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Finally, I am in Onderland.  It feels awesome !  91 lbs gone !  I am more proud of myself than I ever thought possible.
I love the way Fraser looks at me, he is always smiling and shaking his head, just amazed at how good I look.
I actually enjoy clothes shopping now.  I am buying an x-large off the "regular" rack in Reitmans AND at the Harley stores.
I bought a new pair of jeans at Reitmans on Saturday and they are a size 13/14 !  WOOHOO !
This is the most exciting journey I have ever been on in my life.  I am so glad that I had RNY despite the minor issues I have had, they are nothing compared to what I was doing to my body before.
Olivia next door weighs 90 lbs....so I picked her up on Saturday morning and tried to walk with her....man, was I really carrying around that much extra weight !
Next goal is to hit triple digits, then......to weigh less than Fraser !  Look out baby, here I come !

When I wrote my last blog post, I had no idea that people would see it.  I thought it would just be like a diary for me to look back on in the future.
I am overwhelmed at the responses and the support and very very grateful for my OH friends.
Thank you everyone.



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Whew, where to start.  It has been so long.
I have been having some issues since Jan. 30.  I was experiencing severe pain in my right side after lunch and could not catch my breath.  I began to get dizzy and nauseas and could not stand up.  Work called an ambulance and when the paramedics got there, the pain had subsided, but I was still dizzy and nauseas.  I told them I did not want to go to the hospital but they said I was going anyway.
In the ambulance, the took a blood glucose reading and determined that my glucose level had dropped to the point where most people would be unconsious.  I also has a fever.
They gave me glucose and the dizziness and nausea went away.  I then got a splitting headache.
They took me out of their area to Humber River Hospital and since it was not their area, they had to unload me from the stretcher and sit me in a chair in the waiting room.  I waited for 4 1/2 hours and not one person had been called in.  Not one of the six patients on stretchers that were there before me had moved either.
At this point, I just wanted to go home and lie down.  So I left.
Since then, I have been to see the surgeon.  Since I was still having intermitent pain, he decided to do a swallow test and a CAT scan.  Had the swallow test on Friday, CAT scan is on Wednesday.

Any"hoo" on a happy note, I bought a size 16 jeans and an X shirt from Pennington's.  I get non-stop comments about how beautiful and sexy I am.  Fraser can't stop smiling at me.  That feels good.  I even feel sexy in my new jeans....I think my butt looks awesome in them !  ha ha ha
I am only 4 lbs away from "ONEDERLAND"  !

Yesterday, we were in Guelph and we went to the mall with Fraser's Mom.  I went into two normal size stores and tried on jackets.....both times, the x-large fit !  This is a whole new experience for me and I love it !

More and more of Fraser's tops are fitting me and tonight I am wearing his Nike track pants !

Dr. Huynh says that I may only get down to 160 - 170, but I am not going to give up on 140 - 150.

Ta ta for now.

Well, it has been a while since I have written anything here.  So it is about time.
I am doing well, still have the odd vomitting episode, mostly from eating too fast, too much or something that doesn't agree with me.
I am down 68 lbs now and amazed at how my clothes fit and the new sizes that I can buy.  I bought a new pair of dress pants and two blouses today from Reitmans.  All were size 18 !  I can't even remember the last time I could wear a size 18, let alone a size 18 from Reitman's.  I always found their clothes to fit smaller.
Anyway, my energy level is way up.  I find it hard to sit for too long these days and find that I am always getting up and puttering around the house.
I am going back to work on Monday.  A little nervous about that, but it is time.
Fraser is still amazed every time he hugs me how much further his arms go around me.  He can overlap his hands now and it has been a LONG time since he could do that.
Anyway, gotta go, off to my support group meeting.
See ya when I am a 16 !

Okay, so I bought a new pair of jeans today and guess what.....SIZE 18 !
Alright, so they are stretch, but who cares, I had a heck of a time getting a size 26 to stretch to fit me at one time.
I am down 56 lbs and am really starting to feel it.
I went to Sport Check to buy a new pair of cross trainers for the gym today and had a couple of real "moments."   First off, I was able to put the shoes on and actually reach down to tie them up without having to stop breathing.  Then, I put a pair of shoes on and as I was walking around the store to see how they felt, I found myself looking in a mirror.....I stopped and said, "is that me?"  I actually walked closer to see if I still looked that good closer up.  Guess what, it was ME, and I felt great looking at myself.  I saw HOPE !  So then I decided to really try out the shoes and I took a little jog around the shoe department.  YES, ME JOGGING !  ha ha ha
I can't wait to get back to the gym tomorrow where I can really try a little jogging on the treadmill !
I FEEL GREAT TODAY !!!!!

I figure it is about time that I publish some WOW moments.

1.  Wearing a size medium cotton ginny plus top as opposed to extra large.

2.  Wearing a size 1X jacket or top in Penningtons as opposed to 4X.

3.  Wearing a size 22 pant in Penningtons as opposed to 26 (and I wouldn't buy 22 cause they were a little loose, but 20 was a little too tight).

4.  The summer clothes that I couldn't have sqeezed into this summer if my life depended on it are all way too big now.

5.  I actually crossed my legs this weekend !

6.  I had to move the seat forward on my truck after Fraser drove it (I always had to move it back) AND I left the steering wheel down where he has it and my legs fit underneath !

7.  I went to a party where there was a LOT of good munchie food and I just had a small taste of some things and was completely satisfied.

8.  And finally, the last one has to do with sex so we won't go there (but Fraser and I both know, our little secret !!)

They are happening fast and furious now, these little wows.  I am now down 54 lbs as of this morning !

I officially hit 50 lbs gone as of this morning !  50 frickin lbs !  OMG !!!!!  This means I am 1/3 of the way there.  I'm so excited, and I just can't hide it ! 
I LOOOOOOVE MY RNY !

Whew - what a cleaning out today.  Five really good bowel movements.  I feel so much better.
Had the gastroscopy on Friday, good news/bad news.  No stricture, no hernia, no obstruction.....verdict - ULCER !
How weird is that.  It does however, explain everything.  I was bunged up because I was not eating or drinking enough because it hurt too much to eat and drink, plus I was vomitting so much that it was easier not to eat.
I am on a quadruple dose of losec, 40 mg 2 x per day.  That will hopefully reverse the ulcer.
Eating was already easier today.  I have made sure to get in my full litre and a half of water for the last two days and I am sure that will help BIGTIME !
Now, let's see that weight start to fall off again.
I am down 49 lbs as of today and was actually able to get into an x-large off the rack (vest).  I didn't buy it, but it was nice that it fit.

I went to see my family Dr. for an unrelated matter on Nov. 5th.  I happened to mention that I was constipated, throwing up alot and really not feeling great.  He sent me for an x-ray.  Since I had a BM the next day (small, watery and gross, but a BM all the same), I figured, everything was fine.
I just got the results on last night.  X-ray showed "dilated loops on the small bowel measuring 42 mm, possible imcomplete obstruction."  Advice from Dr, see surgeon right away.  Since I was still having issues, and the vomitting has increased to the point where it really hurt (spent two hours puking last night, so off to see Dr. Huynh I went today.
He looked at the x-rays, asked me some questions and low and behold he booked me in for a gastroscopy and possible dilation for this Friday.  If he finds anything else needs to be done, it will be booked for a later date.
Why am I more nervous about this than I was about the actual RNY ?
I have definitely NOT been getting in enough protein, water or just plain food period, then when I do manage to eat something, I puke most of it up.  Since I saw him on October 14, I have only lost 6 lbs.  THAT SUCKS !  He says not to worry about it yet, to wait and see what Friday brings and we will go from there.
I still do not regret my decision, but am frustrated.

Here I am, 8 weeks and 4 days post op.  Food holds absolutely no attraction for me anymore.  I still have trouble eating solids.  Soup, yogurt, crackers go down okay.  Everything else is tough and actually causes some pain.  I am not getting my 90 grams of protein in every day.  I only ate about 50 grams today.  I know I have to do better with that.
Today, I have been peeing like crazy.  I go, then two minutes later I go again and then again very soon after.  I have a little pain and actually feel like I may be getting a bit of a bladder infection.  Will keep an eye on it.
Fraser looked at me today and said that with my hair the way it was and the way I was smiling, I looked like the girl he had married.  Then he got tears in his eyes.  Guess he hasn't seen her in a while, I know I haven't.  She has been buried inside but not able to break through the barriers that depression and self pity had built up.  I think the walls are crumbling, slowly but surely.
I am anxious to hit the 50 lb mark for weight loss, although I am very happy to have said goodbye to the 290's, the 280's, the 270's, and the 260's.  I am soooo close to saying goodbye to the 250's I can't wait !