Starting over....again

Jan 30, 2019

What can I say, here I am back again with even more weight to lose. I got down to 228 only to gain it all back again with my stupid choices. I can't seem to stay away from the soda and sweet and overall overeating. I don't dump anymore but I sure wish I did. I have pulled out my paperwork from surgery and made a 2-week menu with the foods that I should be eating and I am gonna do this...again. I am rereading The Body Fat Solution by Tom Venuto on some of the mental aspects as that seems to be a major kicker for me.

I have stretched my pouch by a lot. If I eat say chicken I don't get a full signal per se but more like I "I just can't take another bite - yucky" feeling. So I know that it is still there just not a lot of restriction. Would love to be able to go have it tightened up. See if that would help any but that is not an option right now.

I seem to want to eat ALL the time. I have GOT to come up with something to do so that I am not eating. I am not working so I don't have that to fall back on. I am waiting on my disability to come through for mental illness. I have my hearing in April. All the stress just has me eating and drinking exactly what I am not supposed too.

But...again...I have not given up hope. I was able to lose it twice before so third time is a charm eh? One of my problems is I don't attend a support group so I have located my closest in-person support group to attend once a month and I am gonna take my arse to it. Talk about embarrassing but maybe there I will get some much-needed support. Plus I am gonna find me a group on here and make sure that I am interacting on a daily basis. Even just to hold myself accountable. 

I am starting over with a lifestyle change, not a diet. I have my macros set to the level the doc wanted them for my fitness pal. Ready to start tracking my macros. I have already changed up my coke. I am drinking sprite zero and gonna limit myself to one soda a week as a treat for now. In a month or two I will cut it out completely. Make up some sf pudding and jello so that I have something for my sweet tooth and hit the ground running. 

I can do this. I've got this. I will not fail. My first mini goal is 275. Gonna take small steps so that I don't get discouraged and quit. 25-pound increments are my focus. Wish me luck.

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Lawton, OK
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RNY
Surgery
10/21/2010
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Jan 22, 2010
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Felt like such a blob and hurt everywhere
340lbs

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