Hello again......

May 07, 2012

so i have been gone from this site for a very long long time. so many things have changed in my life. i ended up getting divorced cause my ex couldnt stand the fact that more people would look at me not just see through me. it caused alot of problems so that was the end of that. I ended up meeting a wonderful man and two years later i remarried him. Little by little i have been trying to get my kife back together. i let my self pity stray me from the path i had choosen to follow. i started drinking and i found out first hand what the whole transfer of addiction is. I am trying to get back on the right path by eating well and taking all my votamis and stopped the drinking.  so thats when i realized that the only way i am going to do that is that i need my oh family to help me out. my husband is supportive but poor man i put him through the ringer lol. lets start this journey again and stick to it. i have done so much that it would be a shame to let it all go down the drain. 
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hello ya'll....long post...

Nov 15, 2009

hey y'all i hope all of you find yourself in good health...... so i know i haven't been on here for a while... well i do come and check the updates and see how some of you guys are doing.. i know i havent been the best of weight loss Buddy's, god i havent event text the Lady's whose numbers i have... but here is short recap of everything that has been going on...


the drama i was having with my ex.. well hes finally paying me child support!!!!!!!!! so that's a good thing. we are going back to court though cause he had another child and then left the girl.... so yeah  but that's okay i dont care. thank god that i found a good man and that my children aren't lacking anything. the whole issue of me asking for child support was so he could know what it is to take care of a child at least financially.. but enough of that....

so far i have lost 108 pounds from surgery day and 111 pounds since the beginning of this journey. i couldn't be happier. right now I'm at 170. i have been stuck at this weight for about 1 month. i know i need to do more on my behave to loose the remaining pounds but its so freaking hard with work and home and kids... but i have to so i finally talked my sister into getting a gym membership with me and we could go early in the morning before i get everyone ready for school and get myself ready for school. however i do need to quit snacking and eating some of the things that i have been eating. i dump but just a little but its with like milk and things like that. why cant i dump with those freaking bite size chocolates??? lol... i know its up to me to stop myself but sometimes I'm so stressed that i still turn to food for comfort... so that needs to stop.

i recently bought a home so we where really busy with that move. i got the esure procedure so i don't have to worry about getting pregnant. not that i would want more kids but i already have 2 of my own then 4 stepkids so I'm good. i have also come to realize i have big girl syndrome. i know I'm literally half the person that i was but 95% of the time i see myself as a big girl. its funny cause i go shopping and i head for the plus size section and well it don't fit.... I'm down from a size 24-26 to a size 12-14 depending on the brand. i have so many people tell me how skinny i am and that i should loose anymore weight but I'm not even close to my goal or to my doctors goal. so oh well... i have also notices alot more attention from the male species...lol... that's always a laugh cause i thing to my self if i was still big they wouldn't even know i exist!!!!!!!!!!!!!

one thing that really bothers me is that my husband now calls me Annie...... yeah short for anorexic!!!! that really pisses me off. but other than that I'm doing good. i need to take some pics besides the trampy ones i posted..... its just that i still don't like to go in front of the camera. i mean with clothes i look good but i have so much loose skin its enough to fit another person!!!! but that was to be expected. my boobs are heading south really really fast.... however people don't believe me when i tell them I'm 29.... they think I'm alot younger so that's a good thing,,,

so i know this is up to me to change and I'm not looking for sympathy or anger but i do need some encouragement to get back on track. i did all this to be a healthier person and even though i have changed my habits. sometimes they come back and bite me on the butt!!!!! and i really don't want to fall back on bad habits what have you guys done to change those little pesky habits that just don't seem to go away????
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hey ya'll

Jul 24, 2009

so it hs been a while since i have posted. i am so sorry i havent updated or even kept intouch with my wls buddies. it has been really busy on my little piece of the world. so i finally went to court for the child support thing and yeah i won my case. he has to pay 668 a month i have primary custody. so its all good  let me see as far as my weight is concerned it is going good. i have stalls then i start loosing weight. i know i dont always eat what im suppost to eat all the time. most of the time i force myself to drink my prtein shakes. i take my vitamins and stuff but my eating is that great. i need to get my crap together and eat better. but im still loosing im down to 186 so i couldnt be happier. if i stopped loosing weight right now i would be ok with it. i have been 186 since after i had my first child.... the thing is that my olod clothes dont fit they are extremely baggy and im in between sizes so im kinda stuck wearing either tight clothes or baggy clothes that literaly fall of me.. its pretty funny if i think about it. at work my friends laugh cuz even with belts my pants still sag and fall. but i dont want to buy to much clothes becuse i know im still gonna keep loosing.  has it happened to you that sometimes even though i know im loosing weight  and i look good there are days when i still see myself big. then the next day im ok... i guess i have to adjust huh? but otherwise everything is good and im going to start taking pole dancing classes, so i'll see how that goes  lol  but i hope all of you find yourselfs in good health and i will start posting again.
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WORK!!!! WORK !!! WORK!!!

May 13, 2009

HEY EVERYONE!! IM SO SORRY I HAVENT BEEN ON LATELY, OR THAT I HAVENT POSTED AND THAT I HAVENT WRITTEN BACK TO SOME OF YOU!! I HAVE JUST BEEN SO FREAKING BUSY WITH WORK. ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY!!!! 99.9% OF THE TIME I GET HOME AND I WANT TO THROW A TANTRUM LIKE A LITTLE KID WITHOUT THEIR NAP!!!! BUT THINGS ARE LOOKING UP ON MY LITTLE PIECE OF THE WORLD... THE EX WELL HE IS STILL AN ASS!! OUR COURT ORDER BECAME EFFECTIVE MAY 1. I THINK I TOLD OYU GUYS ABOUT THE SHANANIGANS HE MADE HERE AT MY HOUSE.!!! HOW FREAKING EMBERRASSING....BUT ANYWHO I ONLY LET HIM HAVE MY SON FOR 1 DAY THEN I PICKED HIM UP.... THEN THIS WEEKEND HE WANTED TO KNOW WHAT TIME HE WAS GOING TO PICK UP MY SON AND I TOLD HIM NO... HE KEPT INSISTING AND WE WERE SUPPOST TO TAKE A TRIP FOR MOTHERS DAY BUT WE ENDED UP STAYING HERE.. SO ON SUNDAY HE CALLS TO TALK TO MY SON AND I GUESS HE ASKED HIM HOW OUR TRIP HAD GONE NAD MY BABY TOLD HIM WE HADNT... WELL FORGET IT HE MADE A BIG STINCK ABOUT IT, THEN I GOT PISSED AND I TOLD HIM TO F**K OFF CAUSE ITS MY WEEKEND ANYWAYS ...NEEDLESS TO SAY HE HUNG UP ON ME AND THEN HE TEXTED ME CALLING ME A LIAR...LOL... OMG I WISH THE GROUND WOULD OPEN UP AND SWALLOW HIM HOLE!!!!!!!! BUT ANYWAYS BESIDES THAT ALL I HAVE DONE IS WORK...I GAINED ABOUT 3 POUNDS THIS LAST TWO WEEKS!!! SOMETIMES I WONDER WHY BUT I HAVENT BEEN EXACTLY GREAT  WITH EVERYTHING THAT HAS BEEN HAPPENING. THEN I SLAPPED MYSELF AND THOUGHT LONG AND HARD...----I MEAN I WENT THROUGH THIS SURGERY TO BETTER MY LIFE. TO GROW OLD AND SEE MY BABIES HAVE BABIES!! SO WHY AM I LETTING THIS ASS DO THIS TO ME AGAIN. WHY DO I HAVE TO EAT MY EMOTIONS!!! ENOUGH IS ENOUGH I STARTED TAKING MY SHALES AND IM TRYING TO EAT BETTER. I HAVE ALSO STARTED EXERCISING AGAIN!!! I WAS AT 213 THEN I WENT UP TO 220 I AM NOW DONT TO 215 AGAIN!! I WILL NOT LET THIS JERK MESS UP MY LIFE AGAIN!!! SO I KNOW I HAVE TO STAY STRONG AND JUST IGNORE MY EX AND TRY TO MAKE THE BEST OF THIS SITUATION!!!

I ALSO WANT TO THANK ALL OF YOU THAT HAVE GIVEN GREAT SUPPORT  AND THOSE OF YOU THAT HAVE LEFT ME ALL THOSE INCOURAGING MESSAGES. ITS THANKS TO PEOPLE LIKE YOU ALL THAT KEEP ME GOING AND THAT SNAP ME BACK INTO SHAPE!!!!
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r u serious!!!!!

Apr 27, 2009

It has been a long while since i have posted on here. Quick recap on the drama on days of my life....I started work today... it was okay, i filled out alot of paperwork... then for the juicy part..... more drama drama with the ex. Like i have told you guys before I never asked my ex for anything in 8 years that we have been divorced... at the begining of april i finally took him to court... well now hes trying to take custody of my son. he is making some serious accusations... in 8.5 years i was a great mom ( i think because i never asked him for anything) now that he finally has to pay... im a bad mom, im not raising my son right, im letting him get sexually molested....i mean come on R U Freaking SERIOUS!!!!!. so now im not letting him take him at all till we go back to court. my son is like so afraid of his dad... i dont hit my kids i dont even yell at them,,,, why am i going to let this lowlife drunk, intimidate my baby???!!!!! i am so fed up with him...i cant wait till we trasfer just so that my baby has some peace of mind....anways it seems like lately im just ranting here... it has also put a damperon my weightloss. im not eating wrong but i really dont feel like exercising... im still loosing about 1 pound a day but still.... im finally down to 215... yay thats like 70 pounds downs... but anywho i will rant some more later i guess..
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Lord please give me patience.....

Apr 09, 2009

okay this is really plssing me off!! like seriously im about to get ugly!!!!!! i had my child support hearing two days ago, so for the past two days my ex has been texting me telling me that he thinks he has to pay to much...... 1) i dont make the rules for child support ....law makers and judges do!!!  2) he has a good job!!  ....he is a nurse at a state hospital he makes about 5000 a month  3) the state decides what he needs to pay!!!!!     the state of texas takes 20% of the non custodial parent pay... so now he wants me to go to the child support office and tell them that i only want 350 a month.... yeah when pigs fly!!!!!! he is acutally threatning me with takiing me to court for custody!!!. honestly tell me something... i have no criminal record..i have a stable marriage and my sons life is stable here. financillay and emotionally!!! my ex has about 3 dui's and dwi's on his record he has assult charges he crashed while under the influence and my son was in the car... my son hates going to his dads house... my ex bounces from girl to girl... does he honestly think that any judge in his right mind would give hinm custody!!!! lord please please please give me patience to deal with the ass and not stranggle his ass!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.
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Sucker!!!

Apr 08, 2009

I FINALLY had my child support hearing yesterday.... omg my ex is such a punk!!!!!..... he claimed that he had my son for 5 years that i only recently got him back and that he would provide financially for him and stuff. i was seeing red but thank god the clerck didnt believe him... my ex even had letters written by his mommy saying that he had my son... i didnt say anything becasue i was afraid of stranggling his ass!!!!!!!. for the record  i have never let my kids out of my grip... sure he would take him 2.5 days out of the week and i would have him the rest of the days. i have day care records, hello!!!!.let me explain my past a litlle.....i was married to him in 1999. i had my son in 2000... i caught him cheating on me 2 weeks after i had my son ...so i left.. not once did i ask him for anything...nothing.. thank god i had a good job and i was making money... then i got remarried to my current husband and he has a great job and has always  provided for my two kids... so my ex got a good job now but doesnt want to give me child support but he expects me to hand over my son every weekend..... and now he has his souse pregnant... dont take it wrong im not vindictive even though he deserves it!!! he was very abusive.. i also like his spouse we talk alot. but i dont think it is fair that there are times my son doesnt want to go with his dad and he threatens me and mkes my son cry!!! so anyhow we went to court yesterday.... i got primary custody, and 700 a month in child support.. he was suppost to give me 9000 in backpay but he started being a punk about it... so i felt bad and said he didnt have to give me backpay... i dont need it and thank god my son doesnt either!!! but today he is texting me telling me that he just cant pay that amount that we should agree to lower the child support... can you believe his nerve... im not trying to bash him or any man.. i love my husband and i have all boys!!!! but come on give me a break....... i should have taken the backpay!!!!anyways just wanted to vent a little...oh yeah i also bought some dessert protein the vanilla bean. i made it with ice  yuck!!!! totally gross. so i made another one without ice it was pretty yummy!!!!!

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today was a good day!!!

Apr 02, 2009

today was a good day. i had a job interview and i got hired, i finally met my wls buddy Ann. but know i dont want to work!!!!!!!! i know i cant be a bumm but my training is 5 weeks long and its the evening shift. what am i to do??? i quit my job with immigration cause i hated shift work, and i feel like im getting stuck again!!! otherwise it was a good day!!! i go to court on tuesday for child support i just got the letter in the mail...hopefully they'll make my ex caugh up some money!!! diet has been good.... exercise lets just say i have had no energy lately!!! but i have been cleaning my yard,,,its a big yard 1/2 acre,,,
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AND THE VERDICT IS......

Mar 25, 2009

not guilty. i finally had my court today. i explained to the judge why i didnt show up to jury duty, he was a little upset but told me to fill a change of address and to make sure i show up for jury duty next time. OMG you dont know the weight that has been  lifted off my shoulders. i also have jury duty on the 27th of april so i guess its all good!!!!!. on a different note i have been doing pretty good with my diet hit a couple of bumps and i hit my first stall but im not worried about it. i also started belly dancing so hopefully that will help with this stall. i am trying to still up my protein. i know i have to but i can only eat so much before i puke... fluids im doing good vitamins, b12,iron, and calcium im doing great, i havent missed one yet.... my only problem is the protein. so far im down 50 pounds. even though i dont see it other people do. i do however feel it. my back dont hurt and my knees dont hurt either. only about 100 more to go.... im on my way...
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stupid stupid stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mar 06, 2009

okay i did the stupidest thing i can think of. first i made some beef soup and it was delicious i ate until i was full about 1/4 of a cup then i saw my hubby eat a corn tortilla with homemade chile so stupid me i got one i put chile on it and then it happened i felt like i wanted to explode..... yeah it went down the toilet.... so the next day we were at target and my hubby again tempted me with a bite from his pretzel...... it literally took about 30 seconds after i chewed and swallowed for it to upset my tummy, throw up in the parking lot and make me feel like crap all day long...... come on i had one bad experience with tortilla  the day before then i make another stupid mistake the next day with the freaking pretzel...... i just dont learn.

             for about two weeks i was getting out of control. i couldnt feel myself get full. so i would literally eat until it was too late and i would puke. so i started taking my protein shakes and vitamins like im suppost too and everything changed... i know it was all in my head but i have that full feeling again. i know when to stop eating before i feel like exploding and puking.....so its good so far. i had hit a tiny stall for like a week and then the numbers started going down again!!! yeah!!!!! oh yeah i tried some new protein shake whey isolate 360... its really sweet...............toooooooooooo sweet.......................... blahhhhhh i will stick with my nectar cappuccinno thank you very much!!!!!! anyways got to go... its my sisters birthday and we are going to go sing happy birthday!!!!   dont worry no cake for me. i will wait till way later...i dont feel like puking tonite!!!
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