Movin' right along....

Jul 14, 2011

It's been two months now as of July 10th, and I'm already down 41 lbs! I am absolutely thrilled, but at the same time my "fat" brain is still thinking like a fattie. I guess it's just hard to start seeing yourself in a different light. Start seeing what everyone else is beginning to see. I believe part of it, is the fear of self-sabotage. I mean, I've been doing everything I should...eating right, exercising and talking to others. I've started wear clothing I actually sort of like instead of just what "will do" or whatever fits. I've been walking 5K 4-5 times a week, pretty religiously i might add. Every work out is a struggle. I have to talk myself through an hour on the treadmill, always thinking I could never finish each (and this is each and  every time), but always mustering up the courage to somehow make it through. I also use the nautilus machines each time, progressively adding weight and/or reps as well as additional exercises to the routine. Let me make this perfectly clear....I HATE EXERCISING AND I'M SORE! As luck would have it, my heart rate is beginning to slow down with each session now too. So, I have to change things up fairly often in order to keep it up in the target heart rate zone. Otherwise, I'm basically walking for no reason.  Supposedly, variety is the spice of life! Yeah, let's go with that.

Anyway, to celebrate a great start to my weight loss as well as my upcoming birthday, I finally got the tattoo I'd always wanted. A small, feminine hebrew word (meaning "Hope") on my right wrist. I'm very pleased with it, as I had been putting it off for five or six years at this point. But all things considered, I think the timing ended up being very appropriate. Pics are up.

The struggle still continues, fighting temptation at every turn. Not eating anything I shouldn't, but maybe a little too much here and there. It's a battle and always will be. The sooner you accept overeating as a disease, the sooner you can begin to heal and move on with your life.  In that same vane, I've made the decision to start making some additional changes in my life. Some big changes.  Things I have been planning to do, and should have done years ago. The time is right. The time is now. Details to follow.

Movin' right along...............................

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