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well today my weight is 168.8 and i whould be way more happier if my maine support other than my blog and my youtube page wasnt such a asssss. urgh it seems he is more and more unhappy the more happy and confindent i become. i recently started back at school just to go for my a medical assistant diploma and that also is making me very happy along with my weight loss but man he seems to be dogging on me like crazy. everything im doing for me this time seems to be a bother to him and not wanting to be supporive when i even discuss anything that is good in my life. now me asking him to do he simplest thing is like too much where as before he did not mind. everytime i try and talk to him seems like it just annying him. the only time he doesnt seem bothered by me is when we have sex.  We havent spent mch time because i work double weekens and school in the eves 4 days a week i just wanted 30 min to kick it and talk and all e could seem to think about is groping me. but what ever i think i have no support  in my enviroment.. anyways my cloths are getting to be really baggy, i havent tried to put on any smaller cloths because  think im just scared of not being smaller.. i look in the mirror and see the same person at 208.8 not 168. 8 a 40 pound diff. i still wear my sweats n tees. to look down on the cloths youre wearing it feels the same but when i look in the mirror im like omg it is sooo big. ive been really emotional and i asked the doc abot it he didnt seem worried i think really it is my lack of support  around me it seems i get more support and respect from people at my school or work.  and none from the home front. and i makes me feel really lonley and sad....

well truley i was freaking out over not having any movement on the scale after 2 and a half weeks, i came on here for help and i also spoke to my nurse, it truley seemed like all was lost i guess what it is that im not eating enough, and my body is holding on to fat cuz it is in this starvation mode? weird huh. but ya i think im just having a hard time finding what i can eat. im wanting meats and carbs so bad or it seems what my sleeve is liking is stuff that is not so good for me. that sucks. i tried turkey meatbalss my sleeve did not like it, i tried tuna my sleeve did not like it. i tried vienna sausages my sleeve did not like it, i tried spam meat my sleeve did not like it. fruits are good it seems but damn im getting so tired of the sweet factor. chicken is good i hait having to wait so long to take the next bite when i find something that this picky sleeve likes. i tried scrambled egg it seem i can only eat like half of a egg and im done, they feel too puffy for me. oatmeal is good, i was told i am only to eats fruits and meats rite now in this stage, im past the liquid im past the mechanical soft so any ideas what i can try next cuz i need some good food so i can get back on track. oh ya  im down to 178.8 by the way finally got past that 181 number yahooo..oh ya i was eatin these protein bars 19 and 0 on protein but my nurse said wasnt good for me to eat those everyday? although one is 220 cal and the other is like 180 cal what do you guys think on that? also i was told that my exercise routine has a effect on my weight loss too. i had been on the treadmill, and the day i realized i had lost was when i did my turbo jam dvd. so now i think i gotta switch up exersise diffrent stuff huh..

well my 4 week post op is tomorrow. ive been stuck at the same weight for almost 2 weeks ive been in a slump im drinking water im not ntaking calories? i am exercising and not taking in too many calories so what am i doing wrong?

Ok so now i got a date it is jan 17 2011... woo hooo now im up on this liquid diet and ive a craving for just some substance!  My brain will want fried chicken then mashed potatoes then some red meat of some sort... Im thinking it is because my protien is not where it should be. Also my stomach has been talking to me like nobody's bizness...ive started taking bariatric vitamins and been drinking a protien drink once maybe twice a day. im wondering what else can i have on this liquid diet i can have other than the popcicles ,jello, broth, water,veggie juice (which im haiting the veggie juice) and protien drinks. ive ot 10 more days till im done with liquid thing. ive already lost like 3 pound started at 208 sumthin and now im down to 205 sumthin not accounting today by the way im 4"11 if i hadnt said anything before. ya im tryn to stay to strong  and block my mind from telling my stomach hey im tryn to do sumthing here be quiet.. well im getting there 10 more days...

Hello My Name is Christina i am about 3 months prepairing myself for getting the VSG surgery. currently im in the middle of seeing my doctor in a 6 month time period for my insurance. Also when i went to banner good sameritan for more info i had to see a psych. She recomended that i continue seeing someone to deal with a death of a loved one and stress mamgement.So i am doing that now too. As of this date i am 5 foot i weigh from 205 to 210 it goes up and down but it seems no matter what i do what diet i change or exercise i do it always just is stuck in those number.one thing i know is i am a emotional eater,i do have a food addiction and the past 5 years have been a emotional roller coaster for me.now that i am feeling stronger emotional wise i feel i am ready to bring the woman whom i feel on the inside out.Im tired of hiding behind this weight and using it as a excuse to punish myelf for many reasons. I feel like it is time to stop doing for everyone else and do somthing for me i have a family history of diabetes,heart disease, and diffrent types of additions.im want to deal with the deamons in my heart and mind and not use food as a way to cope. i know this is not a quick fix nor is it gonna make things all better.. i feel if i dont do this i will always have a excuse to put weight loss,and other parts of my life on the back burner to cater to those whom i know can do for themselves.this way i will have no choice but to take of me. i have but one support in my life and that is my husband i dont have many folks to talk to whom truly understand what im going through being my husband is very very fit with almost no body fat.just moved to az lil over 2 yrs ago and havent much friends my mother has been passed for 5 years n ow and so i find myself here looking for a new life a new me. im tired of all my excuses, im tired of being scared to go out into public,or visit family or even taking pictures i want to be the confident person that hides in my heart waiting to be that sporty tom boy again without the fear of people seeing me as the weak link because of my weight or being lazy because of my weight. i have 4 kids at home 5 total 2 teens and 2 toddlers i work double weekends and a do mothers duty during the week so if anyone knows mother duty then you know i am not a lazy woman.anyways this is my first blog and im so nervouse i dont know what to say a newbie awe how cute... so please get at me ok..smootchez...