CrystalH

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A couple weeks ago I found out my husband had been hitting my daughter and so I have filled for divorce and life is calming down for the first time in years. I can not believe how strong I am now...and I am not sorry nor do I have a broken heart for him...I do for my daughter and she sees all that I have done since I found out. Well hanging tough and loving life

I am having such a great day... Today on my lunch I am going to go buy a new outfit. and see what my new size is truely. I can't wait. and as everyone can see I have a new camera so I have no reason not to show off the new clothes I buy today. Well I hope everyone is doing well,,,,

I finally got a job..woohooo to that alone but this is the funny part it is at a weight loss clinic. Ohh who else would be great at this job but, me (someone who HAD struggled so. Well I had a great wow moment when I went to get uniforms. Last year I had to get uniform scrubs for college and I took a 5xl. Well I am now into a XL and some L. If I did not have this extra skin at my belly I probably would be smaller but wow to go from a 5xl down to a XL in less than a year. WOW...Well everything is looking better now and I think that with this job it will help me lose my last 50 that I have been struggling with. I hope to post every week and get on the website a couple times a week so please be patient with me. I am still here but just living life to it's fullest. 

Well I went to my first support group On Feb 2nd. Oh the new people I meet were so nice. and Ohhh my are they funny. I laughed so hard I almost cried. Well since then I have been looking at alot in my life and I see so much that is good and some stuff that needs to change. But you know what I found a place I feel NORMAL. You know when you are with a group of people and you are the only one with this tool of WLS people stare and wonder what you will eat (if there is food there) or they stare just because you look so different. Well with this group yes we did talk alot about what we do but No one stared at each other. and Everyone was so nice. I look forward to getting to know them more now. I have the best Angel that ever could be out there. She is having her own troubles but she put that to the side and helped me out. OHHH Phyllis I love you so very much. You are the best and you have earned your wings for sure. You will always hold a special spot in my life. You have been a great friend and you have been so informative and patient with me. I know that I can do this because I have the best of people behind me. I have alot of friends on here that check on me often so please everyone keep checking on me. One day I will be posting that I made it to goal. Even if it looks like it will be awhile but I have not given up and I will not because of all of you.

 

Well I have been fighting for about 2 months now to get the scale to start moving with very little luck, Employment search has gotten me no where. Ughhhhh, but I have started looking into plastic surgery. I have been having alot of pain from a hernia mesh that I have in my belly so I need to get it out. If I did not have that I would not be looking at having plastic surgery done yet. But other than all this I am doing great feeling great. Life is good now and it will just get better

I have been really struggling for a couple weeks. Alot of stress triggering some old habits to want to reappear. I am fighting them but it is hard. But hey it is almost christmas and I am going to see people this weekend that work with my hubby and they have not seen me since last year at this time. I am still stuck at 197 and I am ok with it. Soon it will drop again. Maybe this weekend I will get some more pictures.   

I have lost 100lbs since Last Jan. and I am down 87lbs. since surgery 7 months ago...

Well today I am 32 years young and I do feel young now. I have not been losing very much lately, but I feel great and I am living life again. I looked yesterday at my weights from every begining of the month and I am losing 10 lbs. a month now. This is the most I have ever lost. SO WOOOHOOOOO happy birthday baby

This morning I awoke from a nice dream that I had about my father...He has been gone for almost 11 years and in my dream he kept telling me how proud he was of me and how beautiful I am... I am still crying.....I guess I should be proud and I think he visited me and was telling me that I am ok.... I wish he was here to see this journey...