csulli21
Okay....my story. I was born a fairly normal 8lbs. I have always been bigger. I was bigger in berth and taller. I also developed early. I have the best parents in the world and I am their only child. They have probably sheltered me a bit but not to my detriment. The funny thing is I was a very outgoing child. I never knew a stranger and would walk up to anyone and talk their ear off. I was this way until we moved in 5th grade. I had an incedent. People I thought were my friends started calling me it every time they saw me. I know, l know, get over it already. But this changed how free and comfortable I felt around people, it made me doubt my worth and myself. And like it or not it was a defining moment in my life. From then on I kept a big part of me back and was afraid of rejection. I was still nice and had some friends but very few times did I let them know me, the real me. I have found in the past few years that I lost a lot of who I am in the intervening years. Well, I want it back and am slowly getting there. I am trying to figure out who I want to be. Of course weight has to come into the picture sometime. I think I started really being bothered by it in high school. I was always chubby before but in high school I gained about 20lbs a year. During my senior year I tried LA Weightloss and lost about 25 pounds. Then I went to college and there was not a center in Savannah, Georgia, so out went the diet. And I gained the 20 pound plus another 20 over the next 4 years. Well, I graduated from college in 06 with a masters of architecture and got a good job. Okay, life is pretty good. I have a job, apartment, two kitties, and parents who love me. But I have no life....I''m just existing not really enjoying it as I should. I don't date or go out with friends and its all on me. So fast forward to Dec. 2006 when I started looking into this surgery. My uncle and my mom's boss recently had the surgery and feel great. I also remember reading about Carnie Wilson. But really did not think about it...it just seemed imposible. Then my parents broached the subject because agian I had tried Jenny Craig and just didn't like it. I was still misserable in my own skin. So now I'm on this journey both scared and exilerated. I am ready to really live life with all the ups and downs that come with it.
