Its June

Jun 01, 2009

Its June, summer is finally here!  I am so looking forward to good weather and being able to clean up my messy yard.
My journey has been stalled, stymied, by my own mind.....I have fallen back into habits I had broken way back within 3 weeks of my surgery.

Today is a new day, a new month, a new season. So many things have gone on in the past year, but I believe I have cleared all the hurdles, now, I can re-concentrate my efforts to becoming as healthy as possible.

I need to lose another 25 lbs. I feel this is attainable, and with the blessing of this band, I not only will never see 300 lbs. ever again, but I won't see 200 lbs. again either.

I have done alot of analytical thinking, and had fallen back into trying to do and please everyone around me, at the expense of what I need to do for myself.  My passion to do the best I can for me has been re-ignited.  I need to let other's opinions slide off and get on with it--the great weather is going to help tremendously!  I haven't a clue what I am doing in my yard yet, except cleaning it up gives me a huge dose of exercise. I plan and look forward to buying some colorful bedding plants to put in the planters on my porch, I need to enhance my big tree, I am thinking decorative rock and a lovely border are in order, none of those things should be really expensive, and I can easily stay within a reasonable budget.

Another thing I realized recently was that I have not bought any new clothes--I have bought new shoes for work, some under things, but the rest, has all come from 2nd hand stores, I am re-working what I have available to see if I can afford to buy a few new summer things, just as inspiration, to lift my mood and go with my re-newed spirit about me.  nothing that is going to bankrupt me, a blouse or two and some capris I think.  Just enough I think to satisfy my sense of self without killing my budget or seeming excessive....I am really utilitarian in what it takes to please me, I need to loosen up a bit.

I think the most flattering thing happened recently--out to dinner with a firend that hung on my every word, as if he did not want to miss a thing I said--I cannot tell you how much that boosted my self esteem......I really miss having time like that, I need to work on cultivating more.  School is almost out and my daughter will glory in it, I love spending time with her, but I really value the day a week, when everyone is in school and I don't have to work, I get so much accomplished--need to work on when I can get some alone time for the next 3 months--I think I am really going to embrace the weekends I spend by myself working....

Not much else, hoping everyone's journey is going well, remember to come here for your support and encouragement, I am here almost daily and my email is open for any questions, concerns or if you just need to vent.

Blessings Always,

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