2 weeks post op

May 12, 2009

I guess it gets easier each day. I really was not suffering from nausea before, but all the sudden its setting in. I am getting frustrated reading other stories of everyone feeling back to normal way before me. I am still so tired, still sore, and still just don't feel good.

I am staying at my parents still. More so now just because my boyfriend has my car parked over by jail for him to use for job interviews and such. I will be getting that back soon, and then I will transfer back to my own place.

Looking forward to it, but not. Its going to be so lonely there without him and its going to be hard on me. I wish he was around this would be so much easier. Its great having such wonderful parents, but I just need that other part of companionship. I get to talk to him every night for 15 minutes which is what I look forward to everyday. Sad, isnt it?

I am beginning to wonder if my lack of recovery is because I have some depression that has set in. I have my 3 week followup next Monday, so I will ask my Dr if its normal for me to feel so blah and tired. I did run some errands with my mom yesterday and it felt good to get out and about but I was just flat out exhausted when I came home.

I am having problems sleeping now. Cant sleep at night and really cant nap for long during the day. I think I might be eating too much, too? I dunno. Its hard. Maybe things will just fall into place for me when I go home. I miss my friends from work terribly. Just any social experience, really. This really has not been as smooth as I was expecting. I thought for sure I was prepared to take on the world with this surgery, but now I just feel like I could lay around and do nothing forever. I understand its only 2 weeks postop and I should probably give it a little more time, but I am just so anxious to get on with my life. Surgery and boyfriend.  I feel like I am trapped for the next 9 months in emotional hell because Dave will be gone and I will be giong thru so many changes. I know I just have to stay strong and before I know it things will get better. I just have to try and remind myself of that numerous times a day.

14 days -29 pounds

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