ChelleBelle

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I have not had any major weight loss for the past 5 months or so. The scale says I am still hovering right around 140 yet my family says I appear to be getting smaller.  Not sure how that is possible but I will go ahead and take the compliments. Even so, I am concerned about how I am gonna get to goal.  I need to take off the last 15 pounds before my doc will okay me for plastic surgery.  I saw the doc about three weeks ago for my one year check up. So it has been one year and 85 pounds is the total weight loss.  I was sincerely hoping for more but I am trying hard to focus on what I have been able to accomplish.  I am loving wearing a size 6 jean since I was an 18/20 a year ago. Today I was at Dress Barn and tried on about a dozen things.  I often overestimate my size and turns out I kept taking mediums in to the dressing room and I ended up having to go back and try on the smalls. That feels good but I still need to get to that magic number before I will feel like I have truly accomplished my goal.  I know time is of the essence.  I need to capitalize on the rapid weight loss period before it is gone.  I was quite unhappy to hear that the body compensates for the malabsorption over time---something I did not realize when I first started investigating WLS. As a natural human response the villi in the intestinal tract grow longer to compensate for the shortened intestinal tract and fewer number of villi.  Dang it!!!! I was hoping the malabsorption was a lifetime thing. Any way........I need to get back to the basics; enough water, enough protein, no drinking with meals, no slider foods and no sugar.  Since I do not dump at all or have any negative reactions to sugar I have been experimenting and indulging which I know will be my undoing if I do not get it under control. Back to the basics!!!!!!! Gotta do it and gotta get back to the gym or the last 15 aren't gonna come off.  I know what to do------I just gotta DO it. I see the doc again in March and I need to be down 15 more to 125 pounds by that time.

Now I that I have seen marked success I am finding that I am beginning to have fearful thoughts about regressing or gaining weight back.  I have heard of so many stories of the people who saw so much success after WLS and then gained much or all of their weight back.  This happened to a very close friend of mine and I have seen her struggle with the pain, disappointment and self-loathing that comes with this failure.  I know I have to be vigilant and that I only have the 12 month "honeymoon" period to optimize the rapid weight loss.  The the battle really begins----keeping it all off.  I really think that my food addiction will always be there---just like an alcholic is always a alcoholic but the key is going to be using the tool I have been given and to fight the beast within every day and never ever give up.  I feel like this has given me a new lease on life and a chance to be thin and healthy and I have got to embrace it and then hold on for dear life.