I'm baaaaaaaack

Feb 24, 2014

Let's see...how does that saying go?  "Bitterness is like cancer.  It eats upon the host."

Bitter is the best word to describe how I felt after my thigh lift on Aug 11, 2013.  My surgeon simply did not pull my legs tight enough, and my result is more cellulite on the back of my thighs, much skin laxity on the inside of my thighs, and dimpled appearance.  Translation:  my legs look worse than before the surgery.  Let's just say it was an expensive lesson learned at a cost of thirteen thousand dollars Yep, you read that correctly...and the needle DID just go across the record...

what happened to me emotionally after surgery was not easy.  I was mad.  I was bitter.  I was majorly depressed that I had an invasive procedure that took me away from exercising for 6 weeks...all for worse-than-original results.  I prayed for acceptance of the situation and wow, it was difficult.  It took me a good 3 months to get over it and turn a corner.  But not without dealing with a few slips.  I started falling into bad eating habits because I was mad (anger is an eating trigger for me).  After being so moody and irritable, I slowly began to realize that eating poorly was not the answer.  And I knew that deep down inside.

I usually give 2 talks a month about success habits after bariatric surgery.  And magically one day I got a call to do more of then after being on hiatus from surgery.  It was just the jumpstart I needed to get back on track.  I also started doing hot powerful flow yoga and dealing with my negative emotions on the mat.  What a powerful experience for me.  I held myself accountable by getting back on the scale and getting my body fat retested.  I promised to view it as a new starting point and not beat myself up over it.  I had gained 8 lbs since surgery and gained 2% points of body fat.  I was bummed...but more motivated than bummed.  And whammo...2 weeks after getting back on track I broke my big toe.  3 months in a boot forced me to do non-running activities.  I believe God has a sense of humor and he wanted to test me...he knows I cannot stand gym equipment...but I worked with my trainer to devise creative workouts.  And I am stronger than ever right now.

So...the point is...yes I experienced a setback.  But I caught myself.  And I emerged an even stronger person because of it.  Keep things in perspective and be patient with yourself and your life situations.  It's okay to be disappointed but set a time limit on the disappointment and channel the disappointment into motivation and become a better version of yourself than you were yesterday!  

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