I read this on the main board and just had to save

Jul 22, 2007

Seems like forever and a day i was caught i was caught not in one cell but a million...........a billion.............maybe a trillion??? slimy little fat cells that have held me prisoner for so very very long. As they dissolve and melt away one by one i think of all the things i can do now that i have not been able to do for the past 25+ years, I feel one more little peice of me slipping into the freedom that ive yearned for all my life.

I look to the walks i take now and the ones im going to be sure and take from here on out, the horses i will be able to ride without fearing for theyre health, the roller coasters i will be able to get on and ride with all the excitement and joy i have always felt on them, not the tears of frustration and embarrassment i had the last time i tried to get on one and had to hurry and get up and get out of the car so the rest of the line could go, I look forward to putting on a swimsuit and actually be able to swim not just float because god knows i was way to buoyant to dive (not any more), ive actually made friends with my bike, it does not look like the tires are flat when i ride it now,And not every lawn chair looks like a booby trap to embarrass me by dumping my kookarachas in front of god and everyone. 

With every little fat cell that utters its final little fizzle as it dries up and becomes my new found fuel for my body comes a feeling of total control and accomplishment and a AHA  you will suffocate me NO MORE moment and i let them go without even saying goodbye....................they will hurt me NO MORE!

With every step i take i get more bounce more energy and more flat out JOY because i am beating this awful awful disease..........this self created prison.................and pray to never have to revisit it again.  I revel in the smiles i see on peoples faces because i am NO LONGER ashamed to look them in the face, not at all. I hope you all see the wonderment i see and the fear of the unknown doesnt scare you into not seeing the living miracle you are and the courage it took you to get you to the point you are at today, youre brave my hearts you are brave no matter where you are in this journey, you are in the journey, and to those of you that are fighting complications we are here with you we will not go anywhere else, we are an army and we will win this ONE FAT CELL AT A TIME if that is what it takes, I am here for you as i am sure you are here for me. I love you all Lets break these chains that bind and if you need help you call on me im right here.

hugz 
kat

Several WoW moments this week!

Jul 09, 2007

Its been a great week I finally can tell that I'm losing weight. I can now get in the truck without moving the stearing wheel and in the passenger seat I can get the seat belt fastened, yeah me. I need new bras lol.

My only problem is getting enough protein in and fluids somedays I do great others not.

My wound that opened up after surgery is healing but a couple more have appeared I go see Dr tomorrow I think the new ones are infected.

It's been a month since Surgery!

Jun 21, 2007

I can't believe it has been a month or that I've lost 25lbs, 41lbs if you count post surgery water weight. Over all I feel pretty good still get extremly tired easily but this to shall pass.

I did great after surgery up walking around eating and drinking what they gave me very little pain even though I have a 11 and 1/2 incision. The problem only appeared after I got home. Surgery on a monday home on thursday back to the hospital on saturday!  

Fri. I started vomiting at 8pm called Dr at 12:30 am his advise was to not eat or drink. Well I continued to vomit and at 6:30 am I called Dr again this time I was advised to come back to St V's where they found out that I had a sm bowel obstruction ( the new limb of my rny was not working). They put a ng tube in (thru the nose down to the stomache) I hope to never have another one of those. Very painful to place. They couldn't get it done in Radiology so Dr Inman had to do an endoscopy and place it (the best way to place it drugs envolved). Then we just played a waiting game for the limb to start working I was able to have ice chips and popsicles that was it and truthfully I really didn't want anything else! I had to have a pic line put in so they could give me tpn (feedings) plus Iv fluids my ivs kept going bad. It wasn't bad and i thought less painful then the Iv.

We just had to wait it out. The day before Dr K wanted to take me back to surgery my new limb started to work! Yea!! Out came the tube and I could start to eat then I was ableto go home on June 8. Doing ok with eating I just cant get the protein drinks down and have to really work on pills.

Check up with Dr K on Mon June 18 and I've lost 25lbs I still can't beleive it! 401 if you count the water weight post surgery! Guess I'm repeating myself it just seems so unreal to lose that much!

I'ts been awhile

May 17, 2007

Wow it's been awhile since I last posted. It is the Thursday before my surgery. I'm so excited, not really nervous (I suppose that will hit when I walk into surgery!) I still have so much to do before Monday like clean the house and organize my clothes etc. What ever doesn't get done just dosen't get done. I will just drive my 16 yr old daughter nuts by having list of things to do when she gets home from school lol.

I have a date!

Apr 05, 2007

After waiting so long I thought this day was never going to arrive. Last friday when I got home from work my approval letter was waiting. I still can hardly believe it, even when I talked with Sylvia and got my date set and the nutrionist called to set up my class. It's still not sinking in, 45days till I'm joining the loser's bench. May 21,2007 8Am!

This week has been frustrating!!!12-28-06

Dec 29, 2006

I've talked several times to Sylvia bless her heart for her patience. I had a pcp appoint. yesterday 12/28/06 for a weigh in and check up since my hospital stay and my fall last week when I dislocated my thumb. i know John wants to just buble wrap me. I had to discuss this denial letter with my dr. the ins. case manager doesn't like my pcp's lack of documentation regarding my dieting efforts for the last 6mos (more like yr) you know the dr suporvised wt loss attempt that you send in. So now we have 45 day to appeal their decision or start all over!!................Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..............I have only been working on this 2 yrs!!!  I know apeal apeal apeal!I won't have to worry about losing my hair after surgery because I will have pulled it all out before then!!

Dec 7, 2006

Dec 07, 2006

I called Sylvia to make sure she received the fax from my PCP. First she said she did't believe that she did but hold on she would check. She did but she couldn't fax them on to my case manager because she didn't leave a fax # or return her call. Since I called she will try again. You know you just want to reach though the telephone lines and strangle someone!!!! (Insurance people).

Dec 5, 2006

Dec 07, 2006

Sylvia at Dr Kaderabek's office called my insurance case worker called her she wanted some additional info so I had my PCP fax it to Sylvia. Of course my case manager wouldn't return my call yesterday. Oh well back to waiting...........

Dec 4, 2006

Dec 07, 2006

Still waiting! I called my ins. case manager of cource got her voice mail. I think I would fall over if I would ever get a live voice!

Nov 14,2006

Dec 07, 2006

Found out that the surgeons office sent the insurance packet to the wrong address. Not sure how this could of happend since I sent cover letter with the insurance address and case manager's name and department. Oh well she asures me that everthing needing is out in the mail today to the correct place this time.

About Me
Columbia City, IN
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29.8
BMI
VBG
Surgery
05/21/2007
Surgery Date
Sep 07, 2005
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