cutepuppy
I have asked God for years and years to just "zap me" and make me thin. No answer yet to that prayer. I mean, I prayed about this a really long, long time; I'm 62! Here I am, finally, pre-op for WLS, and I'm just as excited as if I were years and years younger. I see a whole new life ahead. A life that includes flying on planes to see grandchildren and to travel. Walking in new cities and having new experiences with my dear husband of 44 years. Having energy to do the small things, and sometimes the big things, but mostly the everyday things.....like tie my shoes by bending over, run up the stairs, work in the yard, walk from the farthest parking spot at the mall to the stores, paint my toe nails, play with my grandkids (that's big not small, lol) etc.
It's been a "hard knocks life" for me! I borrowed that from Annie, but she won't mind. I grew up between two families, and never quite fit in anywhere. I did have one constant --- FOOD. It was always there and never disappointed. Being the big member of the family made me shy away from occasions and relationships. I've never felt worthy of love. Funny, I can see that differently as an adult, but still feel the same in many situations. It comes back to haunt me time and time again.
I'm a big kid who wants to go out to play. I can't wait for surgery and for the beginning of a new life. My prayer is being answered.
