Head Hunger is really upsetting me!

Jan 01, 2010

Would you keep me in your prayers for peace about this weight loss issue I'm having, I can't seem to get pass a certain point on the scales and it's really upsetting me and I still have 40 lbs to lose and that is my goal for 2010 is to reach it and be healthy, I know I don't always eat the way I'm suppose too and I still fight a eating addiction everyday and it's getting worst with being able to eat more, but it's only with junk food, if I'm eating say a protein snack that's good for me I can't just stop at one if it doesn't hurt or make me sick like more than one pack of protein chips or a cheese stick and the only way to not overeat is not to have it in the house. Every time I'm away from home like visiting somewhere for more than a couple of days I feel like I can't control what I'm eating and "yes I take my protein shakes" along, even only being able to eat a little at a time I find I'm not always making healthy choices. I didn't have GASTRIC BYPASS SURGERY to weight 200 lbs. My highest was 292 lbs so I know I've done good with the losing but I've not lost a pound in over 6 months and I know one thing is because I've not been to the gym but for the most part I try to eat how I'm suppose to and get my protein in. Anyway sorry for venting but I'm really upset with myself and needed too let out a cry for help. And btw yes I have a eating addiction therapist I see on a regular bases and all she has me to do is write in a journal and then we discuss why I feel this or that way and what makes me think I ate this or that and I've been seeing her for over two years and I still don't know why I overeat. I'm not unhappy or lonely or hurting for anything. Other than missing my parents on a daily bases and having knee pain I'm good. So if you have any advice for how to overcome this I'm open to suggestions.   Thanks, Cindy

Been awhile since I've wrote here...sorry.

Nov 05, 2009

It's been a busy last few months for me and I guess I've not been good at keeping up with everybody unless your on my facebook. I think the last time I wrote here I had knee surgery well here it is 4 months later and still having just as much pain and it's daily. I've been out of town a few times and I've found a new talent where I can make flower arrangements and all this week have been doing craft shows and heading to one here in a litte while. I have pictures of all my things on facebook if anybody would like to check it out just add me as a friend.
My weight loss has slowed way down and on a good day I'm at 199 lbs but at my one year appt I was up 4lbs and got fussed at by the doctor. I've not been to the gym since knee surgery and I know that is one reason I'm not getting the weight off any quicker and the fact that carbs have found a way back into my life and it's been hard to stay away from them but I'm trying. Anyway that is what is going on in my life.

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Knee surgery and update on me.

Jul 23, 2009

Had knee surgery a week ago and doing pretty good. Haven't been on here in about a month or so but still around and you can always catch me on facebook just follow the link under my picture.
I was down to 205 lbs 2 weeks ago but since surgery I'm back up a few pounds so praying it is just fluid retention!
I'm doing alot better with my eating but still have to watch what I eat when it comes to meat.
To all my friends on here please keep in touch!


Off to Florida

Jun 11, 2009

I'll be gone to Florida for a couple of weeks starting today so if you leave a message and I don't get right back to you that's why, not sure where I'm going to have internet.
I'm also down to 207 lbs this morning so its going to be hard without a scale for two weeks but I hope it will be even less when I get back. Have a great weekend!


A little update on me.

May 27, 2009

Well I got over the depression and it was no thanks to the Wellburtin because after 4 days I couldn't take the side effects of it so quit taking it. I've had a virus for the last couple of weeks but finally feel better from that. Today I when to the primary doctor for a follow up on my knee and the depression. I went to a Orthopedic doctor last week and he's sending for a MRI. But last week my thigh started aching from my hip down on the outside and don't know if it has anything to do with the other problem with my knee because it's on the same leg. Anyway what is below is what I've put in my blog so I just copied and placing here.

Below is what I found on the internet and he showed me some stretching exercises to do and to keep my knee iced but this pain just started up last week when I was sick and that's why I had to get an ultrasound to see if I had a blood clot. Not sure if this has anything to do with the knee hurting for the last month and that I'm having a MRI done for on Friday because the new pain in my thigh just started. Anyway I went and seen the "Nut" today and was down 2 more lbs and since I first seen her in July last year before the surgery I'm down 80 lbs. So I hope next week when I go for my B12 shot at Dr. Miles I'll be down there too. According to the WLS boards a stall after 6 months is perfectly normal so I know as long as I keep doing what I'm suppose to I'll get the rest of this weight off and I have no time limit to lose the weight because this is my life now not just 50 more lbs. She also said that I don't look as big in person as my pictures make me look so when you look at my picture think of me 10 lbs lighter lol.   What is Iliotibial Band (I.T.B.) Syndrome? The I.T.B. is a thickened strip of fascia or muscle cover. It begins as a thick band that covers the outer thigh muscles, and travels down the outside of the leg to the knee joint, where it attaches to the outer edge of both the tibia and fibula, just below the knee joint. In so doing, the I.T.B. must lie against the protruding outer edge of the femur, just above the knee joint. As the knee is flexed and extended, the I.T.B. rubs against a thin fluid filled sac (a bursa), between it and the femur. The bursa acts to reduce friction, and to protect the I.T.B. However, when the bursa does not function properly, or there is a change in your running or cycling pattern, or a biomechanical foot or leg problem begins acting up, the I.T.B. becomes inflamed and painful.   Cindy
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Update on what is going on with me lately :(.

Apr 29, 2009

I have a Meniscus Tear and strained Ligament in my knee...got a cortisone injection and was told in about two weeks might have to get an MRI. The shot hurt like hell because he hit the bone and I could feel it even after he numbed it :(. I was told to keep it iced for a couple of days which I've already been doing and in 48 hrs it should be feeling better and to give him a call in two weeks and let him know how I'm doing.
He also put me on another antidepressant medicine which is Wellbutrin which I had in the past and couldn't tell it done anything for me but maybe it will with the Lexapro I'm on might do the trick, all I know is I want to get out of this mood I've been in for a couple of weeks.He says he's going to take me off the Lexapro eventually because I've been on it for about 2 yrs and now it doesn't seem like its working as well, so I guess I'll have to wait and see. His reasoning for what is going on with me is either Menopause rearing it's ugly head with the mood swings and being hot one minute and cold the next or that for the last 7 months since weight loss surgery that I've been on this high with losing the weight really fast and feeling good that now that it's slowing down and having pain in my knee is making me feel like I'm not doing as well and who knows maybe he is right! I just feel like I'm mad at the world at times and things seem to be getting on my last nerve! Has anyone else felt like this?
Okay well going to go kick back in the chair and rest my knee because the numbness is wearing off and starting to feel pain again.



6 months

Apr 19, 2009

Down 75 lbs so I'm down to 210 lbs.

Inches for 5 months out!

Mar 20, 2009

I'm down 55.5 inches and around 71 lbs.

4 months out.

Jan 28, 2009

Tomorrow I will be 4 months out and I have been stuck at the same loss of 65 lbs for about  3 weeks now and I think I'm losing inches but I'm still a little disappointed that the scales aren't moving. I've changed up my exercise routine thinking that would help but it hasn't yet. 
I'm still getting sick from eating more often than I would like and beginning to wonder if this is how it's going to be for the rest of my life. I do feel better about myself and have more energy but this vomiting is starting to get old and not never knowing what will make me sick. One day I can get something then eat it again another day and it makes me sick.
My hair has really been falling out for almost 2 months and today I decided to get it cut short and have a new color put on it and my stylist said she didn't see any new hair coming in so I'm like well I hope my hair is going to grow back.
Anyway I have some mixed emotions going on but for the most part I'm happy with the outcome so far.

Blood work.

Dec 18, 2008

Had some blood work done at the diabetic doctors the other day and got the results today which were A1C was 7.6 and in August was 7.5 so don't know why it's up a little but I'll take it because Dec 2007 it was 9.4 and normal is 4.3 - 6.1. Also they said that my kidney and liver functions were normal. Next month I will get my blood work for my 3 months follow up and that will show how everything else is working I guess.


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