21 Days...Freaking out!!!

Nov 20, 2014

I don't know what's going in but I felt more prepared for this surgery until I got my date and now as the date gets closer I feel so disorganized and out of sorts lol!!  This is funny to me because I totally know that its pure nerves acting up.  I had my PATTS today and got through pretty quickly so now its up to me to get my ass in gear and plan accordingly.  

I still have a very upset mother who feels like I'm making a huge mistake...unfortunately she is getting to me.  Mainly because, when a person is preparing for something like this the last thing you want to hear are words like "disappointment" our "you can do this another way...I know you can...I'm your mother".  Those words can make the strongest person second guess or feel nervous.  All I have to say is thank goodness for the post-op posts and pictures of those members on the bench!  They get me through...oh and the hope that I will be able to sit with my kids on rides at wonderland this summer!!

Time to start focusing on the days after surgery.  Make my lists and begin checking them off!  Opti start next the 28th!

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