Well . . .It's been a while

Nov 30, 2009

Okay, I had surgery in 07, over two years ago. One thing I can say is I will never regret it. Right now I am struggling and something I have realized is that I will probably always struggle. That's just reality. So I just have to live consciously. Easy said, much harder done! :) After surgery I lost a good 70 pounds and felt pretty good. I then got laid off and moved to Las Vegas. I now live there still and have a good job. The bad thing is I stopped thinking about myself. Which is where trouble begins. Choices, those are the things that I have to be conscious of. So right now I have currently stopped drinking regular sodas, joined a gym, and hired a personal trainer. I've done pretty good going to the gym but of course I have my off weeks. I actually like it and have found that if I change cloths before I leave work than it is really easy to just go. The elliptical is my friend. The only thing that is irritating me is that I am honestly exercising more than I have in my life and I'm not loosing weight. But I know I'm getting stronger. So I'll just have to stick with it. I'm also trying to get back on eating more consciously. Thinking about what I'm putting in my mouth. I sit in front of the computer for 9 hours a day and its easy to munch if I don't think about it. I am also a night eater. So I end up eating the most calories at bedtime which of course is not good cause there is very little chance of burning much of it away. My water intake is off and on. I really don't mind water. I just have to fill up my container and then I'm good. I'm thinking of maybe finding a half marathon to train for and then a marathon. I like having goals, I do better focusing when there is a goal ahead of me. I have done two half marathons but its been a while and I love how good I feel when I finish one. So for now that's it . . :)
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whoops!

Dec 08, 2008

Well it has been over a year since I posted last. Obviously I got through surgery in one piece or I would not be here writing. I've lost a good 60 pounds and I've put myself on hold. Meaning life got crazy and I think I got intimidated and stoped trying to loose more weight. Since i had surgery I have been laid off from my job in Indiana and moved to Las Vegas becasue I got a new job. I still feel so much better about myself since I got surgery and would not change anything. I need to get over my insecurities and get back on track. And I will. I love Vegas (and not the strip) It all really worked out. I love the people i am working with now and am pretty happy. I'm currently a size 16 from a 22. So that is progress and I still have this great tool to use to help me. A really cool thing that happened is that my hospital bill was written off by the hospital. Because of my financial stuff they (after a lot of hassel) decided that I would not have to pay anything. My aunt helped a lot because originally we just wanted the bill to be a little less and we were fighting insurance and all. Life work in mysterious ways.  Life is better, I feel so much better. I need to get back on track and that is what I am working on now. I have sucked with taking my vitamins and I think I am feeling it cause I am tired a lot. So I am going to make a real effort to remember to take them. Well we'll see how long it takes me to update next time!!!

1 day and counting!!

Aug 09, 2007

Okay, so tomorrow is the big day. Last night sucked in that I could not sleep. I ended up reading a book until 3 and then went to sleep...and did not want to wake up to go to work. But of course I did. The funny thing is I don't even really know what to feel or think. Obviously I'm nervous and I still just want to get it over with, but other than that I don't know. I really want a life and am excited to start that journey. Who knows if I'll be able to sleep tonight. I hope I do because surgery is not until 3:30 tomorrow and thats probably assuming everyones surgery before mine goes perfectly. Don't get me wrong I want everyone elses to be perfect just like mine. But realitically things happen and time does not slow down for anyone. So surgery has a real possiblity of being later. But I'm bring a book. That should help considering I LOVE to read. Well, until I get to the other side.....tootles!!!!

Two days to go!

Aug 07, 2007

Well, I went to my first support meeting last night. It was okay. I met a very cool person.... Cassie. We both wanted to bolt as soon as we looked in the door and saw about 20 people there already. But of course we didn't. The meeting was pretty decent until the end when they started reading from a packet and then it was just a little too much like school. So, I officially have two days left until surgery. I'm doing okay. Getting a little nervous if I dwell on it..(it's really hard not to dwell  ) But all in all I'm glad I went to the meeting and I really just want it over with!. Don't know if I'll go to the meetings every month but will probably go again. Later.

Nothing new

Aug 07, 2007

Just want this waiting over with. I hate waiting it sucks!!!!!

4 Days!!

Aug 06, 2007

Well, I have 4 days until the surgery. Good Lord am I ready to just get this over with. What kills me is trying to think of whether or not i'll be in pain and how I'll deal with it and all that jazz. I know I just need to stop but heck you try not thinking about something like this as it gets closer and closer!! I'm really going to try and keep up with my posts so that there are no huge gaps but we'll see what happens. Have I said already how much I just want this to be over with? LOL-Later Carrie

What the he**

Aug 03, 2007

Don't have anything new to say just thought I'd write something. Okay I'm done!


7 days 11 hours and 50 mins.

Aug 02, 2007

 Well, that's what my count down says! It's actually a little more than that due to the fact that I'm not having surgery until 3:30 p.m. Man that is going to be one long day! I can't drink water or anything. So I think I am going to drink as much as possible the day before and hopefully won't get to thirsty the day of. I'm still nervous and excited. I just want to feel good. I'm honestly not sure I know what that feels like. This weekend is when I'm going to go get all my vitamins and suppliments. WHoo! right. I really hope I'm not a baby with pain.NO I REFUSE to be a baby. Right now I just want to press fast foward and get all this waiting over with!!!! LOL  Well thats all I've got for know.

Weird Dreams

Jul 31, 2007

Okay, well I have like 9 and half days before the DAY. And I have been having some weird dreams. I can't tell if I'm nervous or what. (Okay i get nervous if I thing to hard about it......hey, it's major surgery) On the other hand I want these nine days to just go away. I want to get it over with already! Okay thats all I got!

Another poem!

Jul 28, 2007

DON'T QUIT


When things go wrong, athey sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit-
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us soometimes learns,
And many a person turns about,
When they might have won had they stuck it out.
Don't hive up though the pace seems slow-
You may succeed with another lobw.

Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victor's cup:
And he learned too late,
when the night came down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out-
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit-
It's when things seem worst that you mustn't
QUIT!!!!!!!!!!

About Me
greenwood, IN
Location
41.8
BMI
RNY
Surgery
08/10/2007
Surgery Date
Dec 13, 2006
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whoops!
1 day and counting!!
Two days to go!
Nothing new
4 Days!!
What the he**
7 days 11 hours and 50 mins.
Weird Dreams
Another poem!

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