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Great Googly Moogly its December
Dec 15, 2009
My goodness, I had not realized that it has been 6 months since I added to this blog. Time and balance has been such a challenge for me--cannot seem to have enough time to do much at all. Not sleeping well either, too much going on. Oh, did I tell you, that I have relapsed with bad food choices and slack exercise schedules that my weight has rocketed back to 220 lbs.I had no idea the amount of stress trying to take care of a parent's needs and having them live with you would cause. Her whole way of life has rubbed off on me, my passive nature--I have never been able to stand up under her criticisms, her fault-finding and of course, being the emotional creature the good Lord made me, I have been swallowing my feelings....stuffing them down with the wrong food choices....man.
The new man in my life does not understand my being emotional or having a day wrought with turmoil every now and then, yesterday was one of those days. We have been seeing each other since August, yesterday was the first time I asked for support and re-assurance, this got me "well let me think about it, there is just too much drama for me"....crap. Jumped on this site today to spread as much support as I could, hopefully, it will help my outlook, my lack of any self worth whatsoever.
I do have a little good news to impart, I was able to sell back some of my unused vacation time in January--I plan to buy a treadmill for my home--that way I can start jogging, recommended by my nurse pract. she said my body is so used to my walking routine, that jogging should help start me back in the right direction--that and a huge piece of tape over my mouth should do the trick.
I was able to get my girl what she wanted most for Christmas--a Wii, my Mom and I split the cost--I did a bunch of on-call hours and was able to get it and pay for my licence plates--not the swiftest idea I ever had to buy a car in December...oh well. I scored a new Kodak EasyShare on Ebay for $35--it is the first digital I have owned...hopefully, I will be able to use it, my ex's parents want pics of our girl--the school pics were good this year, they want candids of both of us.
Well, that is about it for today, need to work on self-encouragement and self-esteem....thought I was passed all of this, guess not.
Take Care dear ones and Happy Holidays!
Blessings Always,
chris
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05/07/2007
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Aug 03, 2006
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