csanmiguel01
The everlasting wait!!!!
Jul 19, 2007
Well, I am here and everything is at the insurance.... Is it too much for me to think about, but I do.... Every minute. It is hard for me to concentrate on work and other things. I am just doing my best to stay positive and pray as much as I can. Thank god for this website, it keeps me sane!!! 
I try to post questions and vent and I always get such a great amount of support. It is hard for me to talk about things to my friends and family sometimes because I am usually the strength in everything & everyone's life. Now I am trying to open up more, but it's hard when my friends are really overweight, so I don't want them to get annoyed with hearing me whine... I love them so much that I try not to bother them. Stupid though, that's what they are there for and they would kill me if they knew I felt like this. My bday is on Sept. 14th, I am praying to have my bday before then. Start my life over you know???
It's all good and will only get better.
I try to post questions and vent and I always get such a great amount of support. It is hard for me to talk about things to my friends and family sometimes because I am usually the strength in everything & everyone's life. Now I am trying to open up more, but it's hard when my friends are really overweight, so I don't want them to get annoyed with hearing me whine... I love them so much that I try not to bother them. Stupid though, that's what they are there for and they would kill me if they knew I felt like this. My bday is on Sept. 14th, I am praying to have my bday before then. Start my life over you know???
It's all good and will only get better.
Continuing.....
Jul 01, 2007
So throughout all of these appointments, I have been diagnosed with off the charts sleep apnea, and I am in the process of finding out the results of a final ct scan that was done on my last week. It was to review an abnormality that was seen in my heart, but the my cardiologist's believe is nothing. So I am scared, but hopeful. Mainly because after this, I am done with all my appointments and as my PCP is getting the packet ready to turn over to the insurance company, these are the last results. I am asking for prayers and support as I am hoping with all my heart that I will get approved and get the chance to start my life over again. My counselor has helped me so much and this is the first time that I have had someone to talk to. I have dealt with so much in my life and I have always stayed quiet and lived my life as I am supposed to. I always wanted to write on my blog, but have always been nervous about being judged. So now I am hear, pouring out my soul and trying to find my way at the age of 33.....
A little bit of everything
Jul 01, 2007
I haven't really done much on my page in regards to keeping it up to date on my journey. I started everything in March an have taken the time to do all my appointments. I have seen my surgeon, visited with a pulmonologist, cardiologist, psychiatrist, counselor and PCP or course. All the while working full time, going to school and taking care of my parents who are disabled, It has been quite a journey, especially a very emotional one. I did my sleep study over Memorial weekend and have spent the summer basically following up with all my appointments. I have been very lucky having a support network like my friends. I have lost my boyfriend throughout this process which has been a tough blow, but I know it is all for a reason. I am becoming stronger and stronger everyday, praying anxiously for my surgery to be approved.....
