Ok Seriously?!

Jul 18, 2014

Really having a hard time dealing with the amount of negativity being thrown my way because of my choice to have surgery.  I am noticing that my family really has a hard time trusting that I am able to make well thought out decision for myself.  

Why is it that people can make the assumption that a person hasn't tried hard enough at weightloss?  That is what gets me the most...I feel like my attempts in the past were unsuccessful because according to them because I didn't loose a large amount of weight or maintain healthy eating habits.  I deal with a very opinionated and manipulative family members so whenever I do something outside of their comfort level I get this type of reaction...you'd think it would get easier deal with over the years...but it hasn't.  The sad thing about this is that all of this doubt is making me feel anxious about the whole surgery.  I hate that.  I think people who have weightloss issues often struggle to deal with stress or conflict (blanket statement I know) so we turn to food to quickly make us feel better.  Now that I am faced with this surgery and it is disrupting all of these emotions in me I feel like I want to eat foolishness even more!  Its very frustrating!  

Time to turn over a new leaf and start making it a habit of feeling the feelings, dealing with them in a healthy way and then releasing them instead of internalizing them!!  I read of a really good strategy today on the OHO forum and that is to write out all of the fears and concerns on one page and on the back of it write out all of the things I am thankful for.  I will have to try it...I have to start developing healthier ways to managing my feelings because if not the sour cream glazed donuts from Tim Hortons is going to be in my hands by the end of the night!!

Pray for me people! 

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