Suicide-Yes, I said it!!!

Feb 07, 2013

Not everybody in the world can relate to what it may feel like to want to die by your own hands...Many people think that ppl who think about suicide are crazy, manic and even unbelievers.  Well let me share something with you.  I'm neither but yes, I think about killing myself sometimes...this surgery has caused so many conflicting emotions that sometimes I feel like I'm better of dead...I know that's not the truth but I promised I would stay transparent...Think about it!! One minute you're treated like the fat pretty girl...you do something about the weight and now you  just become the typical pretty girl, never getting a chance from anyone to express who you really are without being judged...its crazy...I love the Lord Jesus, and I know that He died for all my sins..I understand that what I see with my eyes is not necessarily the truth anymore but I have to have time to sort thru all these real feelings and they do not make me crazy..Not talking about it and hiding it from ppl is what crazy is...sharing your feelings is not what makes you crazy!!!...

I want to share and encourage any of you who may have these thoughts...make sure you are talking to someone...let go of any issues of guilt, shame, fear or doubt because that's the fuel that spirit needs to continue to brew...you are more than worthy to be loved...How you see yourself is important...you are beautiful, you are special, you will live...thru every hurt pain of the past and pain in the future..you will LIVE!!!

I stand with you my sisters and brothers who feel like the only way out is death but you are so important, your story is imperative to many so keep it up...live and not die...share and declare that you will live and everything you have been thru has been purposed for such a time as this!!!

Inbox me if you need to!!!!

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07/31/2009
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