chele514
Yes....it's been a while
Jan 22, 2011
Here it is, 6 mos since my last post. My intentions were to post at least every month, but between moving, single parenting, working, my commute to and from work (at least 2.5 hours/day) and trying to get to the gym all I could muster up is reading everyone else's post . But with all that said, I am doing wonderful.
As of today, 1/23/11 I am down 105 lbs. I am still about 40 lbs from my goal. Lots have happened in since the last time I posted, however, it's amazing, I can hardly remember any of it. I think that's a good thing because my son and I are most important. I've spent all my life worried about others. I still do to some degree (normal), however it feels good to think of myself.
I went to see my nut the other day and she said, I think you are doing wonderful and I enjoy talking to you but I don't want u to use the sessions as a crutch. Yes, I cried.....She was throwing me to the wolves (lol). I understand....it's like a mom/dad raising their children and when they turn 18, you have to let them fly. I'm not saying I'm "cured" or will not have set backs from past issues, etc, however it feels good to be told that I am progressing and progressing enough to handle whatever may come my way. Recommendation: if you have not seen a nut, I recommend it. Some days after a session I would feel drained letting go of emotional baggage and other sessions I would leave feeling like I could conquer the world. Besides my surgery, seeing her was the 2nd best thing I have done for myself. I would not have progressed had I not had regular visits. Try it.....U might like it :)
I'm still single and dateless. It's funny, I thought once the weight came off I'd have men knocking down my doors (lol). That's not happening, but I am so happy that God answers prayers. My purpose for having the surgery wasn't to get a man. It will happen in time. I have stepped out of the box and did a little Internet dating. Some frustration because people write anything, With the few dates I have gone on, I have realized that I'm just not ready to get into a relationship. I have a big fear of disappointment in men. Which means I still have work to do within myself.
I know I'm all over the place with this post, but I'm writing what's in order of my thoughts. I have not had any health problems since my surgery. I haven't had a period since 3/2010 and my gyn says I'm menopausal. Some say I will have a period, but I don't know because the HOT flashes are HOT HOT flashes. They r no joke, Oh my goodness, one thing I have experienced that has never been an issue is gas. My son has nearly disowned me. The gas can knock a person down...out....upside down. After research, I have ordered Devrom. I hope this works, because I sure can't date if I want to if I'm that gassy. For one second I thought I'd rather be fat than a stinky skinny woman. But I'm sure this can be fixed?
I'm still excited about my progress...where I'm at and where I'm going. I will definitely be posting for my 1 year (2/16/2011). Hang in there everyone and don't give up.
Many Blessings!
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As of today, 1/23/11 I am down 105 lbs. I am still about 40 lbs from my goal. Lots have happened in since the last time I posted, however, it's amazing, I can hardly remember any of it. I think that's a good thing because my son and I are most important. I've spent all my life worried about others. I still do to some degree (normal), however it feels good to think of myself.
I went to see my nut the other day and she said, I think you are doing wonderful and I enjoy talking to you but I don't want u to use the sessions as a crutch. Yes, I cried.....She was throwing me to the wolves (lol). I understand....it's like a mom/dad raising their children and when they turn 18, you have to let them fly. I'm not saying I'm "cured" or will not have set backs from past issues, etc, however it feels good to be told that I am progressing and progressing enough to handle whatever may come my way. Recommendation: if you have not seen a nut, I recommend it. Some days after a session I would feel drained letting go of emotional baggage and other sessions I would leave feeling like I could conquer the world. Besides my surgery, seeing her was the 2nd best thing I have done for myself. I would not have progressed had I not had regular visits. Try it.....U might like it :)
I'm still single and dateless. It's funny, I thought once the weight came off I'd have men knocking down my doors (lol). That's not happening, but I am so happy that God answers prayers. My purpose for having the surgery wasn't to get a man. It will happen in time. I have stepped out of the box and did a little Internet dating. Some frustration because people write anything, With the few dates I have gone on, I have realized that I'm just not ready to get into a relationship. I have a big fear of disappointment in men. Which means I still have work to do within myself.
I know I'm all over the place with this post, but I'm writing what's in order of my thoughts. I have not had any health problems since my surgery. I haven't had a period since 3/2010 and my gyn says I'm menopausal. Some say I will have a period, but I don't know because the HOT flashes are HOT HOT flashes. They r no joke, Oh my goodness, one thing I have experienced that has never been an issue is gas. My son has nearly disowned me. The gas can knock a person down...out....upside down. After research, I have ordered Devrom. I hope this works, because I sure can't date if I want to if I'm that gassy. For one second I thought I'd rather be fat than a stinky skinny woman. But I'm sure this can be fixed?
I'm still excited about my progress...where I'm at and where I'm going. I will definitely be posting for my 1 year (2/16/2011). Hang in there everyone and don't give up.
Many Blessings!
Oh yeah.......
Jul 12, 2010
I no longer have to sit like a dude......I CAN CROSS MY LEGS LIKE A LADY
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Just an update
Jul 10, 2010
I love reading but don't like typing, but I thought I would let anyone who reads this that I am very very glad that I have had the this surgery. Just being able to walk without being out of breath is so MAJOR! Didn't realize I was struggling until can actually breath.
I can:
Tie my shoes strings in the middle and no longer on the side
I can squat or stoop down
I had to bring my car seat closer to the steering wheel
I can climb the stair w/o feeling death (smile),
I walked nearly 5 miles and felt I could do more but it was HOT
.....I'm sure there is more to list, but these are just a few noticeable I can's
The only thing that I can't seem to do is have my monthly cycle. I had one a month after surgery and haven't had one since. My doctor prescribed me something to help bring it on, however that hasn't worked with the two doses I have had. I'm getting kinda nervous but well see what's next .
One of my major concerns is my relationship with my sister. She is my best friend or at least I think she is/??? Besides my son, I believed her to be my biggest supporter. I knew she had her doubts, but .........She was my Angel. She was at every support group meeting taking in all info that she could. She was right there during surgery. She took days off from work to just be there with me and she let me stay at her home until I felt better, but since I came home from her house, she has not asked how I feel, how the weight loss is going, what's going on or nothing. She has never complimented me. She is always concerned about what I eat and jumps on anything that may be a negative towards the surgery. It's like she is looking for me to fail and she can be there to help console me. Was I that week of a person before the surgery? I don't feel like I've changed that much. Yes, I am feeling more confident. And why should I not feel better about my self and change up on my style a little bit. I'm not even at my goal and it feels good to wear a summer dress and not feel uncomfortable. I just hate the thought that my sister my have issues with my weight loss.
With all that said, I am making some changes for me and my son and look forward to what the future has to bring to us. I am stepping out on Faith. This is a biggie for me because I never want anyone to be upset with me or judge me. I never wanted to make a move w/o someone else's opinion. I'm a responsible adult and can make sound decisions. Let me follow my heart and my own sound judgment. But here I go.....................I tell u later. Thanks for listening.
God Bless
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I can:
Tie my shoes strings in the middle and no longer on the side
I can squat or stoop down
I had to bring my car seat closer to the steering wheel
I can climb the stair w/o feeling death (smile),
I walked nearly 5 miles and felt I could do more but it was HOT
.....I'm sure there is more to list, but these are just a few noticeable I can's
The only thing that I can't seem to do is have my monthly cycle. I had one a month after surgery and haven't had one since. My doctor prescribed me something to help bring it on, however that hasn't worked with the two doses I have had. I'm getting kinda nervous but well see what's next .
One of my major concerns is my relationship with my sister. She is my best friend or at least I think she is/??? Besides my son, I believed her to be my biggest supporter. I knew she had her doubts, but .........She was my Angel. She was at every support group meeting taking in all info that she could. She was right there during surgery. She took days off from work to just be there with me and she let me stay at her home until I felt better, but since I came home from her house, she has not asked how I feel, how the weight loss is going, what's going on or nothing. She has never complimented me. She is always concerned about what I eat and jumps on anything that may be a negative towards the surgery. It's like she is looking for me to fail and she can be there to help console me. Was I that week of a person before the surgery? I don't feel like I've changed that much. Yes, I am feeling more confident. And why should I not feel better about my self and change up on my style a little bit. I'm not even at my goal and it feels good to wear a summer dress and not feel uncomfortable. I just hate the thought that my sister my have issues with my weight loss.
With all that said, I am making some changes for me and my son and look forward to what the future has to bring to us. I am stepping out on Faith. This is a biggie for me because I never want anyone to be upset with me or judge me. I never wanted to make a move w/o someone else's opinion. I'm a responsible adult and can make sound decisions. Let me follow my heart and my own sound judgment. But here I go.....................I tell u later. Thanks for listening.
God Bless
3 months post-op
May 15, 2010
1 month and 7 lbs down. I could be depressed, BUT I opt for I'm goin down. YEA.!! I 1 lb at a time closer to my goal. This past month as been a struggle with getting the lbs down, but I've started journaling not as consistant as I should be way way better than I have ever had in the past and even just with that I am satisfied. I've also be exercising. I started with just walking on the treadmill and then I started weight training and now I'm at a point because with weight is not coming down, I'm wondering if I should be lifting weights. So, I'm lots of that is contributing to the lack of weight loss. This 5/17/10, I am starting a BOOTCAMP at my gym. It's a 6 week program. I'm very excited. I got just a lil taste yesterday and it's going to be awesome!
Having the surgery was about weight loss, however going into this I wanted to work out other issues that I've dealt with most of my life. I wanted to become a better "whole" person. Because I know the weight loss is not going to change the problems that are currently going on and what will go on. I've been doing a lot of working and praying. This month has been such a challenge with some current friends. I feel good and feel more powerful in my life decisions. I've been more vocal in what I feel and how I feel "it" should be.....and I have to say without a tear or taking the blame on myself, which is something I've always done. I don't want to be a mean person, but I've been told that I will probably get to that "mean" stage and bounce back to a middle ground. It's hard to think of me as being mean, because I've never ever been mean. I've always been the happy and nice fat girl. Isn't that amazing. I just want to be who I am suppose to be and not because society dictates because of my color or size. I'm glad to be seeing my doc and going to my support groups. What a world of difference. If you're not going, my advice......GO!
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Having the surgery was about weight loss, however going into this I wanted to work out other issues that I've dealt with most of my life. I wanted to become a better "whole" person. Because I know the weight loss is not going to change the problems that are currently going on and what will go on. I've been doing a lot of working and praying. This month has been such a challenge with some current friends. I feel good and feel more powerful in my life decisions. I've been more vocal in what I feel and how I feel "it" should be.....and I have to say without a tear or taking the blame on myself, which is something I've always done. I don't want to be a mean person, but I've been told that I will probably get to that "mean" stage and bounce back to a middle ground. It's hard to think of me as being mean, because I've never ever been mean. I've always been the happy and nice fat girl. Isn't that amazing. I just want to be who I am suppose to be and not because society dictates because of my color or size. I'm glad to be seeing my doc and going to my support groups. What a world of difference. If you're not going, my advice......GO!
Nearly 7 weeks post op
Apr 04, 2010
4/4/10
Well it's nearly 7 weeks post op and the weight is coming off like it should. As of yesterday, I am down 50 lbs. I am truly excited. I had my son take a few pics of me and it took a lot to keep from deleting the pics from the camera. I knew I was over weight, however when u lose 50 lbs, I would have expected to see a difference and I do I feel it in my clothes and that does make me happy but I'm still not ready to take pics. The only reason I keep them is because this will be part of my journey that hopefully I will be able to encourage someone going through what I'm going through.
I am still challenged w/ eating. I don't feel hungry and I'm scared to eat. I do lots of tuna, eggs, and greek yogurt. I'm looking forward to getting quick and easy recipes especially smoothie recipes. I have a small hand blender and this would make life much easier.
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Well it's nearly 7 weeks post op and the weight is coming off like it should. As of yesterday, I am down 50 lbs. I am truly excited. I had my son take a few pics of me and it took a lot to keep from deleting the pics from the camera. I knew I was over weight, however when u lose 50 lbs, I would have expected to see a difference and I do I feel it in my clothes and that does make me happy but I'm still not ready to take pics. The only reason I keep them is because this will be part of my journey that hopefully I will be able to encourage someone going through what I'm going through.
I am still challenged w/ eating. I don't feel hungry and I'm scared to eat. I do lots of tuna, eggs, and greek yogurt. I'm looking forward to getting quick and easy recipes especially smoothie recipes. I have a small hand blender and this would make life much easier.
Here we goooooo!!!
Mar 12, 2010
2/19/10
3 days post op and I just had my first cry. I looked at all the vitamins, protein meds, etc and became very overwhelmed. I called a friend and she told me to take a deep breath and that it would be okay. I wasn’t regretting the surgery, I just want to make sure that I would be successful by completing what I was suppose to do. I have to actually say that I am not hungry and it’s very hard to get 101grams of protein in plus 64 oz of water, but I sipped, sipped, all day and took most of my supplements. What I find most interested is how my life has been centered around food. When I came back from the hospital (2/18/10) and some friends came to visit, most of the conversation was about food and then. Then tonight a friend of mine had a spa party and I told her I would support her and come and my goodness over 50% of the people knew I had the surgery and they just ate and ate and ate. I don’t want them to tiptoe around me, but again, how much my life is is centered around food. Again I wasn’t hungry but just looking at most of the food, salsa, bean dip, tortilla chips, cake, pecan pie, brownies & sweet tea that I will not consume anymore. This is really a mind thing and my prayer is that God will help sustain me through the challenging daysAbout Me
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02/16/2010
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Jul 19, 2009
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