believe I'm under 400!!!!!  I haven't been under 400 in over a year.  I've been on diet after diet and the closest I've gotten was 415...  I'm so excited!!!  Total since december I've lost I think 33 pounds!  too cool!!!!!!!!!

Surgery Experience

Jun 06, 2007

I just took my pain meds about 30 minutes ago and it's starting to kick in so please don't mind the typo's...  = )

I got to Vista about 7:45am and after I signed all my concent forms, they weighed me.  I had lost another 5 pounds giving me a loss of 22 pounds before surgery!  yay!

I went to visit Tammy right after they showed me to my room.  We had gone to see her the day before so I was concerned about how she was doing and she looked like she was doing great!  I went back to my room and they came and took blood and got my IV started.  My surgery was scheduled for 10, but they didn't come and get me until 10:30...  They brought me to the pre-op holding area where I got to talk to the anestheologist and I got to talk to Dr. B again.  My DH and my sis-in-law were there with me since no one else was there.  Right before they brought me to the OR, they gave me the shot of Verset for nerves and a shot of Heprin to help prevent blood clots.  As soon as they started wheeling me back to the OR, the Vercet was kicking in and I was feeling pretty good.  (I have problems with anxiety, but I was really at peace about the whole thing even before the Vercet)  They had me scoot onto the OR table and they strapped me down...  Once they put the mask over my mouth and had me breath a few times, I was out cold.  I remember waking up a second later and I was in Recovery...  I was in a pain, but for some reason I thought that they didn't do the surgery!!!  It only lasted a SECOND!!!  I slept in recovery, but I was only in there for about an hour.  They rolled me back to my room where my DH and my friend Mary were waiting for me.  Tammy and Rick came too once I was back in my room, but I don't remember talking to them.  My grandparents came to see me and I slept through the entire visit...  I didn't really start coming around until about 6 that evening... even then I still felt like I couldn't keep my eyes open for long.  I got up and walked the halls every few hours.  The first time I only got half way to the nurses station.  I was wore out!!!  Eventually it just got better and better.  I did have trouble with the liquid Loritab...  It was so thick that it coated my mouth so when I went to swallow, there was nothing there... it was in my mouth...  then I would go back to sleep and wake up to a mouthfull of saliva/Loritab and when I would try to swallow it, I got sick to my stomach and it came back up.  That was the only time I got sick and it only happened twice.  After that they brought me the liquid Demerol...  it tasted just as nasty, but much easier to go down.  

By 8 or 9, I was feeling much better...  by 6am the next morning, I was a 100 times better...  by 11:30 that afternoon, I was going home.  We got my prescriptions and I took some pain meds around 1:30 and slept in the chair for about 2 hours.  I went to bed around 9:30 last night and slept till 6am when my oldest woke up.  My mother in law came to pick them up around 7am so I could take the day and rest.  I plan on doing that.  

So how am I feeling today???  Well, I woke up in pain a little.  I had a sneezing fit, but that wasn't as bad as I thought it would be.  I feel really run down and I could only get in 4 or 5 baby bites of jello down.  Right now I'm sipping on my powdered vitamin mixture.  It's not too bad, but all I can do is sip it.  It's thicker than water so it's taking me a while to get it down.  I've got my Ice Shaver and my stepmom found cherry flavored sugar free snow cone syrup...  I add 1/3 of my protein vial to my snow cone with the cherry and it tastes soooo good!!!  So I get to have snow cones 3 times a day for my protein.  The ice helps with the swelling in my tummy in addition to helping me get my water and it is only 15 calories for 2 tablespoons of the syrup and that's pretty much all you need.  

I'm tempted to weigh myself, but I don't want to become a slave to my scale.  It's never accurate anyways.  I'm just curious as to how much I'm going to lose in a week.  

Over all I still feel pretty good.  I'm a little worried about staying hydrated, but I sip as much as I can during the day.  But I know as the swelling goes down I'll be able to sip a little more at a time.   I'm just so glad that it's done and over with!!!  

I'll update more as I can! 

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Apr 03, 2007
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