Crystal W.

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I'm back, should have never left, after losing my weight with still some to go, I think my head got big.  hehehe  Also I've become more active, hanging out, going to the movies, going out to dinner with friends/family.  So I''ve started to come out of that shell that I was in all these years.

My only issue is I need support just as much as I can also offer it to someone on the OH site.   I've gained a few lbs, enough to scare me straight, so I had to adjust my ticker.

I started counting my calories, just watching what I eat, and dropping the diet soda.   I was drinking so much diet soda that I wasn't even drinking water.  So I'm not only drinking water/Crystal Light, and diet soda only if I want it/special occasion etc.   I hurt my back recently, so I haven't been able to exercise, but the minute it feels better, I will get started with just walking.  I'm determined not to go back, so I'm 100% confident that won't happen, but I also have 104lbs to go to get to goal, so I need to use my tool for what it's here for and not abuse it.

So watching what I eat, counting calories , no diet soda should help me get to my goal.   I miss the people on the OH site, and will do my best to ch eck in everyday, and stay on board.  I should have never left, I need the support and have to come to grips this is lifetime, not just until I reach my goals, but for the rest of my life.

Fell off track for quite some time almost 2 months, and I actually gained 6lbs and went back up to 300lbs.   I started lowcarbing and I'm now down to 284 and I'm not playing any games.  

My goal weight fluctuates from time to time, I sometimes want to be 180 then 190 and even 200lbs.  I'm not a thin girl, and I never was.  Even at high school I was a pretty big girl, never skinny.  I'm definitely big boned and not meant to be skinny.  I'm happy at 284 and everyone tells me how good I look.  I went from wearing size 6x to 18...446lbs to 284lbs........ loving it.

I must say to anyone reading this, the surgery is just a tool.  Just like I gained 6lbs I realized that I can gain weight if I kept up my bad eating habits.  My stomach started tolerating fast food more, so I started eating a lot of fast food.   I also started drinking diet soda, to the point I drank diet dr pepper all day and no water. 

Since low carbing, I only allow myself 1 diet soda per day, and just crystal light/water for the rest of the day.  I do not eat any candy/sugar at all.  My treat is sugar free jello w/strawberries and whip cream.   I'm going to also order these high protein low carb puddings I found on www.bariatricchoice.com,  I already ordered their hot chocolate, has 12 grams of protein in a cup and only 6 carbs.    My other snack is pork rinds and hot sauce.  LOL  they have zero carbs, and when I need something to snack on, I go that route.  I've also experiemented with fried cheese which doesn't taste that bad.  I eat more veggies now with low carb, any green veggie except for peas is good on low carb.

I'm making a commitment to get the rest of the weight off of me.  My Dr. told me that 150lbs was excellent and he didn't expect me to lose this much.  He also said that most likely I will plateu soon and will need to get the 2nd part of the surgery which is the gastric part.  I actually was t hinking about the 2nd part and said most likey I will need to do it, because my weight was slowing down, and I started picking up bad habits again.   I got an epihany that said enough is enough, use your took Vertical Sleeve to the fullest.

Doing low carb I actually get full very fast because of my small stomach.  For instance I had buffalo wings and salad the other night.  I could only eat 4 wings and 3 spoon fulls of salad.  So my appetite is shrinking again compared to couple of months ago where my appetite started picking up again.

I'm going to do this another 84lbs to go, I'm determined, I made the decision to get this weight off, and I'm not going to do it  once and for all.  My goal is 10lbs a month, and I've already lost 8lbs  in 5 days, which I know most is water, but I'm hopeful.

OMG down 150lbs in 7 months, my appetite has picked up, but not enough to gain.  I'm losing, but very slow, and I'm working on getting back on track.

Although I'm 299lbs and a lb away from 300, I'm very happy to say that I made it to the 2's.  I've been a bad girl when it comes to diet and exercise, I went rogue and trying to break the self sabotage spell that I'm under.

I say self sabotage because I'm doing this to myself, and for some reason cannot seem to break it.  It's a battle that I fight everyday, and I tell my coworkers that's going for the surgery to make sure they mentally get ready, because this was not easy.  Don't get me wrong, my sleeve helped me to lose almost 150lbs and I'm so happy, but I have another 109 lbs to go, so I need to stay focused.

I just want to say to all my OH family that's been supportive to me, a big kiss, hug and thank you.  I 've been blessed with some great people on line and off line...

Enough about me, I've been very busy working 2 jobs, and just wanted to say I'm not back making time for my OH family as well as myself.  Working 2 jobs in the past was the cause of all my weight gain.  Always making excuses that I don't have time for the gym etc.  

I renewed my gym membership, and I cleaned up my room to make room to work out at home too.  No excuse.. Now I just have to kick the diet soda/candy addiction that I picked back up.  LOL...

I'm also going to try and get on OH at least 2-3 times a week, as I need a place to vent, and I also need to give support to my fellow sleevers.

Well I'm going offline, working 3rd shift and i need to get ready to head home for sleep.

Take care everyone.

Wow 140lbs in 6 months is very nice, although I have about 120lbs more to lose, I'm okay with this.  I'm half way there, and my goal is to try and knock the rest of this weight out in 4-5 months starting in September.

It's possible, because this month alone I  lost 17 lbs so far and that's with 2 weeks of cheating.   During my TOM I get a little crazy and with all the diet soda/Crystal Light I began to crave junk, so I ate stuff I wasnt supposed to eat.   Now I'm cold turkey on the junk and I've been doing pretty good.  My goal for this month is 18lbs and I'm only a lb away.

I'm telling you watching your junk and carbs is the key to success.   Starting the gym back as well as my Thin and 30 DVD set.. Cannot wait to get back into the gym.

Im getting very flabby and I know that's from me not working out in the past 2 months. 


So 9/1/ 11 will be the beginning to my end!!!!!    If I can lose 17lbs in 1 month, why not go for 25lbs and lose a 100 in 4 months... 

September 1st I'm going to calculate my weight to determine how much I need to lose to get too my goal of 190.  I'm hoping to be 299lbs by 9/1/11, that would be a beautiful birthday gift to myself.

I then want to break that weight into 4 months and really get it done.   So I'm getting myself ready now mentally, because that's all it is, MENTAL!!!

I shut down my gym membership because I wasn't going, so I'm now emailing the owner to reinstate it 9/1 and I'm also going to do my Thin and 30 DVD.  I purchased this set, and haven't been doing it, and although I'm losing weight, it clearly shows that I'm all wobbly and jiggly  LOL   So I definiately want to firm up while losing.

Back on track finally, lost 3lbs in one day just from doing what I have to do.   I now realized, and I've always known this, artificial sweetners are wicked!!!!    I love Crystal Light, but I had to put it away, because it was causing me to crave things I have no business craving.

I only allow myself 1 Crystal Light a day, and only 2 packs of Splenda a day.  BEfore I was putting Splenda in anything and everything and I was drinking 6-8 Crystal Lights a day.

I'm actually just drinking water for now, but will drink one Crystal Light if I desire.  Funny thing is after just drinking plain water w/lemon for one day, I didn't have any cravings for junk ie chips, icecream, cake.   I also haven't craved diet soda which is also a good thing too.   I was really over doing it with the diet soda.  One day I actually didn't drink any water just diet soda.    It goes to show you the food addiction never goes away, and this is a constant battle.  The WLS just helps, but you still have to work at this.   And I'm actually willing and ready to work at this, and win this battle.

I wasn't really gaining weight when I was eating the junk, but I was not losing either.  Although I'm very proud of myself for the weight loss, I still have 119lbs to get to my goal weight of 190bs.   I cannot rest..


I'm also thinking about trying to lose 25lbs a month I can do it if I stick to my eating plan of low carbs, low sugar and low fat.  I really want to get to goal.  My fear is if I don't lose the 25lbs in that month, will that good ole depression set in and I start eating bad again.

119lbs to GOAL, I love my tool, because it lets me know in order for it to work I need to work it..  I also need to be serious and realize I didn't come this far to go back.  

This battle has always been won by fat for over 20 years, and now I'm winning, and will continue to fight until I reach goal.

Exercising has not been good, I purchased the Thin and 30 DVD set and only worked out twice.   So I need to start working out as well.   However I'm almost at my goal for this month.  My goal was to lose 18lbs, and I'm down 14lbs so far.  For 2 straight weeks I was actually eating crap, so I would have went past my goal if I followed through and ate the right foods.

I need to reprogram myself, my mind and realize this is lifetime.   Not until I get to goal, but I need to eat like this for the rest of my life.

8/16 will make 6 months, and I'm down 138lbs so far... Would have like to reached the 2's by now, but that's okay.  Another 9lbs and I will be 299 yeahhh 

Haven't seen the 2's in years, so this will be an amazing goal for me...

My other goal is 18lbs a month for the next 8 months.  That would get me to my new goal weight of 190lbs and I cannot wait.  Getting a lot of responses from co workers and family now, they can see it more than I can.

Had a fellow co worker slip me his phone number, although I'm not interested, it was my first phone number I received from a guy in a long time, so I will post it on my wall to remind me...

Big girl is getting her sexy back, and it's coming so fast I do not know how to handle it.   LOL  

Need clothes bad, will start checking out craigs list and thrift stores because I'm going through clothes so fast.  Day of my surgery I was a size 6X, and I'm now a size 22/24 or 2X...

I sometimes feel like crying because I'm so overjoyed with emotion now.  Weight loss has not gone to my head, when I get compliments, I'm so thankful and I make sure to tell people THANK YOU....

I'm still the 446lb girl in my head, and getting compliments and stares in the store, sometimes it seems so strange.  I even had a white brother with tattoos and piercings winking at me in the store.  It's just amazing and I love the attention, but need to stay focused.  I have more weight to lose and I need to make sure I'm losing it as I don't ever want to go back to that 446lb girl.

I didn't love her nor did I like her.  I treated her badly by abusing my body with all kinds of junk, as my health was deteriating.  Now that I'm healthier, I'm loving me again, caring about what I eat, and trying to get my health back on the right track.

Peace, Love, HOPE and prayer to all my OH family on this website.  I pray we all reach our goals!!!!

Okay 8/1/11 starts my new beginning to my goal weight.  I just purchashed the Firm weight loss system "Thin and 30, and weighed myself on Monday for a total of 323 lbs.   subtract my goal weight of 190lbs from that, and it brings me to a 133lbs that I need to lose.

I divide that weight into 8 months and it comes out to 17lbs per month I need to lose.  I know 17lbs is a lot to lose in a month, but I'm going for it.  I got started on my work out tapes and watching my food/carbs, and I snuck on the scale Thursday monring and lost 5lbs already.  I cheated a couple of days, had some sugar free snacks, and pototoe chips, so I need to get my head together and My goal is to be cheat free.

All who reads this, please keep me in your prayers.

Aug, Sept, Oct, Nov, Dec, Jan 12, Feb 12, Mar 12,  ----  GOAL!!!

MONTH #1

August 1, 2011 Starting Weight:   323lbs
STARTING BMI: 46

August 31, 2011 Ending Weight:
ENDING BMI:

Total Loss for the month of August

7 MONTHS TO GO !!!!

I started this journey at 446lbs, and have lost 119lbs.  I started slowing down with weight loss, and noticed I was eating ltos of carbs and not much protein.  I also picked up a bad habit of eating a lot of sugar free chocolate candy which has calories, so letting that word sugar free trick me this time, but I've decided to go cold turkey on the diet soda and sugar free candy.

I orded the new fitness system called Thin in 30 by "The Firm" and that's being delivered this week.   I just need to dig up some work out clothes, sock and sneaks and get started.   My start date is Monday 8/1, not because it's a Monday, but I wanted to start in August,  and the 1st day of August happens to be a Monday.   I will weigh myself on Monday 8/1 and divide my remaining lbs to lose by 8 months.   Currently I have 133lbs to lose, divide by 8, that comes out to 17 lbs per month to get to my goal weight.

Of course that will change, because if I don't reach 17  lbs, then the remaining months will have to be adjusted.  If I lose more than 17 lbs I would also have to adjust.  I'm looking for this to be fun and challenging.  I'm a huge procrastinator, so I'm really looking to do this and make it work.

I also want to get my CDL license eventually, and I need to lose weight to pass the physical, so I really need to get this thing moving.

I won't post my food journal as I keep a busy life style with two jobs etc.  I have a notebook that I will be recording my food in and keeping track.   I will weight myself the 1st of every month and weigh myself at the end of every month to determine if I met my monthly goal.  

I've made an agreement with my son not to weigh myself more than once a twice a month, which is the beginnig and end.  Any who read this, please keep me in your prayers, as this journey will be challenging, but I have faith in myself and GOD that I can accomplish this task.

If I reach my goal weight before the year is out, that would be nice, but I'm giving myself a year as it makes more sense.   12lbs a month comes out to 3lbs a week, so I'm up for the challenge.