December--Half Way to My Surgery!!!
Dec 26, 2008So, I am half-way through my 6 month weight loss. I am not doing that well with following the diet, perhaps it is the Holidays, but I am really struggling. I keep going to WW and thinking I can do this, but then just don't. And I am scared that if I can't even follow it so I can get pre-approved, how will I be successful with the band? I need to find a way to make the next 3 months work for me. I would love to be down 20 pounds prior to my surgery and I know that is achieveable.
I feel like I am really being lazy. I should be exercising every day, but I don't....and I like it when I do exercise. Not before or during, but after I feel really good. And I haven't yet made that connection that I want to be thin more than I want food. But I don't to be fat anymore, I hate pictures of myself. I want to be able to fit in seats comfortably, I don't want to die young. I want to stay healthy. So, I will continue on this journey to fix myself. It really comes down to saying "No" to myself instead of "yes".
Maybe this will help too. My surgeons seem to be really good, and they are very enthusiastic about me doing this surgery because I am healthy. But I don't want to fail at one more thing about my weight. I want to be normal and not obsessed with food.