Feb 22, 2011
I still haven't found anything to replace eating as my coping mechanism. I do notice when I'm stressed my first thought is to eat. I have been so busy with work and the gym and so many other things it hasn't been a problem yet. Now that I am starting to add food back in though, I want to make sure it doesn't become a problem again.
Yesterday, I think I experienced hunger for the first time in a long time. It made me really nervous! I forgot what that felt like. I made myself try a few bites of soup and then stopped. It tasted so good. Then I noticed an hour later my stomach was growling. I couldn't decide if I was really hungry now or if the soup was just so good that I was convincing myself I was to eat more. I did have a little more soup but then focused on water and protein. I hope I can keep this strength up! I still feel like I'm battling food addictions but for now I'm winning. The lower I see my weight go, the happier it makes me and I do feel like I can do this. Except for the stalls or the paranoia of when I see how much other people have lost that had surgery around the same time.
Thank goodness its almost spring. I can't take any more of this cold weather!