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6/11/05 2 1/2 months Post Op (-60 pounds)

I can't believe how the time flies. It seems like it has been longer. I thought I was on a plateau, but I when I looked back at my journal I saw that I had actually lost 15 pounds since my last Dr visit a month ago. Therefore, I guess I'm on track. I put my scale in my garage because I was focusing on the pounds too much. I do feel a big difference in my clothes. Some of my clothes are too big and I need to start wearing some soon because they are getting extremely loose. I went to my first support meeting and it felt so good to be surrounded by people that have been through and understand this surgery.

6/24/05 3 months post op (-70.5 pounds)

Today is my 3 month anniversary! I can't believe all the changes my body has gone through. It amazes me when I can get into smaller clothes. I know I look different, but it is hard to accept it. I don't always know how to take the compliments from people. I've always had a lot of self-confidence, but I've been under the radar as far as looks are concerned. Don't get me wrong I think I'm a nice looking woman, but when you are overweight people don't really see that you are beautiful inside and outside. It doesn't matter to me because I feel so good on the inside that it is hard to explain. My friend told me that my skin glows. I thought that was so sweet of her. I'm doing some form of exercise everyday.

This week I went on a 2.5 mile hike, clocked about 10 mls on the treadmill, weight trained 3 days, played hockey with the kids at me summer camp, and today I cut my own grass and let me tell you it was no easy job because of the rain and I have a big yard.

6/25/05

I woke up this morning and went to Walmart to get my tire fixed. I ended up buying the ab lounge (this is my trouble area). They were having a clearance sale on 2 piece summer dresses. So, I tried on a 22/24 and I was amazed that it fit. I didn't have to tug at it or anything. I was even more surprised when I noticed it was too big in certain areas and didn't fit right. Now people, I was a 26/28 so this is a big deal. Not only that, but I tried on some cute jean capris in a 24 and they fit. Jeans and I have never gotten along. No matter what size I was, I always had to buy a size or two bigger in jeans. Needless to say, I was ecstatic, but I didn't buy them. It was fun trying on clothes in a store where the sizes tend to run small.

P.S. I'll let you guys know how the ab lounger works!

The first picture in red is me at 290.5. I was exactly 3 months out. The second picture is me at 315. The other pictures are me at 300+ pounds during the past 5-8 years.

8/13/05 -93 pounds (268)

Wow! It's been a while since I have updated. A lot has been going on. I went to New Orleans for the first time (7/5/05). The picture of me below is from there. My weight was 280-285 in that picture. I think it is the prettiest picture I have taken in a long time. I am smaller than that now. I feel like I'm starting to get back to my old self. Meaning I'm feeling sexy and confident all the time. I don't ever remember being in the 260's so every pound is a wow moment for me. It was wonderful riding on the plane and not needing a seat belt extender and I was able to put both arms down on my seat. Needless to say, I was ecstatic! I told you I am a school teacher so most people hadn't seen me since May. They were surprised. Even my staff that works with me during the summer were surprised by my transformation and it had only be 2 weeks since we had last seen each other. (Only 5 people at my school know I had surgery).

I will say that it is hard to take compliments. It embarrasses me. I'm like dang was I that freaking fat before and the answer is yes. I was 361 pounds. That is a lot of woman. I just received a job promotion. I am a Dean so I'm no longer in the classroom. This is a step in the right direction for me to become an administrator.

I find myself willing to try more things. I want to ride a bike after not riding one for over 16 years. I want to go rock climbing, jet skiing, and para sailing. Hopefully, I will be able to do all these things on my cruise in December. Iwant to be down another 50 pounds; which will put me at 228 pounds.

I've cleaned out my closet for the second time (3, 33 gallon-sized trash cans). I am now getting rid of 22/24. They are huge on me, especially the dresses. I can wear anything from an xl-2x top depending on how cheaply it is made. I am a solid 22 in bottoms. I can wear 18/20 in dresses depending on the cut. I'm running out of clothes finally and having to buy pieces. Thank goodness for Ross and Bealls outlet.

I'll end this long post now, but I would like to say how good I feel. For those of you still fighting the battle, keep on. I had to fight with Cigna. If you need suggestions, email me anytime. It was people on this site that helped me get through. Love yourself first and others will love you. If they don't, simplify your life no matter how much it hurts.

The picture of me in black with my hand up is me in New Orleans 7/5/05 at 285 pounds.


8/21/05 -100#'s!!!!!!! (261)

Today, I made my 100#'s. I don't know how to feel. I am excited, but any weight that I hit now is something new for me. I can't remember the last time I was this weight. I took some pictures and I'm going to try and have some albums put on photobucket. I told my friend that I lost 100's, but I have a 100 more to go and she said no way because I will look like a crack head. I guess i look smaller than what I am.


10/12/05 -120#'s (241)

It's been a long time, but I have been so busy trying to be active that I don't have time to get on here as much. I guess that is a good thing. My wls seems to have slowed a little, but not much. In Sept. I only loss 7.5 pounds, but in Aug. I lost 17 so I figured my body is trying to adjust. I am now 6 months out and feeling great. I would still like to lose another 20 pounds before my cruise in Dec. or at least by the time I go back to my surgeon in Dec. right after my cruise. I now ride my bike everyday for 6.3 mls outside and I love it. I bought a swimsuit that didn't have a huge skirt on it that takes 3 hrs to dry once it gets wet. My self-confidence is also way up. My doctor sent me to therapy and put me on 2 medicines for the back pain. My breasts hanging are killing me. She wants to document, document, document, to make sure the insurance company has to pay.

11/07/2005 (230)

This morning I was standing in my closet trying to figure out what to wear. There is an echo in my closet because I am running out of clothes. I just bought size 20 clothing October 12th and I'm already too small for some of them, except my jeans. So, I went shopping today and bought size 18. YIPPEE!!!! Also, I had to go to the doctor today and she wanted to weigh me. She put the weight at 150 to start. I thought that was so sweet of her. I guess I look smaller than what I actually am. I love this surgery. I've recently started the process for getting my breasts reduced. My back has been killing me.

1/15/06 (216)

It has been a long time since I've posted. I'm enjoying life so much that I'm not on this site as much. I went on a cruise and actually took swimsuit photos. I've never done that before. I climbed 90 steps to the top of the Mayan Ruins and last year I tried this same activity and I couldn't do it. What a wow moment this was for me. I noticed from my post in November that I've only lost 16 pounds, but I still think that's great! Before, I wouldn't have been able to lose 8 pds a month. I went to see my doctor on the 29th of December and he was so proud of me because I had lost 50# since I had seen him in Aug. I have 60# left for his personal goal. My year will be March 24. I don't believe I can lose that amount in 3 months, but I would like to have 24-30# off by by the time I visit him in April. My stomach is terrible. I know I have about 10-12# on my belly. I will have to pay out of pocket to have it done, but I don't care. I deserve it.

4/8/06 (205)

Three months has passed. I had my year anniversary on 3/24/06. I spent it in London. I actually had a window seat flying home and I was comfortable. I can't believe it. I've gone from needing a seatbelt extension to sitting by the window. People tell me all the time that I'm smaller, but the scale doesn't say it. Maybe I'm losing inches, but the pounds are definitely not moving. I've decided that I only want to get down to 180 because plastics will put me down close to my doctor's 160 goal. Other than that, I happy!