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Well it has been a few months since my last post.  I am now down to 154 pounds.  I have had to buy some new jeans with in weeks of buying the last pairs I bought. At least I got them on the clearance rack. Only $9.00 a pair. But it still golls me.  I really do not like having to spend money all the time on clothing. The one thing that I do like to purchae though is new lacey bras and under clothing. It is an absession for me sometimes. But I guess I can chaulk this up to only ever wearing those huge granny panties. what a frag they are.My husband loves the new lace and such, and I love that he loves them.

I have so much lose skin that it sometimes grosses me out when I see it so I just tend not to look sometimes.  But I know that it is there and pray that one day I will get to have plastic to get rid of it and get those platic boobies to replace my tubesock boobies that I now have. 

I am still in school, but only have 4 weeks left. I have maintained my 4.0 GPA all the way through and have only missed a total of two days in the whole 9 months that I have been going. That was because of these blasted hernias that I have.  One I did not even know I had till I had lost so much weight. 

My PCP tells me that I am getting skinny and I just laugh at her.  I upon occassion see that really huge lady in the mirror, and everyone tells me I am insane to see it like that.  I guess we all go through that in this wild journey that we have undertaken.  Believe me I do not miss that old person. I love being able to keep up with my husband now days.  I can walk and not have to rest, I like to walk the malls and shops that we tend to go to now days. 

Oh one thing that is bothersome for me and I have just recently noticed because my friend noticed, is that men are looking at me. really looking at me and it is weird. Because I am deeply in love with my husband. And I know that he loves me also. Why he told me that lat night before I hit the hay for the night. Why is it that when I was fat they looked with disstain and now they gawk like I am a peice of meat for their dinner. It is so annoying.  I try to look nice all the time now, but this has me not wanting to look nice sometimes.
I dress with proper moral appropriateness, and I do it for myself not anyone else, so why do I feel so ashamed by these gawkers?  I like to think that they do not mean anything by it but now that I know that it is happening, I feel like someone who is going out looking for the attention and it is far from the truth.  I only want the attention from my honey, and I love it from him.

Anyways that is all for now.  If you happen to read my post I pray you enough. be blessed and happy.
Hugs, P

Well I am now having so many noticable life changing experiances.  I am still going to school and it is a great change that I undertook just a few short months after surgery.  I have been maintaining a 4.0 GPA along with my perfect attendance.  I am loving every minute of it and I have meet some really fabulous ladies.  I recently shared my before pictures with them and they were in total shock.  One of my lady friends says that I need to write a testamonial.  I kind of figure that I am what with the blog that I have on here and the one that I am keeping on my myspace page.  I am also looking into going to go and do the preresiqites for medical school.  My family is standing behind me 100 %.

My husband has become and obssed man with me lately. Not that he never was in the past.  He is just throwing so many compliments out there to me and it really makes my head swell at times.  I was able to get into my first pair of jeans recently and my youngest son said to me "Damn mom you look HOT!", it was the first pair that I have put on in 20+ yrs that did not have the dreaded elastic waist band.  And now I love to wear them.  I have also been getting some really lovely clothes lately.  I know that I may have to pass them on later, but they are making me feel like a million $$$.  My self esteem has grown by leaps and bounds.  I feel as if I can take on the world!!!

When I started this journey I weighed 300 pounds.  I had gotten to 287 on my surgery date. Today I am weighing in at 178.  This will be my 9 month aniversary and I am down a total of 122 pounds.  The lord has seen me through all of this and I am so thankful for his strong hands and arms to keep me strong through it all.  The only thing that has made me sick through it all is if I try to eat any carbs.  They just make me sick sick sick. So I stay away form them for the most part.  I do try every once in awhile to have them, but I end up sick and have to go to bed for a while so I just avoid them.

If you read this I hope that I am and inspiration to you and that you have the best life that you set for yourself and be safe and choose what is best for you. My choice was the RNY and I would never change a thing!!!

PAR

ok so I have not really been weighing myself lately, becasue I have been on a stall and I hate looking at a scale that does not move.  So anyway the other day I got on the scales at school. And I could not belive my eyes!!!! I had made it to below 200 pounds.  I was weighing in at 198.  I am going on 7 months out and I have lost a total of 102 pounds.  I was so excited that I told my whole class.  I don't care if the world knows that I had surgery, it is who I am and they can take it or leave it. Most of my friends and family are so stoked about what I have accomplished. 
I am now also going into my 5th month of college also, I am not beliveing at how fast it is going.  I will graduate in November, then back again in Febuary.  I want to accomplish so much with what I have started and I know that  I will with the grace of God with me. 
Anyway I just wanted to add that I have made the century mark for myself and that I am tooting my horn these days. 
Oh yea, going out to eat sucks big time I hate it.  with the exception of going and having fajittas...


P

Well this has been a very quite spring break for me.  I had planned on going to see a friend down in Corpus Christy, but she has ben swamped with work.  So maybe when I get a summer break.  By then I should pretty much be to my goal weight.  I only have 63 more pounds to go and I will be there.  And I will be 6 months out on May 18th. 
I have been in college now for two months and both months I have made the presidents list.  My first semester I had made a 96 for my grade average and then this second month I had an average of a 98.  And I have perfect attendance both months.  I plan on making the presidents list every time.  I have also made big plans for my life.  I am not only going to be a insurance speacilaist, but I am also going to take the medical asst. courses.  Then when I am through with all of this and I have worked for a while to get some of these school bills paid I will put myself in school one more time to become an RN.  I figure that I am 42 right now and that by the time my 50th birthday gets here I wll have accomplished some goals in life.  Since I have started this life style change I figure I will make changes all around in my life.  My precious husband is behind me 100%.  He has even changed his work schedule to ensure that I am able to go to school.  And I know that he is also liking the fact that his wife has been changing before his very eyes.  I can say that most days I see the cahnges and then there are days were I don't. But it is all good.

I have also gotten a new baby since the last time I wrote on here.  I am a cat person and I have added one more to the mix.  He is a cutie.  I call him Guinney.  After the beer.  Of course my baby whiskey is not happy right now, but he is statring to get use to having to share his mama.  And I have more scares on my arms and legs that this little guy is giving me.  I hope that really soon he will not see me as a tree to climb, or something to grab ahold of when he starts to fall of of something and I am near by to grab.  But anyway it is all good.  

Oh yes I have to share and amazing thing that has happen to me this past weekend ( 4/19/09).  My bff from down the road called me and the honey and invited us to go to the Galvaston County Fair.  Well we went and had a blast with her and her honey.  Well the amazing things is that I was able to get on rides for the first time in 16 yrs.  I was so happy that I did not have to be asked to get off the ride because I to big for the bars to be locked for safety reasons.  I rode 3 rides and loved every spinning moment of it.  I screammed and laughed my tush off.  God has blessed me with a whole new life. 
Anyway that is all for now...

Well I am feeling so blessed these days.  I have finished my first semester of school and I have made the presidents list and have had perfect attendance.  That is going to look so good on my resume. 
I have made it to 221 pounds so far and I have about 66 pounds left to reach my goal weight.  I was almost shocked to see how much I have lost.  I still have this huge know that sticks out the front of my stomach and it really irritates me to no end.  It almost makes me look like I have not lost any.  But I will have it fixed when I have plastic after I reach goal.  I am losing my hair now and I know that it is because I am not getting enough protein.  I really try.  My doctor says that we do not have to do the protein shakes but I am trying something so that I can have the added protein in my diet.  I am also taking Biotin with all of my supplements.  I have been faithful taking all my supplements because I have had this surgery so that I can live and to not take the supplements is just plain suicide to me. 
I have gone and cut my hair so that I will look fresh and look nice for myself.  My husband says that I look real good and that is something from him because he is not a short hair kind of a man.  I got my hair cut like Kate Gosling.  Form Jon and Kate plus 8.  I love the hair cut that she has and it looks so cute when it is fixed.  I have fixed it everyday since I got it done.  I have even started to wear a little makeup lately.  It has just made me feel so good about myself.  Plus for some reason I just feel a little sexy when I am fixed up.  My husband has always noticed me but it is ever so more prominent now.  He has always been a sex driven man, but he is like a crazy man now.  I wish I could say that I was more sex driven, but I just haven't reach his plateau.  Maybe after I lose some more weight I will feel even more better about my self and not be so self conscious about myself and being naked even around my husband.  God Bless him he has put up with me for 21 years over this I hope that he will stay in there for the long run.  Oh yes he has even lost some poundage since we started my journey down the weight loss road.  He is down to what he was when he was in his 30's.  I am so proud of him.  My oldest son has even lost some weight.  It is all because we only have healthy stuff here in the house now days.  Well they still drink a soda each day but that is it. 
Anyway I just wanted to update my blog and let everyone know what has happen in my life so far.  will add more later on in the month...

Well it has been some time since I was last on here posting.  Back in January it was I believe.  I have had so many changes since then.  I am now down a total of 70 pounds since I started my whole journey.  It has been real interesting.  I had my first real dumping episode this week, OMG I thought i was gonna have to go to the emergencey  room.  You see I have another hernia next to the one that I already have.  And this ine hurts like a big dog.  Well I still have some of my liquid codine left from surgery and I took a little to help with the pain that I am having.  Well let me just say that after 15 minutes I was in night mare mode.  After a while it was excruciating and I almost called my honey to come home to take me to the hospitol.  But then I figured that I would try and flush it from my system.  I started drinking my drink like a crazy woman.  It finally flushed from my system but by the end of it all I was just so miserable that I just let it carry me to lala land and fall asleep. 
And you might ask how did I get this new hernia, well lets just say that that 70 pounds I lost, well I am still packing it around you might say.  I started college this past month and my books weigh around 60 to 70 pounds and lifting the rolling suitecase into the truck is killing me.  But I am proud of myself for going back to college at the ripe old age of 42 and that I have lost the weight that I have. 
My weight loss is slow compared to some but it is a blessing.  Before I lost this weight I was not able to sleep as good as I do now.  I would toss and turn all night.  And I could never sleep on my side more than 30 to 45 mins a night.  Well now it is no problemo.  And one of the things that I wanted more than anything was to be able to go on long walks.  I am now able to go and walk for up to 4 miles aday.  I do not need to sit down and rest every 15 minutes like before.  
Oh yes before I forget one of the most important things that I have done, I am no longer a smoker.  I had my last one the night before my surgery.  I am not even craving them.  In fact the smell just about kills me.  I hate it with a passion.  Oh yea and another thing that has changed for me is that I know longer like coffee as much as I use to.  I now just drink about 6 oz per day instead of the whole pot like I use to do.  What a change. 
I have been really challenged to get all my liquid in daily, but I endevor to get what I can in.  Some days I can manage at least 32 oz then some days it is no more than 24 oz.  But all I can say for myself is that I try. 
I take my daily vitamin along with my Bvitamin sublingual, folic acid, Iron, and calcium.  The iron and folic acid was added last time I went to my doc.  But they say other than that I am doing well.  I am set to go back to him for my six month check up in May.  We will see how my blood work is then.  


Well I think that is all for now that I will close for now, for all of those that read this blog I pray that you have a very Blessed day!!!
Patty Ann

Well I am now 7 weeks out of having my RNY and I am feeling great.  I am now 32 pounds down from surgery day.  My docs office says that I am doing great.  I know that everyone loses weight differently but I feel I should be down more like others on here at OH.  I also know that I have to get my ass out there and walk more than I do and that will help me with all the weight loss.  I do have to say that my sister n law is a dream she gaveme a mountain bike.  I have to get new tires for it and I will be on my way.  I am so excited.  I have not been on a bike since I got preggers with my oldest son 20 yrs ago.  I guess after my first time on I will be sore as hell.  But I am so stoked a about it.  I have also found a gym that is like around 10$ per month.  My honey says that he will do that with me.  He has been real great about all this.  He has even lost some weight along with my son.  They are sort of embrassing the new way we eat.  But they sometimes for get that I now can not have what they can, like Mickey D's.  But that is now a rare treat for them.  Oh yes and I am so stoked I found a beef frank that only had 3.5 grams of fat.  I was in heaven eating my one frank ( Hot dog ) here in Texas.  I was sad that I did not get my chili on it, but when I make my homemade kind I can.  yeah!!!

That is all for now!!!

Well I had my surgery on the 18th of November and I am now down 17 pounds.  I am feeling much better about myself and even went on a trip to see my son that is in the Marines.  We got to spend a great 24 hours together.  And I walked so much.  I still have  ways to go to see if all that walking will no longer hurt my back but I am hopeful.  I am sleeping much better from just getting that few pounds off and that is making me much happier.  And I have slepted in my own bed since I returned form the hospitol.  I have found that I feel hungery alot but when I go to get something I just no longer have the hunger for it.  I am trying to get all of my water in and found that I never got in as much as I shoukd have to begin with.  Even before surgery.  I will perserve and have my liquids in if it drowns me.LOL 

Well it seems as if the insurance does not want to help with getting a VSG done so I have change the route in which I will proceed form here on out.  I am now in the process of changing dr.s and will change the type of surgery that I will have done. Hopefully he can do a RNY without having to repair the hernia.  If not then they will hopefully all be done at the same time.  this has to be done and I will not wait for things to happen slowly anymore.  I am going to take the bull b the horn and do these things on my own so to speak. God and I are in control of this life not some damn insurance company...

I have always known that meeting new people is good for ya but I have made so many new friends on OH that it sometimes boggles my brain.  All I can say is that the women and men on the Texas board are amazing.  I am hoping that next year I will get to go to the confferance and get to meet some of the people that have been so kind to me this past few months.  The amazing thing to me is that I have made a friend that is really close to my own home and we are going to be going through our proccess together.  I think that we may have our surgeries in close proxemity.  ( I know my spelling is awful, sorry).
I had a friend recently ask me about the new avatar that I have, I put it because I want a reminder of what sweets will be in the future.  Although I know with the VSG it will not be a dumping thing.  Just a keeping the sweets away will be the thing to do so that I will continue to have a healthier life and maintain that life style.
So to all those From TEXAS