clark29720
Where to begin ?? My name is Calvin and I've been pursuing approvals for gastric bypass surgery for almost 15 years. I've retired from law enforcement after 17 years just to venture into finance and home sales. It's amazing to me that with the job history I've had, no one would approve my surgery. It finally took having to go out on disability for me to obtain Medicare so I can move ahead. Not withstanding having the 2 year wait to be accepted to the Medicare program, all has sailed much smoother than before and that, along with hard prayer, has given me hope again. I often thought of myself as a positive and driven successful person in any job that I possessed. I made it from a routine deputy sheriff to Chief of Police for a medium sized municipality. I went from an assistant manager of a finance company to a branch manager of 3 different locations before undertaking the manufactured sales and mortgage business. Life has been very good to me and I feel blessed in those regards but there's always been a chapter unread. My personal life, due to being overweight, has suffered greatly and I've been married more times than I care to admit. In the beginning, all was right in the world and then usually after a few years, things always changed. I found myself either attracting those who just couldn't keep it in their pants or I had to take a really long look at myself as being the basis of their indiscretions. I'm not going to allow that to happen to me again. My surgeon once asked me,... "What is it about this surgery that you're most afraid of ??" The only reply that came to mind was, "Not having the surgery at all." I went on to explain to him that I knew the warnings of having it but I also know the certainties of mortality by not having it. That is what truly scares me. I suppose I'm not much different than others on here,... I'm tired. I'm tired of watching other couples dance at parties. I'm tired of buying clothes through email and catalogues of Big and Tall stores. More than that, I'm tired of not having the quality of life that allows me to enjoy things that others take for granted. Walks on a beach or a mall. Roller coasters. Fun things especially shared with someone. I'm just tired of being tired. Sound familiar ?? Hopefully others who read this will gain from it and hopefully, they'll also be supportive of me. Sometimes,.... all we really need is a gentle push from real friends. "Life is an adventure, be the navigator." ,... Good luck to all. , Calvin
