csbsteph
The best gifts
Dec 26, 2014
The best gifts in life will never be found under the Christmas tree, the best gifts are the ones you love, family, friends, kids & pets...one of my best gifts this year was feeling great and being 86 pounds lighter than I was this time last year. Last year I was so tired and miserable and didn't allow any pictures of me to be taken. This year my husband took a picture of me for every gift that I opened and I didn't fuss. I still feel fat and have to look at myself in the mirror to be sure I'm not almost 300 pounds anymore. Every time I put on my size 14 jeans I still can't believe that they fit and say to myself "those won't fit you" and when they do each time I'm amazed. Last Christmas I was wearing a size 24. I have several New Year resolutions, one of them is to try and find my inner confidence and quit beating myself up mentally. Sometimes I like the pictures of me that are taken but other times I say "gee I'm still a fatty" I need to stop being so judgemental towards myself.
I've been holding steady around this current weight (196) for a while but I try to not get discouraged & stay on plan...I did have some egg nog, a few home-made gingerbread cookies and some tootsie rolls this Christmas so I did fall off but I'm back on track today. I baked the home-made cookies and my daughter decorated them, I baked cakes and didn't lick the icing or batter so that was a miracle for me. I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas...May the spirit of Christmas last all year! Merry day after Christmas everyone, keep it in your heart all year & Happy New year too.
Me & my husband
Me & one of my dogs...wondering where her gifts were
Me & my daughter
Happy New Year everybody