1 year post-op Today

Apr 27, 2010

Today was my big day.  Had one year post-op appt. today.  It hit right on to the exact day today.  My labs were good, just low on iron and calcium.  I got a little relaxed a bit and did start slacking on taking my vitamins every day.  I just need to get back on track.  I have to say I'm feeling excellent.  The year has flown by so fast.  I'm estatic on how much I've changed weight wise, mentally, and physically.  I  wanted to reach my goal weight of 140 lbs by my one year point,  I didn't make it, but soooo close.  I'm at 160 right now, I've been maintaining this weight about 3 months now.  I could maintain at this weight the rest of my life but I have my mind set that I will reach goal someday.  I must say that at the one year point the new does wear off a bit and I'm finding myself getting relaxed.  I slip up once and awhile and eat too many sugars, carbs, and haven't been getting my exercise in.  I know this is the reason I'm maintaining were I'm at and haven't reached goal weight.  Darn it!!!  I did it to myself, I could and should have been at goal by now.  I'm determined and I will get back on track starting today.  I set a new goal, ok so my 10 year HIgh school reunion is going to be the first weekend of August,  I will be at 140 or below by then.   Here is some new photos also,  what a difference.  Hope everyone of you out there on obesity help is doing great.  I'm gonna also try to start keeping up on my blogging again.  I really need to get back on track with everything.  -Crystal  

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Why is that when I get on plateau, I get more depressed?

Dec 30, 2009

Hey everybody, Sorry it's been forever since I wrote.  Hope the Holidays were great for everyone.  Hope this new year approaching is a good one for all.  I've been stuck at 166 FOREVER.  In fact, at one time I did get to 160, so I guess I gained six pounds.  To me this is extremely scary,  I feel like I'm starting to fail.  I get to thinking I'm going get stuck here and even start to regain.  I'm not blaming the holidays because I know what I've done wrong.  I've caught myself grazing alot lately, which is a big no no for RNYer's.  I also haven't been motivated to excercise like I use to.  For some reason I feel like I'm getting so depressed like back before I had my surgery.  I know I shouldn't eat something but I still do it.  Maybe I'm trying to set myself up for failure.  I've done so good so far and now I feel scared that all my horrible habits are creeping up on me.   I need to get this under control NOW.  I'm so tired all the time,  I can just sleep my day and nights away.   I don't understand what is going on with me.   I was so motivated at one time,   I was so close to reaching goal of 140 but the scale isn't moving and in fact it went up six pounds.  Wow,  I need to get back on track fast.   I'm realizing how much of a food addiction I had and now it's all coming back to me.  At 7 months post -op I can eat anything and feel fine, this is another concern to me.  I know it's not too late,  six pounds creeping up is alot better that gaining back the whole 114 I've lost so far.  I just need to get motivated and figure out why I'm so tired all the time.  Take care everybody, wishing you all a Happy New Year.  -Crystal.
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4 1/2 months post-op

Sep 10, 2009

Sorry everybody I haven't blogged in so long.  WOW first off I need to say it again loud and clear THIS SURGERY WAS THE BEST PRESENT TO MYSELF!!!!  How great is life now?  Extremeley awesome!!!!!  So much has changed.  I've come up with a list of what I love since surgery and what I don't miss from my old never going there Again days. 




THINGS I LOVE NOW 
1. going shopping
also a tie breaker for #1 spot-  Having better SEX NOW!!!


2. Riding bike
3. Taking walks
4. Even though I'm a taken married women, getting checked again and noticed is nice
5.  I love being freezing cold all the time as opposed to nasty sweaty hot all the time
6. Trying on clothes in department stores
7. Getting dressed up for special occasions
9. Wearing high heels
10.  Waking up with energy
11.  Having people every single day tell me how wonderful I look , and they actually mean it
12.  Fitting in the booths at all restaurants
13. Driving without my belly hitting the stirring wheel
14.  Going anywhere and know I'm not the fattest person in the place
15. Love that my daughter and everyone else can wrap their arms around me when they hold/hug me
16.  Love my insecurities are about 75% percent gone
17. Love having pictures taken now
Gosh, I can go on and on all night if I sat here and thought about everything that has been so wonderful or changed since I've lost weight.   I guess You all get my point.  I know all of you are also experiencing this wonderful sureal feeling also.  IT's GREAT!!!! And for all of u getting ready to have surgery I wish u all well and a safe, happy, speedy recovery. 


AS of today September 10th, 2009 I'm down 91 lbs.  I weigh 183, started at 274.  I have 43 more to go to get to goal of 140!!!!  This is so amazing.  I'm only 4 1/2 months post-op.



What I don't miss from being 274 pounds
1.feeling like I'm fattest/ ugliest person in room
2. people starring with those judgemental eyes when I ate or was out shopping
3. buying clothes and taking them home to find out I need to return them because they were too small
4.Feeling hot and sweaty all the time
5.  Out of breath
6. Tired
7. Hated wearing dresses
8.  Hated getting dressed up for special occasions
9.  Hated how some people wouldn't even acknowledge me or make eye contact with me
10.  Being told "you have a pretty face"  this was the only thing nice people tried to say to me to feel better.
11. Wearing big old ugly granny panties
12. Hated looking at myself in the mirror daily, with and without clothes, didn't matter.
13.Hated going to restaurants and had to ask for table instead of booth cuz i knew I couldn't fit
14. Driving with my belly hitting stirring wheel
15.  My daughter not being able to wrap her arms around me to give a hug
16. My legs rubbing together causing rashes.
17.  Hated any pictures taking of myself
Same thing, I could think of so much but this part of me is going to be a memory only.  I will do my damnest to not get heavy again.  I will have to look back and remember how much I hated my life then.   I enjoy how much I have to look forward to from now on.
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I'm amazed this surgery is awesome

Jul 31, 2009

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Hit Onderland a couple days ago, yippee

Jul 26, 2009

Wow, I'm wide awake this morning.   Trying to figure out what I should go and do today.   I do work tonight, but I have the whole day ahead of me.  Today is my 28th birthday, and yesterday I celebrated my 3 year wedding anniversary.   My hubby and I had a nice dinner at red lobster then we watched the new movie The Proposal.  It was such a good movie.  It's funny cuz in a month him and I have to do a similiar interigation interview thing at the immigration office also so he can get his green card.    We so related to the movie.  I'm feeling better than I have in years.  Tomorrow I have my three month checkup with surgeon.  I'm gonna tell him he gave me the best birthday present ever.   I had a HUGE wow moment the other day.   My hubby, little girl and I are going to our friends wedding this weekend.  We had to go shopping for all our wedding attire.  I went into dressbarn and got to shop in the misses sizes and not the other side that had plus.  I bought the cutest fancy dress that was a size 15-16.    I'm definetly going to take some pictures that day.  I can't believe that I got to buy a dress smaller than when I went to my high school prom.  I think that dress was an 18-20.  This dress is fancy like a prom dress so I feel like a teenager all over again, I can't wait to get it on and go to this wedding.  I bought the little black high heels to go with it also.    I also have to celebrate that I did make it to onederland a couple days ago.  I officially weight 198.  So I'm not in the 200's again and I hope I never ever see those numbers again on the scale.  Another WOW moment, geez I'm full of them this morning.  My parents got me a brand new mountain bike for my birthday.  I haven't rode a bike in years.   They surprised me yesterday and told me and hubby to stop by, there was the new bike sittin out in the yard waiting for me.  I rode it a couple of laps around my parents neighborhood.  I was alittle shacky cuz its been years.   I now have a bike I can ride for excercise.  I plan on trying one of these days to ride it to the hospital where I work instead of driving.  I live about 3 miles away from my job.  I better do it soon cuz in wyoming it will start snowing here in a few months. Like in October so I have a good two-three months to try and get myself into riding to work instead of driving.     Wow,  I'm so happy,  I haven't felt so happy and full of life in so long.  We all deserve to live our lives to the fullest and the weight is what set us all back.  It's time to get out there and enjoy each day to the fullest.   To everyone whos had surgery you know what I'm talking about, for people getting ready to start their journeys I tell you this is the smartest thing u can do for yourself to get your life finally back.   Take care everybody-Crystal
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so excited, so much to be thankful for

Jul 21, 2009

Well, I haven't blogged in forever.  I wanted to wait until I hit wonderful onderland before I busted out with a blog about it.  So far I'm at 200 lbs.  I wanted to be in onederland by July 27th my 28th b-day.  I still might make it.  Today I found out I can fit into a size 15 jeans.  Haven't been in this size in years.  I'm so thankful for each day that has been made even better and better.  This surgery was the life saver for me.  I've noticed that I've come out of my shell alot.  I feel more confident and happy all the time.  Everything is getting better.   I have more energy at work and I think I'm more productive.  I can even work all the overtime I want  and still have a decent amount of energy.   I was getting lazy there for awhile when I was at my heaviest.  I'm making more friends and opening up to more to people.    I plan on going out with my hubby tomorrow night.  Right now my town is filled with thousands of tourist for the big DADDY OF EM ALL frontier days rodeo.  We are going to the rodeo tomorrow then going out to celebrate with friends.  I want to have a drink or two but I have to think of something not to bad.  Maybe a shot or two of tequilla :)   I'm celebrating alot tomorrow night.  My 3 year wedding anniversary, my 28th b-day, and a few girls from work it's also their b-days.   I'm going all out and going party hard tomorrow night.  I will wear my size 15 jeans out, and some black sexy lace-up heels I bought.  I haven't worn heels in 10 years.    I hope everyone of you is doing great.   Take care everybody -Crystal
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This surgery was the best gift I've given myself

Jun 16, 2009

Today I went shopping.  I love bargain shopping.  I bought the cutest summer shirts and capris (  not brave yet to wear short shorts )  I bought all my clothes at goodwill.   I love deals, it doesn't bother me that someone else owned them before me.  As many sizes you drop from wls it's not worth buying expensive outfits until u reach goal.  I'm so surprised that I wear a size 16- 18 now.  Before surgery I use to wear a 24 (3x)  I still have a ways to go.  Goal is 140 pounds,  75 more pounds to go.  I started out at 274 and now I'm 215.  I still feel and look heavy but I know I'm not as big as I use to be.  It's difficult to feel confident when u go so many years feeling hidden and scared.   Next month I will be celebrating my 28th Birthday on July 27th.  I'm thinking that from today's date till July 27th I could drop the 15 pounds that I have left to get into the wonderful ONEDERLAND. YIPPPEEEEEE!!!!!!!  If this happens I will be the happiest I have been in years.   I know I can get this 15 pounds off by my b-day.  This surgery was the best b-day present I could have ever got in my whole entire life.  I hope everyone of you is doing great and enjoying the summer so far.  Everybody take care. -Crystal
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Loving this outdoor grilling weather

Jun 10, 2009

Tonight I grilled some boneless skinless chicken breast.  I found a calorie free, carb free, and sugar free bbq sauce for flavor.  It's made by Walden farms.  I bought it in the diabetic food section at the grocery store.  I checked out the website and the company has numerous other products that I will have to try.  The website is www.waldenfarms.com  there is other sauces, salad dressings, dips, and other stuff that I will have to try out. I will not have to go without the stuff I love ,  since all the products are sugar free, carb free, and calorie free.  Interesting huh ?  I love alfredo sauce and they have an alfredo sauce on their product list.  The BBQ sauce I put on the chicken tonight was good.  It's not like the real stuff but it's better than nothing.  It still had a sweet tangy flavor.    I know for sure I will have to stick to sugar free products for a very long time.   The last couple days when I was sick with swine flu I didn't eat anything at all.  Last night I thought a little icecream wouldn't hurt me.  I even got the blue bunny kind that has low calories, only 5 grams of sugar, and made with fat free milk.  I ate about 1/2 cup and tolerated that at lunch( yes i made the icecream my lunch,  what can I say I was sick)  Later that night for dinner I had another 1/2 cup.  So all day I just lived off ice cream.  My throat was so sore from my cough will this nasty flu.  Well,  I learned what dumping syndrome was like last night for the first time.  Oh, it lasted into the daytime TODAY AS WELL!!!  Lesson so learned.  I will not touch ice cream again for a long time.  I will not chance going over in carbs and sugars either.   Tonight for a sweet treat I had some seedless watermelon with my chicken.  This is the first time I tried any fruit since my surgery.  It tasted so good and hit the spot for a sweet craving.   I will now turn to watermelon instead of icecream.  WOW  it doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out what is the heathier choice.  It finally took me 27 years to turn down icecream for a slice of watermelon.  It's amazing,  seven weeks ago I would have gobbled down icecream and wouldn't take the watermelon.  After enjoying the watermelon so much and it didn't send me to the bathroom all night a day.  I would have to say I'm no longer going to buy icecream but make sure my fridge always will have watermelon in it.    Take care everybody. -Crystal   
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6 weeks post-op and sick with swine flu

Jun 08, 2009

Hello, it's been awhile since I blogged.  I hope everybody is doing great.  Well, so far I have lost  51 pounds so far.  On Friday night was my first shift back to work at the hospital.  I was put on light duty, no lifting for another week.   I was sooo excited to finally get to go back.  I worked friday, and saturday night.  I called in on sunday because I was aching everywhere with a high fever.  Today, I tested positive for influenza A+ which the doc told me I can bet that it's swine flu.  I was exposed by my 5 year old little girl.  She tested positive last wednesday.  We were all very carful  around the house, washing our hands extra and I cleaned the house really good.  A few days before her symtoms she was drinking off of me, so I learned my lesson.    I'm in horrible pain on my left side under my ribcage, it flarred  up so bad from the hard coughing I've had for 2 days from this flu.  I'm getting it checked out tomorrow from my surgeon.  It has always hurt there since one week post op but now it's horrible.  I don't know how to explain it, it's like a burning pulling twisting feeling that's is constant now.  Before it came and went.  I have done horrible today with protein.  I haven't eaten anything all day, and only drank half of a bottle water.  I have no appetite and I have been sleeping all day, and can barely stay awake now.    I know this isn't good.  When u have no energy it's very hard to eat or drink.  This pain in the side is even worse than the flu symptoms.  I now I'll get over it soon.  I'm just being a baby I guess.  Well enough about my sickness.  Take care everybody. -Crystal
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pre-op face shot verses 1 month post-op face shot

May 28, 2009

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