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Its' been 10 months now and I don't update like I thought I would.  I guess I've just been so busy living that I haven't taken the time to "give back" by posting.  If it weren't for other people putting down their experiences on this site I would've floundered along wondering.  So thank you all.  Anyway, the holidays are coming, and coming quickly and I feel myself sorta slipping into old patterns and habits.  Time is so scarce that I'm not preparing meals or thinking about my vitamins etc.  GOTTA GET BACK ON TRACK. On a good note I've surpassed my surgeons goal weight and I feel great!!! (At least in clothes, naked is a story for another time). LOL  -  Just want everyone to make sure that they take time for YOU during this holiday season - You're worth it. 

Seven months today since my life was changed.  Today, my life is much more than just "the surgery".  Which was the point of having it.  The surgery restored my emotional and physical health where everything is no longer wrapped up in my being fat, but now that the protective layer is gone there are so many other issues to deal with; emotional, social, fears, anger, pain.  How do I want to treat myself???? My children say I've changed and I kept saying they were wrong, but you know, they're right.  I have changed, I have confidence, hope and a new outlook  in general and we all need to figure out how this comes into play in my dealings with them and the life I want to go forward with for MYSELF The life that wasn't necessarily lacking, but definitely missing something.  I don't want them to think that I just settled or that I was unfulfilled or unhappy but  I waited so long not to be fat, now I'm not and I'm gonna have fun figuring the rest out!  I'm so glad they're all along for the ride and that they encourage and support me.   I have no idea where this is all leading but its been great so far!!  I'm finally excited about each day, even when the day sucks. I love that everyday isn't about what I'm eating or how much I'm eating, being thinner just seems so normal with them now, and that's all I ever wanted....was to feel normal.  And I do.