Hi Cassie,
I don't know if you are still reading these "comments" and well-wishes to you, since the last was in April, hopefully, you are. I have been following your blog on Dr. Snyder's page, and now on OH, and I also hope to have surgery soon. I am 33 and have been overweight most of my life, so I know how you feel, being in your mid-twenties, overweight and pissed. I wish that I could fast forward you to your mid-thirties, so that you could see that everything turned out just fine. I dealt with stupid boys, confusing male friends, endless moves and degrees, all in the hopes that I would come out on the other side being the picture that I had in my head. Well, I didn't, the picture is much better than I had ever had in my head. I figured out that life happens to you, fighting and screaming or taking it with a smile, in the hopes that eventually it makes sense. Here is my credo: those that don't love you back can be left behind, you can't move away from your problems since you create them, your body is not your beauty, and life is WAY too short to deal with the bullshit. I would be happy to chat with you, I enjoy your writing and I feel like we have a lot in common. I live in Littleton, and I am not a psycho. I just hate reading what could be my own journal coming from someone else. Maybe I'd have some answers for you. Email me if you care to at
[email protected]. If not, I understand, it seems weird. In either case, I hope that you find the answers that you are looking for and find happiness in yourself.