My first post.

Sep 28, 2009

Ok, where do I begin? 

Well, I'm 37.  I've been married to a wonderful man for almost 9 years.  We have two beautiful children, an almost 5 year old boy, and an almost 3 year old girl.

I've been researching wls for over 2 years now.  I've read and read and read and read and keep reading still about all the ups and down people go through and the pros and cons fo wls.

Finally last year my gp and I discussed wls in great lengths and she fowarded a referral for me.  I've been waiting since last December for my first consult.  This is a Dr. who has just relocated to about 2 hours from where I am.  They were building a new surgery unit and pushed the opening dates back and back.  This is why I haven't been in to see him yet.  But, I've confirmed that I'm on the list, and they are up to November of last year in the consults so hopefully it won't be much longer.

What else can I say?  My BMI is around 55-57 and I recently fell....HARD...on one of my knees.  I went to the ER to get checked...they took xrays and the Dr. tells me that there is no problem...he rambles on a bit..."....there is wear on your bones.......kinda unusual for someone your ages....but considering your weight...."...

Wait a sec...WHAT??

To say that made me upset is putting it mildly.  For some reason, I never thought of what all this weight was doing to my inner structure.  I know, I know....I should have known.  But I DID know...I had just never thought of it.

I keep thinking of my kids, so young and full of life.  I so want to go ride a bike with them, or play outside with them...but can't walk more than 30 steps without my back hurting.

Thank goodness for my husband.  He loves me no matter what size I am.  He is my angel.

I think I'll take a rest on the blogging for now.  It's harder to see things on paper than to think them in your head.

Talk to you later!

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